I'm surprised there isn't always a "Say it! Get

>>17813558

I want a PS4 Pro

Something about these threads feel better than posting in the "Write a letter to someone who will never read it" threads, I don't know why.

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>>17813571
Because autism I reckon

Imagine you go up to a woman in real life and say

"Something about posting in one 4chan thread vs another feels so much better, you ever feel that way?"

>>17813579
so are you just doing a bad job at trolling /adv/ or what

I have a secret fetish for nipple hairs and it makes me proud.

>>17813588
Buddy, do I have a deal for you...

>>17813588
88 confirms it

I really wanna message her, but I don't wanna seem needy.

She usually responds to all of my messages, but hasn't this last time. Maybe just swamped with work, given end of the semester, and her jobs.
It's been almost 4 days since I sent it.

>>17813591
Go on?

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>>17813586
I'm expressing myself wherever I please

You're free to block me; part of the reason I have that fancy code there

>>17813588
then why is it a secret

>>17813601
Because I like to be naughty

>>17813596
I was about to send you some nipple hair pics, but I remembered I had work to do.

>>17813606
Are you female?

>>17813609
Sorry, no.

>>17813611
Good I don't do that shit. This is a serious fucking buisness and I won't have it ruined by some dainty ass fuck who thinks she's all that.
Sick of it!

>>17813598
Arguing with pseudonymous users is more fun.

Tell me more about yourself.

>>17813635

I like anime where the main character dies

I main Protoss

My first girlfriend was from Quebec and she was cute for the first 2 years and awful for the next one

I recently made a Fetlife account and I'm interested in trolling autistic people in real life after fucking them

I'm a sadomasochist that enjoys making cute girls cry and also like it when they bully me

I think girls who've suffered greatly are more attractive and endearing

My girlfriend cheats on me, and it breaks my heart, but i stay because i'd still rather be with her than without her.

Thanks to my disability check normies tax money goes to me. How can I use the money to get a gf?

>>17813688
Mail order bride.

>>17813673
Not to be a pol guy, but you are almost literally a cuck.

>>17813701
Not almost. I AM literally a cuck.

>>17813711
Ahem.

Your ancestors faced starvation, war, death, and famine to succeed. They literally fought tooth and nail at some points to build a future for you. By a combination of their determination and the wheels of fate, you came into being.

Countless trillions of tiny moments had to occur for the right sperm to reach the right egg to create you.

You are the pinnacle of evolution, one of a species that defied the earth and stood on the moon.

And you're sitting there, crying in front of a monitor, because your whore girlfriend has no respect for you.

Have some goddam dignity. It's trite, but hit the gym, begin to read and improve your sense of self worth. Understand that there is no 'one' for anyone, but a collection of them that could make you happy around the world.

Man the fuck up now.

I fell into the trap of believing dating shouldn't be treated as an insensitive numbers game. Fuck whoever suggests be friends with a girl before you start dating, it just makes everything worse.

>>17813778
I don't understand, what's you point?
Emotions are unmanly? As a man, i should be a stoic rock, unfazed by anything?

>>17813588
I'm quite the opposite, I have a fetish of plucking hair off my nipple

>>17813844
Hell no. Geez. I guess I gotta spell it out.

Leave the woman behind.

I was trying to say that you exist for a reason, that events and people conspired to create you. So you shouldn't be sitting there like a cuck, like a half-man.

Emotions are fine for men. Shed your tears. No one expects you to be unfazed, that's dirty propaganda.

But don't be a cuck man, don't be a doormat. You can still find happiness somewhere else.

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>>17813558

I owe nothing but "intuition" to checking to trash and finding a condom wrapper when I was previously married.

My thanks go out on the wind.

I HATE YOU SO DUCKING MUCH. WHY ARE YOU SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT? ALL I EVER DID FOR YOU WAS CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR WELLBEING. YOU HAVE ME WLFILLED WITH SO MUCH RAGE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO WITH IT. I HOPE YOU DUCKING DIE AN AGONIZING DEATH. I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND THE MAGNITUDE OF DAMAGE YOU'VE LEFT ME WITH.

you don't care though

>>17813854
This seems to go completely against what you said
>Understand that there is no 'one' for anyone, but a collection of them that could make you happy around the world.

I agree, there is no "one" for me. So there's no reason think that out of all the billions of people in the world, i'll stumble upon one of the handful that may or may not exist, that would be better than who i already have.

People have been saying "Don't give up, you'll get there eventually" for the last three years, and I'm nowhere near getting a good job.

I think I've fallen out of love with my boyfriend of five years because he doesn't want kids. But I'm too ugly and insecure to willingly put myself back in the dating game.

I want to run away and live in a tent in the forest until I die of hypothermia and/or starvation. Sounds like a decent way to go at the moment, and certainly a better way of living than what I'm currently doing.

>>17813895
Sounds like a horribly painful and slow way to die, and not better at all than what you currently have.

>>17813874
>So there's no reason think that out of all the billions of people in the world, i'll stumble upon one of the handful that may or may not exist, that would be better than who i already have.


One, there are probably thousands of women you could be happy with, even in your own country much less the world.
Two, literally anyone would be better than the whore you currently have.

Honestly, is your sense of self esteem so low? Are you actually a man?

Maybe you need to see a doctor and get your T levels checked because your reaction to your girlfriend fucking other dudes is 'well it's too hard to leave'.

Fuck man.

>>17813905
>Two, literally anyone would be better than the whore you currently have.
Why do you think this? Is fidelity really the most important quality in a partner? Why?

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I hate that my autism comes out sometimes when I'm hanging out with my friends in the undergrad room. I really try to be funny, and most of the time, it goes over great. I just have an uneasy gut feeling that they know and resent me for it.

>>17813927
Why would they resent you for it? Real life is not 4chan. Just don't be an asshole, and it'll be fine.

>>17813924
To me? Yes it's in the top 3 at least. There is quite literally no point in a relationship with someone if you aren't going to dedicate yourself to each other. You sure seem dedicated to this bitch, but she isn't to you. You're a slave.

And you said 'your heart was breaking' in your first post, so you obviously, instinctively know that it's wrong.

Men are not meant to share their women on a biological level. We're possessive and territorial.

You're going to stay? You'll be miserable, and bitter, and a shell of a man. And you'll never even have a chance of finding a great woman that not only is great to hang out with and you love, but loves you, respects you, and is faithful to you.

Sad.

>>17813945
I don't like it, but at the same time i kind of understand. It's not like i've never felt a desire to sleep with some other hot girl.

>>17813593
Anything?

I really wanna try just saying "Hey" and see where it goes.

Usually when we spoke, it is more of a rigid conversation, where we kept to stuff we were comfortable with.

Recently went through the worst breakups of my life. We were meant for each other. Except, all the arguing, bickering and yelling between us eventually and inevitably broke us apart. It was for the best. We couldn't handle each others' personality, I guess.

Anyway, we went no contact. But I had seen a recent picture taken about a week ago -- and she's gotten overweight and looks terrible.

I feel terrible. I feel responsible because I know the shit she has gone through in the past by other guys and by her family. And I was suppose to be that one guy that was different and stayed with her. I feel like up being apart has driven her into a deep depression, and I'm afraid she'll never get out of it...

>>17813972
Well then, you might as well start watching cuck porn and start trying to like it. You're hopeless because you have no sense of value.

I bet your dad is really proud of you.

>>17813558
I can't deal with you because I know you will lie to me and then feign ignorance when caught in dishonesty.

>>17813942
I dunno, maybe resent is not the right word. I'm more scared that they see me as a freak or some shit.

>>17813991
t-thanks

>>17814017
They're undergrads. They're all freaks.

I'm taking her out for a belated birthday celebration, but she REALLY doesn't seem into it.
All her replies are plain and to the point, when she normally sounds more eager.

I'm honestly anxious. But I guess we'll see how tonight goes.

I hope you suffer for the rest of your life. No matter how short or long your life will be.

You really did not need to mansplain "reversed audio" to me.

>>17814245
You might have to womansplain it to me, though.

I was suffering like a motherfucker for 3 months straight and today, when we talked, you didn't even ask how I was doing, you didn't even care I was gone, You really don't give a fuck about me, fuck me if I ever loved you, ignorant turd.

>>17814251
I'm a turd for not caring about you? Entitlement much?
I have my own shit to deal with.

Teehehe I'm so kawaii desu. ;P

>>17813558
I wish I knew how to argue, how to be assertive. I feel so spineless and miserable, but at the same time whenever I try to disagree with someone I can't seem to do it without being an abrasive asshole.

>>17814272
owe.. that shit even hurts me.

But my ex... You would think she'd care a little more. Considering how much we were a part of each others lives. but no....cut me out like nothing. Like all that time meant nothing

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I love you a lot. You are my best friend and I adore you so much. You only want the best for me so I understand that when you get angry at me for making dumb decisions.
We will see eachother soon, pal.

>>17814611
Work on your communication skills.

>>17813558
im getting older and sadder, and I smell like a cheeseburger rn.

Well, I feel like shit now.

Posted on of best people I know on /b/....

Probably won't make it back to them, but still I feel like shit about it

this client has not been worth it. this project and the people involved have been utterly detrimental to my life as a whole and I decided to stop caring too late.

fucking burnt out haaard, but it's all coming back now.

I'm fucking excited because I matched with a girl on Tinder, we got on, and we'll probably talk after class. Maybe she just wants a good dicking, maybe she wants something more. I'm looking forward to it.

Here's hoping I don't get stung.

I'm catching feelings for a girl I work with. She's kinda cute and I don't know how to read her signals. I don't know how to talk to women in general

I'm lame as fuck

>>17814763
I'm too clueless to get better though.

>>17813981
Was given this advice.

Reasonable or No?

just talk about your day, but make it interesting. Any little thing can turn into a good talking point if you're invested enough into it. Ask her about hers, but be specific. Don't just ask "how was your day?" ask "How did [valid activity you know she does] go today?" Get to know her, start off with broad things that aren't intrusive and if she likes you she'll let you in and start discussing more. Communication is key: try to talk every day, but don't be pushy. Don't always start off convos with questions, talk about something neat you've done/seen/heard recently and be enthusiastic about it. If she's into you she'll talk. Give it a week or two (time is hard, I know) and ask her if she wants to hang out, pick a specific thing to do / see / listen to / check out together. Nothing too personal. You're still just friends. If that works out, you're almost in. More communication. More talking. Give it some time again (a week or two, difficult, I know) and ask her out on a date. Make it clear you had a good time hanging out with her, you enjoy talking to her so often, and this is absolutely a date.

Well fuck this world. Why the fuck does the world constantly shit on me? Just found out today my social security number is being used by someone other than me. Really world?

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
I hate living and I hate people for succeeding when I am not.
I can't believe I turned out to be such a useless, stupid little bitch.
I wish my family would be better and stop being so fucking miserable and lazy.
I wish I would just fucking do something instead of lying around like a piece of shit.
I want to kill myself but I know I'm too fucking selfish and cowardly to.
I want all of this to be over. Just someone bring some order to this stupid life I am living.

>>17809189

You were a good grandson.

Your post... moved me.

So now I have to get high so I don't choke my mom trying to pick out a present for my little sister.
Man I wanna shoot myself with her making me research all this shit I don't even like my sister all she does is be an edgy teen.

>>17815404
she will grow out from it but you have to talk to her and get to know her so that she doesn't regret much of her life

>>17815417
Bro fuck that shit she's like 14 why ain't she working a job and getting a computer gifted while I had to work for a shitty expensive one back then.

Insane she's doing jack shit.

There must be something wrong with me. Everyone stopped hanging out with me. Everyone avoids me or is always "too busy". I don't know what I did wrong. I wish someone would just tell me so I can fix whatever it is.

>>17815686
Your ''personality''

>>17815704
Yeah but what about it specifically? I never try to offend anyone. I like making people laugh. I'm never pushy or loud or mean to anyone..
...I mean aside from me sounding like a huge beta right now, I don't think I'm a terrible person. Unless there's something other people see that I'm not seeing.

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>>17815717
its probably that you're a huge beta then. being funny is not the same as being fun.

there's this guy i used to talk to a lot when i was young. met thru vidya. we talked for hours. but now that i've grown up, he has stayed exactly the same. he has not improved whatsoever, he is still massively depressing and boring. i don't talk to him anymore unless he starts a conversation with me.

he's even complained to me how everyone in his life always gets sick of him eventually.

yeah, that's because you're kind of shitty to hang out with.

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I think I fried my brain with drugs without being a druggie. Basically I fell into a cycle of getting an instant gratification, explained by jerking off 5 days a day, eating junk food with fucktons of sugar, watching video game streams, every day, every month. I can't imagine what it is like to be concentrated. Having been placed somewhere at the bottom 10% of students, nothing shakes inside me alerting there's something wrong. As if I put an effort and got an actual good mark, I'd never feel anything. I enjoy being bottom, enjoy feeling spite. I am lost and aware of my problem, yet I won't do anything, better stay drowning in apathy. It feels physically uncomfortable.

He left me years ago and I was fine. I mean not at first. At first I was horrified. I hated myself. I hated him. I still hate him, but I can't blame him. I was broken and relied on him too much in order to be happy. I would've left me too.

Eventually I changed, picked myself back up, and I no longer need others to make me happy. I vowed never to burden anyone ever again. Regardless of who was right or wrong, the truth of the matter is that we just weren't meant for each other. And I've accepted that and moved on.

So why do I still have nightmares about him? Why do I still have dreams of me trying to be with him again and him ignoring me for another girl? Why? I know we would never work out again. I know we don't have feelings for each other anymore. And I'm aware that dreams probably don't mean anything but...why? Why can't I move on? Why are all my memories still so painful? Is it all just a coincidence?

Slowly after a while of struggling financially on my own, I had to move back home with my parents. I'm saving up for my own place, and I know everything takes time. So I'm not worried. I know all this.

I had decided to stop dating because part of me started to fear what I might become if I dated again. I didn't want to hurt anyone by being depressed all the time nor did I want to get hurt again. But I'm slowly losing my mind being so alone. I feel like it would be wrong of me to date at this point because I'm becoming unstable again. But if I don't, I could get worse too. I don't know what to do. I don't know when I should move on, or if I should just keep waiting. I know I've changed. I know what both me and my ex did wrong and I swore never to become that fucking emo cringefest that I used to be. But I'm still scared. I feel like I just ruin people's lives.

Also it's been ages since I've had sex. Maybe the dreams are just from repressed sexual frustrations I've had? Haha..

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>>17815724
Ah. Well I can't blame anyone. I'm a huge introvert, some social anxiety here and there. What do I do though? Just force myself to go out and pretend to have fun? Should I try to be more outgoing?

Also my friends are introverts too, which worries me. Am I like some advanced introvert so deep in the crevices of my computer chair that even the most socially retarded of social retards can't talk to? Jesus..

>>17815750
hi anon. you're doing fine. you're working on yourself, and that's great. do you have friends? if you don't, you should make some friends. genuine friends, that actually care about you, not people you just hang out with and drink with or whatever.

it sounds like you need a real human connection - someone who cares about you. it doesn't have to be romantic. maybe i'm wrong, i'm not an expert or anything. but it can be just as therapeutic to care for someone else. personally, making other people happy is the only thing that i still get out of bed for. not just anyone ofc, not people that treat you like shit. people that i also genuinely care about and want to see happy.

just remember that you're not losing your mind, and you'll be ok. like i said, i'm no expert so i can't give amazing advice to change your life, but i wanted you to know that someone out there (me) still cares about you.

>>17815767
Hello anon. First off, thank you very much for replying and giving me advice. I was having a rough day today and it was nice hearing/reading someone say kind words to me for once. You really helped me out.

Also, you could be right. I've been kinda isolated lately since living with my parents. Even when I think about moving out, I want to try to live on my own and not with anyone else. I'm just so scared of being hurt or hurting anyone (my last experience with roommates wasn't great either, ha). I feel like if I just stay away from people, they would be better off. And if I don't feel good about it, that's my problem and not their's.

I also realized that my friends kinda stopped talking to me. They were supportive at first when they heard about the breakup but after that...I don't know...everyone just sorta split up. I must've done something wrong. I have a close friend I talk to every day but she lives in Massachusetts, so it's only online. I'm not good at making new friends, but you're right - I do need new ones that genuinely enjoy my company and vice versa. I've been hanging out with co-workers outside of work more but...it's a little weird doing that. I feel like I can't get that close to co-workers - know what I mean?

Ah, I didn't mean to ramble more. Just meant to say thank you and that I'll try harder to make new and better friends. Thank you so much for caring anon.

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i really want to see my old friends

i never had to deal with any of this shit when i was with my old friends

Back then i was able to be myself all the time, yeah we were a bunch of freaks and i was really ugly, but hell i rolled with it i rocked my skull hoodie and everything, and yeah we were a little bit anti social with everyone else but we had fun together

Now that i entered college i tried really really hard to a be nice guy, care about and be open to everyone else, then they started treating me like shit,and you know what? i really tried to understand them, i mean most of them got a kind of sad past, and i got one too, but well my old group of friends was all about accepting that kind of thing and just laughing at life in general, now these new guys are normal people, so instead of just ignoring them i tried to adapt, so i started changing things about me little by little to fit in, but then they just kept at it because i don't like drugs, because i like animation and science fiction way too much, hell even then i always cared abou them when they were drunk, and i played their stupid drinking games and endured all of their stupid comments about me, they even managed to break my heart , luckily i found one of my old friends here and she repaired my heart in the same way she did it years ago

But then after all that they did one last attempt and got me drunk like never before for the first time in my life, now all i remember from that night is that they trew me out and i walked back to my home, but apparently now im some kind of bad guy to them for some reason

i can't deal with this shit anymore, they have done way worse things while sober and i never judged them

i just can't see any good future friendship with this "normal" people now, i want to go back with all of my old friends,play vidya with them,draw funny stuff, talk about comics and cartoons go to conventions, and just hear their laughs again

>>17813558
I have crippling OCD and have basically done nothing with my life since I've been born. I think about suicide a lot. My best friend went missing.

Kill me already.

>>17813558
I betrayed you. Why did you stay with me? What I did haunts me so much.

I honestly want to die. I don't want to be tormented anymore

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>>17815812
2/2
Where do i even begin

>P
Thank you, so much for going out with me, you arrived at just the right time to save my heart, i really love seeing you smile and i just can't believe that after all these years you still laugh at and wanted to hear all those atheist jokes, you know i had forgotten them a long time ago, because no one else would laugh at them, you don't know how happy i was when we watched Dr strange together, back then people called you satanist, and well with my black skull hoodie i was a grim reaper, right now i really want to be a grim reaper again, but i guess i haven't fully recovered my essence, i really need to see you again when all your science school stuff is over

>F
Dude i wish i could go with you and C to america, im glad you will come back here this month, maybe we could draw some stuff together, i can tell you about the comic im drawing, we can play smash and talk about your shit taste at waifus all day, thank you for hearing me on the phone all this time, you and P really keep me alive

>C
Bro you know what, i still don't believe in any god but i would become a mormon like you if that means i could go with you to that mission,your new friends look nice, i bet you never have to deal with any of them trying to get you on fights, or drugs, i wonder how would you handle all the stuff i have to deal with now, im glad you are with good people because honestly the kind of people im with right now would surely try to destroy you, but anyways, i think the new halo is already out if you return here someday we have to play it

>K
You were kinda right , we were the X men, i tought our group was more like teen titans but regardless of that you were right maybe without all of you i would have been one step away from becoming an evil villain

i feel like i can still write stuff for O and Kt but in the end it all comes to this.

i miss you guys i don't know if i'll ever find more people with big heroic hearts like yours

B,

You're the first person I've developed actual feelings for in a long while.
You're legitimately the closest thing to perfect I could fathom.

But you're with her. And I know my place.

All I can do is hope that one day my place will be with you.

I fucking hate manipulative people, jesus fucking christ.

>>17815909
Good.

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I decided to give into my perversion and fulfill my long-standing curiosity and buy used panties online. I found out there's all these big communities of panty sellers online.

I'm a freak so I want some skidmarks, so I've been specifically seeking out girls who offer that. Like in their profiles/listings they'll say they offer poo stains and frequently even give prices.

It's been about a week since I started looking and so far the only responses I've gotten are "mm nah" and silence out of about five different girls.

I'm not even sure what I should be feeling right now.

I will love you forever. But i cant cope with you any longer. Im sorry.

>>17813861
You're no hero. You only try to "save" women that you think are weak because it gives you a huge ego boost.

I give relationship advice which a lot seem to follow, usually with good results. But I've never been in a relationship, so I am basically talking out of my ass when I give advice

>>17816144
Not the person you replied to but what the fuck are you even talking about? Who do you think that person is?

I came here when I'm sad. It's been two months already. For some reason I don't want to talk about what is happening with me, my friends haven't noticed it yet, but I feel like shit and I want to isolate myself.

I need to get this off my chest:

I met pegasus in real life. I have physical, holdable proof of it. He is just as pathetic irl as he is on the Internet. It happened months ago but God the whole thing was so cringeworthy

I wish I could talk about it but

Saw a new psychiatrist...

I made her cry.

:/

I'm real fucking sad and lonely all the time. Which is only worsened by anxiety issues and a lack of social skills.
Without my job (which I really enjoy) I might not be able to function.
I feel like if I had a girlfriend my life would improve significantly, because it's something I've wanted personally, not due to any pressures for so long, and would mean I'm not so alone.
And like, I could get a girlfriend if I had the social capability, because I'm moderately attractive. So like, have the standards I should have if I knew how to communicate.
So like, if you're an ok looking girl who uses 4chan you're already good so come and cuddle me and maybe I won't wanna die so much.

I still love you, and I do not know why.

None of the random girls I have seen could hold a candle to you, to the Sun that you are, but...

I have met another woman, one that brought out, in me, what you have. It breaks my heart that it is not you, though.

I tried, my heart, but I cannot wait any longer.

- R

>>17815750
I'm in a very similar situation. The past should inform the future, but never determine it. You sound very self-aware anon which is good, but don't be that hard on yourself, we have all made mistakes, we're only human. It's part of growing up and becoming who we are, allow that experience to help you. And don't be afraid of approaching others, you can be as good as the best version of yourself you can imagine, let go of the shame and regret, no one was born perfect. It's so cheesy to say all this, but you need to really believe it. I hope things go well for you

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There's a girl from work I literally can not stop thinking about. I see her face every time I close my eyes and I have impulsive daydreams about impressing her and receiving affection constantly.

The caveat is that we've never spoken. I'm a turbo-autist who can't hold a conversation to my life. Everywhere that I've been forced to spent a long period of time interacting with others I have acquired a reputation as a guy who never says anything. The only reason I even know her name is because I've seen her respond to it when called.

I've been infatuated with girls before, but I'm able to get over pretty quickly by just not thinking about it. But I can't do that now, apparently. I compulsively avoid her because seeing her face instantly makes me nervous and self-conscious. She sat next to me in the breakroom once because it was really crowded and my hands started shaking.

It's beginning to piss me off.

I don't know anything about her. There's no way I could even attempt a conversation because of my reputation. She's so pretty that there is no way she doesn't already have a bf/husband. We probably wouldn't get along. She probably thinks I'm a creepy asshole. I have nothing to offer her or anyone else. I'm a boring, miserable, shitty person who will amount to nothing. But despite knowing all of this with sublime clarity, the thought of her won't leave me the fuck alone.

I'm worried my psyche is just gonna fracture soon and I'll become a fucking stalker or something. I just want to go back to being a depressed basement dweller who only thinks about gaming and suicide.

What should I do?

I really, really love him and I'm sorry if I missed my chance

>>17816327
Stop using 'like' so much, you're typing like a valley girl talking.

Also women are not generally attracted to moody 'stop me from killing myself' types. Get out of the house and get a hobby, inoculate yourself to social anxiety by slowly dealing with more and more people.

I also have soc/anx and panic attacks, but I work around them and breathe through it.

Man up and go outside.

>>17816316
wtf how

I had a dream about cheating on you last night
I'm sorry

DARKNESS, ALWAAAAYS
IT DOESN'T MAKE MUCH SENSE

>>17816566
Literally the same old boring advice, that is 100% accurate

>go to gym
>develop hobbies
>slowly begin to work on autism by exposing self to more and more social environments
>get gud at talking
>approach girl

and either

>get shot down and retreat into cave and jerk off to trap hentai or

>get date, feel amazing and eventually give her some of your bratwurst.

It's literally all so simple, but it's unlikely you'll do it, because you're losing a battle to yourself.

>>17816688
That means nothing, don't worry mate

>>17815085
Anyone?

Just wanna get a second opinion on this advice.

>>17816763
I still felt really guilty when I woke up

/adv/ isn't mature and courageous enough to help my serious problems.

I wish I never met my best friend. He's like the perfect sandwich; experience it once and everything else just becomes shit in comparison, everything reminds you of it and everything is compared to it. I hate how much I love him (no homo) and it shows by how spiteful I am to him.

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>>17813558
Ahem
> IKnow I'm a piece of shit.
I've cheated on my gf about 20x. She's a selfish bitch and I can't stand to look at her, but I love her too much to leave. I don't know why I am like this. I stopped cheating a year ago because I promised myself I wouldn't do it anymore, but sometimes when we get into arguments I always tell myself I love her but I have no regrets. I am currently depressed at the moment and don't know what to do with my life.

>>17816810
Why are you just friends?

>>17816714
I already go to the gym, and have been for 2ish years. My hobbies are going to the gym and playing video games.
>slowly begin to work on autism by exposing self to more and more social environments
>get gud at talking
What does this even mean? Approach total strangers and humiliate myself with small talk neither party is interested in? I don't like shit most people talk about anyway, not in a pretentious way though. I would just sooner stay silent than bullshit about something I don't know or care about.

This isn't about getting laid. I don't fucking care about sex. Having her as a girlfriend would be hell. Worrying about her cheating on me or disappointing her or whatever the fuck else goes on in relationships is a lot more strenuous than worrying about someone deriding me for fapping to trap hentai, which I don't even do anyway. I want to have a clear head.

Are we a couple? Are you my bf? Sometimes I feel like you care a lot and you do a lot and I want to either. I'm sorry I made this conflict today but you hurted me. And I want to know if you are going to hurt me like this everytime what will you do? If I means not much for you, I guess, you will let me know.

There's this woman I don't think I'm ever seeing again after today. It's been a one year and half but I've come to terms with myself that I love her, but I didn't have the balls to open up with her.
Now, I'm sure she doesn't see me as anything personal but these feelings are crushing me. I went and wrote a letter, it's not long, about what and how I feel.
I'm sure and I don't hope that it will make her like me but I feel like I should let her know, after all the time we spent together.
I'm now wondering if I text her the letter or not and both ideas of how this ends are killing me

>>17816827
Not sexually attracted

So... Yea. I messaged a girl I am interested in today, and the maybe 10 minutes later my car shit it's self.

Hopefully not a bad omen as to what will happen with her. But still.

Currently sitting on the side of the road waiting for a tow truck.

I got rejected after I made out with a girl.

I feel absolutely worthless.

>>17816798
Possibly not..try going to 7 cups of tea?

>>17816282
talk about it, anon,
talk about it.

Ordered 3 pounds of weed, gotta share profit with my brother.

I wish I was a normie and could get a job easily.

>>17813558
I just want to text you and ask how you are but I can't even do that. fuck me I'm so pathetic.

>>17816368
you made me feel bro

im sorry you still care

>>17813648
Smart and dark with a wicked edgy humor.
>tips fedora

>>17817099
Yeah you are.

>>17817099
Do it for God's sake.

What's the point of being facebook friends if you don't want to reply me? If you don't want to do anything with me then unfriend me so I can let go.

>>17813558
I heard my knock 10 mins ago and as i put the key in to open it i just wanted you to be stood there. I knew of course it could never be you but i fkn hate myself for feeling the way i do about you. fuck you for fucking my life up and destroying what we had. I hate loving you.

>>17813558
i'm sending you a thank you card for being "the worst i ever had"

I am sure I will never be fully functional.

I have hereditary joint issues that have been getting worse the older I get. The pain makes exercising difficult even though cycling and running used to bring me such joy.

My increasing weight is only adding to my depression.

Shit, I even tried to get back into art again by saving up and buying supplies, making more friends with artsy people, and collecting tutorials and references but my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder flares up everytime I try to sit down and finish anything.

Same with writing.

I am trying to beat my depression but the usual advice of 'lol get a hobby' is such obnoxious advice. The next person who insists upon it is getting chopped in the throat.

onb4 go2adoctor anon! lol

I tried going to therapy too and the two therapists in this shit town are both crackpots. One was a hippie with a screaming pet bird in her practice that kept talking to me about her other patients and the other one insisted I kept a journal and 'everything would be fine."

Tried to go to a doctor for my joint issues, got referred to a specialist only for that specialist to outright ignore me and dismissed me despite me having a diagnosis for arthritis from another doctor. Acted like I was making it up even though I have literally no reason to and would love for this issue to go away so I can enjoy being active again.

I feel like I try to help myself and no one else will help me in kind. I'm very frustrated.

>>17817240
wow are you me?

>>17816688
Im really worried this is you.

>>17817217
this, anon, this, JUST DO IT!

I guess this is the best place to vent.

Whenever I look at PC movement examples or SJW posts online, it makes me glad Trump won. Knowing that Trump's election victory makes the mouths of PC people and SJW's go sour and dry is the silver lining in all of this. After seeing all of these stupid articles from Buzzfeed or sensitive learning posts on Facebook, I'm glad that this election has really humbled the liberal side of the media.

I don't agree with Trump on a lot of things and I think it's awful what the crazy Trump supporters are doing to minorities, but to shut the SJW's up this is kinda nice. I just wanna comment on every Buzzfeed article saying "This is why Trump won." The PC movement and crazy liberals pushed too hard against the right, and now the right is pushing back. Turns out white people don't like being made out to be the enemy and are getting sick of it.

I'm not even white, I'm just tired of seeing people blame white people on everything even though maybe it's their own ethnicity that's shitty. Give the white guy a break.

>>17817340
do it post on those sites, comment!

>>17817345

Nah, I don't want the backlash coming towards me. You know how crazy people get.

Anyway, reason why I typed this cause I saw a Buzzfeed article and clicking it just spiraled me down their website. One of their articles was advocating hard that two disney characters were gay and fucking the whole time during their movie. That just annoyed me someone would take the time to type of such a stupid article about a kid's movie and pushing a gay agenda on it.


Why can't a movie just be a movie? Sometimes a chair is a fucking chair and there is no deeper meaning to it. Damn seriously.

>>17816282
That's pretty hurtful

>>17816368
The feelings will always remain, I fear.

I am glad you have found someone to make you happy.

We always wanted different things.

Honestly, I would love to confess how I feel about you. I wish I could be in a long term LDR with you. But knowing how much success I had in the past, or lack thereof, I'm not sure if I can take another rejection. I don't want the holidays to turn shitty, being around you has made my life better and with a sense of purpose. I've began studying your language not only to exercise my brain and to become a polyglot, but also to get to know you better. I just want to know if you feel the same or something similar. You always seem to hide from people in general and I'd love to be the person to help you to trust people again. I love you.

Sincerely,
C

>>17816282

So what's your problem? You have a boyfriend now

>>17817066

I won't go into detail , I cried at certain times and was nervous from being lonely when I met up with her

She knows I just enjoy messing around on 4chan and while I did care about her, our personalities aren't really compatible

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I desperately need someone special in my life.

I am so tired of being rejected, heartbroken and tossed away. I am 27 and I never had an meaningful relationship or a stable progression and maturity in life. I have alienated all my friends due to my utter laziness, drug addiction, depression and complete lack of self care. I guess it's because I never loved myself. I have always hated myself and I had never really made effort to take care of myself.
My family is broken too. My father is a former alcoholic failure who has become too old to make things right. He tells me that I remind him of himself and that terrifies and destroys my self confidence. My mother who have been seperated from us since I was a toddler, has become a schizophrenic alcoholic that pretty much threw everything away. I haven't seen any of my siblings in so many years, to the point that I don't know how to keep in touch with them.
I am trying to recover and I'm slowly making progress, but my past still hurts me and I still have nothing and no one. I need someone to tell me that I am a good person, that I am worth keeping alive, worth spending time with. I need someone to tell me "I love you", because I am sure as hell I can't say that to myself. I just want my suffering to end.

Please tell me that I can make it.

I have a first date Sunday

I had counted myself out of relationships for so long that I never had any practice and now I'm 26

Feels weird

No idea where else this would go, but i just want somewhere anonymous that I can admit a bunch of incoherent things.

When I was 9 and my family still went to church, I was enrolled in the children's choir. The woman who ran it expected us to all sing in roughly alto range. I could hit alto, but only for a few minutes at a time, after which my voice would give out. She singled me out of several other kids with the same problem and would scream at me and throw things at me, saying how I was the reason all the other kid's voices were breaking. It made me a nervous wreck for anything having to do with singing. She would tell me awful things, like that god wouldn't love me or that my parent would abandon me, if i told anyone what she was doing. I kept quiet best I could, until I was in the car with my dad singing along to the song, then I broke down crying when my voice cracked. My family stopped going to church, and my dad had it out with the woman running the choir. My parents thought I should get counseling, but we were poor and couldn't afford it

My parents got divorced between 5th and 6th grade years and I had to go to a new school in a new town. At my elementary school I had a decent circle of friends, and would volunteer for the after-school cross-guards since my parents worked and would pick me up about 30 minutes after school ended anyways. at my new school i made one friend right away who made me trust him, and I eventually told him that my parents were divorced. Queue the bullying hard. he told another friend of his and the two of them relentlessly bullied me. They'd say things like "If your parents didn't love each other, how could they love you" or "You're the reason your parents got divorced." At one point the circulated a "hate list" around the class, where everyone was supposed to write down who they hated most. By the time it got to me, my name was the only one on the list, and written several times. If the teacher left the room, they'd l (1)

>>17813558
i am sexually inadequate and ugly. i'm so embarassed. i couldn't even get keep his dick hard.

>>17817607
lean forward in their seats and repeatedly smack my head, knowing i'd get in trouble if I did anything. Eventually the kid I thought was my friend talked me into going behind one of the buildings after school so the teachers couldn't see us, and having a fight. I punched first and he fell down crying, teachers come running over and take us both into the offices. 0 tolerance policy, I get suspended for three days while he gets nothing. My dad raises hell, but only gets the suspension reduced to one day. I come back and the kid has already told everyone that I attacked him out of nowhere. Now, on top of having no friends, everyone is afraid of me.

At the same time as this, I have a completely different pair of shits. These shits are super catholic and heard about my parents being divorced, and would spend all class telling me my family was going to go to hell. Eventually they "realized" I had a crush on a girl in our math class (I was literally just staring straight ahead and spacing out, she just happened to be the girl at the front of the row.) so they forced me (with violence) to tell her I loved her, and I broke down crying halfway through. Nothing ever happened to those little shits. (2)

>>17817607
In between 6th and 7th grade, I made friends with a girl on facebook who had been sympathetic to me during 6th grade. I'd talk to her on and off, enjoyed talking to her. During 7th grade the bullying continued. One morning I decided i was going to skip school so i could kill myself. got my dad's shotgun out of the gun case and had it loaded, girl texts me asking why i wasn't in class. So i didn't kill myself. She's the only reason I'm alive right now, just because she showed some common human decency. She doesn't know any of these, and we havent talked in years (Im in college at this point) but it still bothers me that I never told her what it meant to have someone who gave even a modicum of a shit about me.

Anyways that kind of shit has caused me to have issues with depression and self esteem pretty much my entire life. Feels good to have it out there. (3)

>>17817570
You'll make anon, will be a long process, you'll make it though.!

>>17813558
I wish my family would just accept me for who I am. When I was adopted my name was changed and they gradually began to deny details, unto today when they deny everything. I am scared of going to the doctor or hospital, because I have been abused before whenever they lied about things like my blood type. Sometimes I can elicit snippets of truth from them when they are intoxicated, or I overhear disparagement which contradicts the story they tell to my face. When my adoptive mother asked me if she should use Ancestry.com to check her heritage, because she does not remember- I wondered if she meant tacit ridicule.

I always make the worst decision
I'm an idiot for expecting too much.

Well, messaged a girl this.
"So... How was the first shift with the fire department?"

Now the long wait begins. Lets see, will she reply tonight? Tomorrow? Next Week? who the fuck knows. All I know is that I want to get closer with her.

>>17817662
Thank you. I really needed that even though you're a stranger.

Even in the last time.

God I love you.

I miss you so much.

>>17817607
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>>17817651
That's rough anon. I hope you can get some self love back.

>>17817318
and it was with HER.

I live in a travel trailer. Rent is 270 a month for rent /electric /water/trash exc but it bums me out I'm not in a real house. I don't invite anyone over because they will think I'm cheap. But I'm saving up for a new house. It's easy to save money so I am sticking with it for another 5 months then getting g a bew house. Until then I only meet up with friends at bars :/

>>17817734
i love you too, message me

Shit. Went abroad this year and met an American girl who just found out about my Aussie girl and has given me an ultimatum to pick one of them by the end of the year. No one at home knows about my American girl. I've been dating the Aussie for 4 years but I think it's time. HALP.

FUCK ALL OF YOU

It would behoove us all...

To remember that all we are is what we love
and not a fragment more.

>>17817695
Well she responded, but she's on duty right now. So, could have easily been called out again. Or may be busy doing stuff at the fire house. So, I definitely can't expect regular replies tonight.

>>17817480
E? If you are her, please have the decency to prove it.

Did I say I was happy? Forgive me, if so, as I have not felt that in some time.

All I ever wanted was you. I am sorry that it took me ruining my life to realize that, and I get to know that, until I die.

You have no idea what I would give, to just talk over coffee... Give me that, if this is actually you, and you have any lingering feeling. Still...

Can you admit, now, that you no longer question my love, at least? Despite it all, it has never waned.

>>17817739
Thanks. At this point I'm mostly fine, I just have trouble approaching new people, and a major fear of being excluded by others. Like if my I never check snapchat because I know that if I see my close friends having fun without me, Ill get jealous and go into a depressive spiral.

I hate Europeans, god fucking damn.

>>17816865
Just do it!

>>17813558
I wish I could use marijuana for medical purposes, but I am too scared of being tortured, extorted, poisoned, or prosecuted under federal law in a manner that includes all of the aforementioned.

>>17817840
I'm a E
But I doubt your the R I know.
If by some chance it is then all you have to do is add me on facebook and I'll give you my number.

I want to say I don't understand why but I clearly do.You're incapable of empathy and hate yourself to the core. This is why you never believed me when I said I loved you. If you can't love yourself then you have to wonder why I would. So when I said "I love you" and you said "No, you don't" it was because you knew the woman you presented to me was a lie.

What you don't know, my darlin', is if I would love the woman you truly are. You assume I wouldn't and that is where you falter.

I assure you I know you better than you think I do. Don't worry my baby that's why I fell in love with you.

Now I'm off and out of this place for another long while.

>>17814655
That's how women are, motherfucker.

"Relationships" are wars and sex is a weapon.

Play to fucking win or don't bother playing at all.

>>17817840
Your birthday is in April.

You met another woman that brought out what I did, which I assume was happiness. Let her be the light of your life.

I cannot do what you wish in good faith. Your love had always been something that had been questioned, considering the behaviors you exhibited and were willing to continue.

You destroyed me. I am still rebuilding to the amazing person I once was that you broke.

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So. This is it, huh? I'm over losing you. Or at least I think I am. I still have feelings for you. You'll always be my brother, no matter what. I'll always remember staying at your house all that time ago. Watching movies, playing games, shooting each other with airsoft guns and shit. Those are the best memories I have man. Every day I think about you.

Back then, every day when I'd come home from school, you'd be there for me. We'd play Battlefield for hours on end, joking around, making friends, all good times. But now when I come home, there's nobody. Nobody to talk to. Nobody to vent about how my day was. Nobody to talk about girls with. Nobody.

Losing you didn't seem real. It felt like I was dreaming. It's not your fault though. We both had our reasons to walk away, and I think that was for the best for us.

"Have you heard this story? A man injures his leg during the hunt. He's in the middle of the savannah, with no means to treat the wound. The leg rots and death approaches. The last minute he's picked up by an airplane. He looks down and sees a land of pure white below him, glistening in the light. It's the summit of a snow-capped mountain, the mountain is Kilimanjaro. As he gazes down he feels the life flowing out of him and he thinks, 'That's where I was headed...' I hate stories like that. Men only think about the past right before their death. As if they were searching frantically for proof that they were alive."

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Sometimes I wonder why do I exist.

When I was 5, I was raped my my mother's ex boyfriend for 4 years. He had threatened me w/ a gun he kept under my mom's bed in order for me to stay quiet. My chance of freedom away from him was when I moved out of my home state. But the sexual abuse didn't stop there; in middle school of the state I had lived in, my cross country coach used to molest me after every practice & my math teacher used to make me sit in his lap during class and had confessed he loved me.

On top of the sexual assault, I have schizophrenia & trichotillomania since I was 5 too so I have a hard time understanding people & their true intentions.
Another thing is that I had been homeless, lived in a townhouse that people used to break into, lived in my mom's friend basement some part in my childhood, & lived with an abusive uncle for all of my middle school years that beats up his pets in front of me.

So in high school, I forced myself to be happy around my friends but they thought I was crazy/delusional. If it wasn't for my boyfriend, I would believed them. The only reason why I was friends with them is because I had nobody else to take me home after school. When I broke ties with them, they had stalked me for a few months with my neighbors as witnesses & stopped when I got the police on them.

Around the same time, I started going on tumblr which I deeply regret. I'm going to say what happened recently. In a certain fandom, I attracted a creep who stalked me a year on my account & told people that I bullied them despite that I never talked to them until an art collab. It was until I reblogged a pro-lgbt post that they suddenly ranted about how bad of a user I was & made a lot of hurtful assumptions about me. I told them to stop & they 'apologized'. Then, I joined twitter & the same user stalked me there & told another fandom the same bullshit. So I deleted that too.

I just wanted friends but I feel like I can never make any no matter how hard I try.

>>17817960
I'll be your friend, Anon/Anonette.

>>17813558
I was hanging out with my friends and we decided to play some game where you ask and answer questions around the table. My crush was there. So was my ex. (my ex and my crush are good friends so its kind of awkward). So we went around the table and the question came up "who would you do at this table?". Everyone was serious about it. I left for a moment and my ex apperently said my name. I know she's wanted to get back with me before, but I'm not for that really. I kind of avoided the question till we had to leave and my dumb ass friends (and ex) kept bringing up the question of crushes earlier and basically of I denied the questions my friends would make it obvious I lied. So they narrowed it down to people at the table. So I was kind of stuck with that fact. so they kept trying to push it out of me till I left and I didn't tell them and I believe my crush knew I was going to say her but now she is giving me the cold shoulder really. I don't know what it is, if she is staying away from me because my ex likes me and she knows I like her now, or she just doesn't want to deal with me anymore because she knows. I don't know what to do sense I have to see her on monday. I don't know if it's going to be awkward or not. I do want to be with her but if it wasn't going to work out I would like to stay friends cause we have alot alike. will it work out between us?

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>>17817966
thanks but after the tumblr/twitter situation, i feel like i don't know how to interact with people correctly.

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I remember that conversation we had when I was suicidal and you told me that "the first time I see your face it will be when you're lying in a coffin." That night I had a dream that you drove from Arizona to Nebraska just to come to my funeral and my ghost haunted you afterwards. And after a while you finally fell in love with my ghost. Its fucked up but sometimes when I'm floating through my day I get the idea that maybe the only way you will ever love me is if I die.

>>17818001
It's fine, in serious though. If you want to talk, I'm here.

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I am the luckiest man on the planet, yet I feel worse than I ever have.

2 years ago, as a freshman at uni, I had severe social anxiety. I could only talk normally to my closest friends (who were all male) and my family. I was a mumbling mess when talking to other men that were the same age or older than me, and way too overly self-conscious. When talking to women it was even worse. I would visibly shake and sweat, and I could barely form a sentence without stuttering 50 times. I feel like my friends were the reason for this, because they were all like me.

Then last year I decided I had enough, and sold my dignity to join another, more social friend group. While they allowed me in, I was their raging autistic tool they liked to drag around and make fun of. However, it did expose me to the outside world, and my social anxiety was slowly calming down. I still was a total trainwreck around females though. I feel lucky that they ever even took me in, because many others tried but they were ridiculed even more and never "accepted".

This year, I was just sitting around with my new friends when a group of girls just started talking to me. I did not even say anything, I was just really quiet. They probably knew I had anxiety based on the way I talked and they were really supportive. I can now confidently say I can talk to anyone without stuttering much at all and worrying about how dumb I look, no matter their age or gender. I even have gained much respect from my new friends. All because I did literally fucking nothing. I was quiet and they did not have to take me in but they did. I feel so lucky.

Yet I feel more shit than I did 2 years ago. My self esteem is still in the gutter. My music tastes went from buttrock and mallcore metal to /mu/core feels. I don't enjoy life very much at all. I don't think I would be happy even if I did get a girlfriend. I get way too jealous and I still think about dumb shit I did earlier way too often.

Fuck.

>>17813895
You are not seeing things from the right point of view.

>>17817924
Quit with that TRP shit. This is why you arent in a happy relationship. Find a girl who dont play games

L

JUST TELL ME IF YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR HER

I DONT CARE, JUST FUCKING SAY SOMETHING ABOUT IT

L

>>17817942
Hello, my heart... Never doubt that, as I will always love you; more than my broken self can ever explain. You will always be the one, I just wish I had not been so broken when we met. I will always love you, and I will always hate myself; thank you, for coming into the open. I love you, E, I just wish I was worthy of you. Never doubt that, despite my flaws...

She will, and I will be the one moving this time. Still, it is you I want, and this does not feel fair. It brings happiness, yes, but she is willing to accept me, flaws and all, as you once did. As I said though, it is not fair to her; I... cannot be that man again. Yet still I love you, E, you just... took me at face value. Yes, I have never stopped loving you, despite how I acted.

I was an addict. If you had just waited until I finished rehab... Think, was the man you knew capable of this conversation, two years after the fact? Remember that piece of shit I was, before answering...

You were, are, the light of my life, then and now, and I hope you become what you want. I am sorry for not being the man I am now; you deserved so much better.

If we can meet for coffee, before I leave, great. If not, I understand. I just want to see you one last time, as knowing you, it won't end well for me, but it will help you. I owe you that, if nothing else.

Always remember, I love you.

>>17813927
Same... It's exhausting sometimes

>>17818117
ok, so here's another thing that i wanted to talk about. based on what i said earlier, am i playing the victim, actually an evil person, or a decent person despite all of this happening to me?

i have episodes 5 times a week where it gets worse around the time i go to sleep. my episodes are seeing lumps of black matter in the room, hearing voices that can be pretty negative or just random, random distance sounding noises, and believing that everyone hates me.

if you don't have schizo, this may sound crazy af but this is typically my episodes for years. boyfriend tries his best to help me when i have episodes but, given that he had no experience dealing with this, he gets super stressed out so i usually avoid telling him i have episodes.

do you think that people can be friends with someone like me? i'm happy being with my partner but i think that i need trustworthy and good friends. i watched one piece like crazy growing up so i felt like my life is incomplete without having friends like the strawhats. still do now... when i used to hang out with my ex friends, there were times that i felt happy around them and my episodes decreased but it was because i didn't know their true intentions were. despite that they treated me like complete shit, i loved them and treated them like family. bf absolutely hates them but i don't blame him for thinking like that.

Rachel,

I would've preferred if you just told me the whole truth. We haven't talked in almost 8 days now. The reasons why you cut things off just don't jive with me. I just think you stopped having feelings for me. It's happened before, in an older relationship. I swore to myself to never talk to you again, and so I'll continue to do that. I just wish you were honest.

>>17815057
You make yourself sin, man.

>>17818187
(Sorry if I don't respond as fast I'm currently prepping for a party) I'd say try to find more people like you with similar conditions. See if there are any groups that come together weekly or whatever and try to join. Or go out every once in a while with your boyfriend and meet people that way. Talking about meeting people is harder than it actually is. You don't sound like that bad of a person. Do you have a kik or something so we could talk faster?

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You've got to do something about that odor of yours dude. I know I'm not perfect myself, but at least I keep my stuff fresh. I barely ever see you wash yourself and I can tell since the room always smells like your BO.

And there's a reason why I'm never in the room. You've made it a place I don't want to relax or study in. You eat in there and make the place smell like food. I know I ate in the room too, but the key word here is ATE. The noise and smell is fucking distracting.

And would it kill you to buy some cleaning supplies once in a while? I feel as if you don't give a shit about how clean this place is and that I'm the only one buying things.

AND
HO
LEE
SHIT
You know what it's like coming back to the sound of someone banging on their keyboard and yelling into a mic? I know you've got your cushy STEM-free schedule right now, but I don't have that. I NEED to study. I NEED a quiet place to be. There's a reason why I look pissed all the time.

I know I'm not the same person as I was in September. Now I actually care about clothes and appearances and keeping clean. Now that I've had a wake up call, I found out that I actually have to study.

And do something about that snoring. Please. I have to take sleeping pills to get any meaningful sleep.

>>17818205
it's ok and nah, never heard of it.

if you want, you can make/send a link to a junk twitter/tumblr/youtube you have (please do not send me anything that has your personal info on it, it's bad enough i friended someone a while ago on my facebook and i feel like they told the world who i am) and i can follow you on a junk twitter/tumblr/youtube i have.

>>17818250
I've got a Twitter

>>17818250
My Twitter handle thing is @kadscaner_

I put in all the time I could for her
She was on my mind every single day
My happiness was based off how she felt for me
I was only happy when things were good
Every hour of was spent waiting to talk to her next

And today she's going to fuck an old friend of mine and there's nothing I can do

>>17818161
As will you, but there is nothing that can be done about it now. Our chance was had many a time and you ruined it again and again.

You were always capable of this conversation, despite what you were on. Don't think I have become jaded with time.

I am sorry too. You caused more damage than you will ever know.

If you are capable of saying all of this when you are with another, how could I ever feel like you treated me with the respect I deserved? I know how manipulative and deceitful you can be.

Knowing our history and everything else that comes along with it, it would not be fair to meet for coffee to us or to those in our lives. The person I am with now matters more to me than meeting up with an old ex one more time, one who caused me so much harm throughout our time together and destroyed the person I once was.

We will always have a bitter ending.

>>17817759
That stinks but you got to do what you got to do!

I'm screwing, a married woman, who loves to be treated like a total whore because her husband can't fuck to save his life. Meanwhile my girlfriend has no idea.

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I might be a sociopath and there are a lot of folks I just want dead...
I also secretly force mice I catch in my home into a lethal obstacle course/hunger games/Saw puzzles and scenarios where victory is at the expense of others.. one mouse is a long running champion of about a year. I named him Sparticus on hopes he would rebel and rise up, I recently noticed more and more mice are surviving to fight another day.

We have been togheter for two years. You cheated, I dumped you, you cried. And then nothing. You didn't try to come back, to make yourself be forgiven, nothing. You really didn't care about me enough. I'm not even worth that much for you.

I really want to hate you, to tell you the most awful things I can possibly imagine. But if you just were to say something nice to me, to just show me that you really love me, then I would forgive you and we would try to go on better than before.

But no. Nothing at all.

>>17818666
Perhaps they feel too guilty to return if they don't expect you to accept them again, or will always think you're going to remind them of why you have the upper hand, which may not be true but if you feel that strongly, let them know and if they don't take that chance, it isn't worth saving

>>17818401
This is why you talk to several girls at a time to avoid getting oneitis.

>>17818431
And yet we are both still here, and responding to one another, no less.

If you honestly believe I was always capable of this conversation... You never did realize how bad I was, in the end, or the impact it had on me. Which was a problem in, and of, itself.

No, I know the damage I caused. It is why I so desperately want to change it, and why I need you to know I loved you, even at the lowest point in my life.

Do you honestly not realize how special you are to me, even now? I haven't become serious with a woman in nearly two years. I honestly did not expect a reply. I am no longer the man you knew, and while I may reach out now... I haven't committed yet, and please, you know how fiercely monogamous I am, lol.

If that were true, you wouldn't be responding to me. The last thing you told me was that, maybe, years down the line... I am sorry I took it literally, and that I wanted to see you, before jumping into something else. I am sorry you will never know the man I am, now.

Why do you look for me in these threads, if you hate me so?

Should I eat cheese crackers or chips?

Chips

Cheese chips

>>17818800
Agreed

I'm probably thinking about him too much, if I feel disappointed when we don't see each other each day. I can't do much about these feelings except let them show

>>17818692
I told him that I'm ready to forgive them, and he told me that he isn't sure it's going to work out.

I'm sure it's over, but I can't stop feeling like shit about it

>>17818704
>subpar snack items
these options don't sound delicious at all anon, I bet your face is all greasy with acne

I liked it when you told me stories about your mum and dad and their strict views on life and about your sisters. How one wouldn't want the other to know about the embarrassing terminology the other used while they weren't around. The shock when massive revaluations were made over family get-togethers. I miss you, and I'm not sorry for all I never understood or everything we shared but I am for every regret of words I said in anger or misunderstanding, please know I never meant to make wrong with you, or anyone. I made mistakes like us all, and I loved you through each minute. I will be there for you if you need me, whatever life brings us

I got a bag full of fries when ordering burgerking.

Like just to my order for free lmao

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>>17813558
I feel I will be alone forever.. no one will ever understand me...

>qt boy who was my friend last year at school texts me, says i'm funny & cool, and wants to hang out with me
>feel kinda weird bc i didn't know him too well, only a little bit
>ok anon let's hang out
>vidyagames.jpg
>go out to eat, he pays
>actually have a lot in common
>thought he wanted to hang out as a friend bc i dated one of his friends for two years
>semi caught feels
>fuck.jpg
>hard for me to open up after breakup with bf 6 months ago
>5 guys have tried to talk to me since then, i wasn't interested at all
>anon is moving far away in a month

bottom line... why would he wanna hang out with me and take me to dinner, especially since he's leaving soon? i can't tell if he wants a relationship as a friend, an actual relationship, or a friends w benefits type thing. what do you guys think? i don't care which it is bc i would be content with all options im just curious

I had too much nicotine and now I feel sick

>>17818950
I had too much w33d

>>17818895
You're not as mysterious as you think. Seriously, you're more than likely an open book.

The people that say shit like that never have anything interesting going on. They mostly are just shitty people with no morals that think being shitty = being complex/mysterious.

>>17818961

That shit make you feel sick to your stomach tho? I wish I could smoke weed. So much better then being a faggot who vapes

>>17818892

I got a free quarter pounder from Mcdicks by accident once. It was nice cause I was too poor to afford one and just ended up getting fries

>>17818967
Bro I eat so much I'm shitting half a pound every other hour

>>17818946
Fucking hell, how easy it is for women.

So.... Apparently I have better luck geting friends date, than I do with getting one for my self.


We are both in Damn near identical situation. And while I am able to talk to mine shes usually too busy to meet up. Now that she's on duty with the emt stuff, I can't expect replies regularly anymore.

My friends found a way out of meeting up, and would not really be willing to talk. Somehow last night I managed to get her to meet up with him, and talk via text.

>be depressed
>wish i had a gf that would make me happy
>desperately try to find dates
>get rejected
>female shows interest
>fuck it up anyway

at this point I cant be mad at life anymore but only at myself

>>17817570
fucking hell mate I though I had it bad

>I am so tired of being rejected, heartbroken and tossed away
fuck them honestly, there are bad people in this world, to whom you can give your all even down to your last penny and you would still not be enough. it isnt down to you its just them. fuck them. dont let it reflect on you, keep going and looking for that one person who will love you.


>my utter laziness, drug addiction, depression and complete lack of self care.
see this for what it is and nothing more. dont let it overwhelm you. break them down to small problems that you can fix one by one, one day at a time. sleep on it on how you can fix and make effort on a new day


dont let it get you down man, you have been through hell and back and here you are still breathing see that as an accomplishment in itself.

I dont know you. but you sound like someone that would make for a great company anon. the kind of company that doesnt make you feel lonely.

fight for yourself man. you will get to enjoy the labour of it after the fight is won.

lol so you're a giant pussy whipped bitch and i'm glad i jumped ship when i did. but thanks for the update on your tragic life, i needed to know i'm better than you will ever be. however, i wish i knew how to find jason cause he was hella cute and looks better and acts nicer than you ever will be. wherever that truck mudding kingdom hearts loving kid that smokes his cigarettes to the butt may be that i met in february of this year, i hope i can find him.

>>17818431
ELI5 please.

You're telling me this guy is the one, still loves you, you're talking to him on a Chinese Silk Worm forum FFS, but grabbing a coffee isn't Kosher?

I know you guys have a history, but this shit isn't normal.

You wanted him to know it was you, you are talking to him years after the fact, etc... You should really consider that coffee, it isn't like you're meeting up for a dicking.

>>17818701
Don't worry, as soon as you move completely on with your life is when it will click in her head, as it's obvious as shit.

She said person in relation to her partner, so maybe you turned her gay? I kid.

I hate to admit that I fell for you. I was never meant to love you. I cast you away, eventually we never talked again. it hurts that we see each other everyday and never talk like we used to. not all people want to end their sentences with a period, you wanted everything to stay the same or at the least under your control. Because of that I stayed away from you.
After so many years I finally got the courage to talk to you, we can't reset our lives but we can reset our relationships. But now I understand, we can never have the friendship we once had. What ever happened had changed us. I hope you're doing fine. I may not be the same guy you know, but deep down inside I still care for you.

My fat fucking lips are dry and cracked.

I have no idea what to do after high school, im not coordinated enough for trade work and my only passion is animals

I still have acne at 20

I have so much wanderlust but have no idea where or how to go.

It feels weird to be bothered by a few smaller problems instead of one large one.

>>17818980
That's the dream

I vape to suppress my appetite when I'm too lazy / can't afford food.

fuck. shits about to hit the fan and i'm scared. no one to blame but myself though.

really wish i could just get it into my head permanently that im not ever hooking up with anyone. i hate coming back here to this shit lame roneriness, its fuckin unattractive and a hassle besides. why the fuck does this keep happening. i convince myself for months at a time that its fine and i dont mind being single, being able to hotbox my room with carb farts whenever the fuck i want is the goddamn bees knees and im never giving that up, but always this garbage comes back. i just want these hostile kimochi invasions to fuck off and stop making it hard to sleep. i want the bad feelings to go and stay gone. i dont think im asking the impossible here

i dont need this bullshit to be happy and id really rather stop thinking about it. lord god please end my torment or place me in the fucking ground where i belong

It's like you all are begging me to turn into a self-centered asshole. seems like the only way I can be happy at this point

>>17813895
Im tempted to call you a "setotypical white girl liberal arts" typa meme but considering you want to genuinely kys I woud suggest girling the hell up (that a thing ?) and realising what others have achieved in the life you are considering throwing away.

Do somthing with your life. Honestly, i envy you. I have expectations and perental pressure. You can literally do anything.

Start by devoping a skillset. Jobs arnt easy to come by. Try jobs that most dont go for. Im talking about the arts (what are you hobbies anyway ?)

You dont need a boyfriend that dosent share your world view. Find one that supports you and in turn support them.

You said you have been told "youll get there all youre life" allow me to modfy that message "youll get there if you work for it". Mabey this new motto will get you further.

How do I compliment a chubby girl with body issues without making her feel self conscious. I think I may have fucked up saying tans look stupid. She likes to tan. Takin this shit slow, don't wanna Fuck it up. Basically im outspoken and I think she may have the wrong impression of me making over generalized statements.

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I had the most beautiful perfect woman on the planet. And she agreed to marry me. We where together for 5 years. It was perfect. But I've struggled with alcoholism my whole adult life. And she had finally had enough. She left me and one week later flew across 3 states to be with her ex-boyfriend. And now... all I can do is drink. There's no one left for me, no reason left to stop, this bottle of vodka is my best friend, my lover, and the only thing left in this world for me.

>>17813558
I want other people to know that rampant plagiarism is the reason why democracy is failing; but when I express the observation in words, someone always contorts the complaint into a defense of their own plagiarism.

put on 20mg of cymbalta 5 days ago. it seems to be helping i think. i feel really happy and have energy. i've tried 3 other meds over the course of 4 years that have only fucked me up more. hope this one works :)

My parents were over-protective in my teenage years and now I'm a clueless, coward adult.

>>17819167
Don't be such a lazy wizard. Go bone someone, get it out of your system then resume normal programming.
Where is your conflict coming from??

>>17819253

Same here. They though they where helping... now look at us, completely useless.

>>17819000
Thank you for your motivating words. I am still fighting.

Nice quads by the way.

>>17815812
>>17815927
You sound kind of autistic, man just ditch those cunts , they aren't good for nothing and all they do is bully you,let drugs ruin their life .As for being lonely ,just do what you like man ,if you like animation go to an animation club or something , hell everybody likes science fiction,if you do what you like you're going to find friends much faster and with the same interests.

TLDR; ditch the cunts, follow your passions and make friends , It will work out you'll see

So I'm conflicted. Girl I really like has been distant after I fucked up and over reacted about her lying to me. Planning on hanging out next week and I'm tempted to just flake on her. I was getting over her and I made the mistake of talking to her again and I am excited to see her again. But part of me is still upset what she did. She said she was going to make it up to me but I don't know if that was just a lie. But what if it isn't a lie. Fuck why'd I start talking to her again.

>>17819440
*trips

>>17819548

You find her physically attractive but think the relationship to be emotionally unsafe. Do not flake and strictly limit your expectations to platonic interactions.

>>17815057
Im in the same boat as you. If you work close with her the signs should be somewhat apparent. Simple ones. Do you feel her looking at you and if you look back does she quickly look away and smile? Look up body language signs of of attraction. If youre in close quarters like I said it shouldn't be hard to pick up on some ques. I'm not saying they all apply because obviously all women are different. If all else fails just ask her questions, keep them contextual. No left fiield, out of the park type shit. Girls like to talk about themselves if someones asking with real intent. I'm not a know it all I've just been dealing with what you seem to be going through.

>>17813558
i know im a good looking gu, ive lost my virginity but i just have really bad anxiety issues and still have never had a gf

>>17819593

I like this idea. Don't know if I can mentally do it but it's worth a shot. Cause she is physically amazing and the sex is great.

>>17819146
what happened anon?

Take control of your life. Throw the shit before they do.

My class was asked to make an animated video for a french town event here. We've never done it before and the video is a mix of stuff that don't go together.

The result is a mess. i've held that opinion for months, and now that the event has happened, everyone outside of school who talked to me about it thinks the same, without any influence from me.

At the school though, the headmaster seems convinced that his school's production is th egreatest thing ever, and the other school in the "competition" should feel ashamed. Everyone there seems to agree with him.

I don't know what to think of this behavior.

I can't help but get frustrated with my mom every Christmas. She complains when we, mostly my sister and I, buy gifts for people and says everything is a waste of money. I probably end up spending about $700 every year and so does my sister. We always try an get things people will use, and for the most part we do a good job.

She complains when buy her shit. It's the most buzzkill thing to do on Christmas. I understand she wants us to save our money, but we do and we have money to spare though. I made an extra $1,500 this month personally. So half that on gifts doesn't hurt my budget at all. Really $700 isn't that much relative to how much we make and how much I have in savings and I know it's the same for my sister.

If this is the only thing I get annoyed with I'm grateful but fuck is it annoying. I just know she's gonna fucking bitch about the money we all spent on Christmas gifts.

I found out today that my wife has been cheating on me with someone from her work. I feel like I'm losing my fucking mind. My fucking soul has been violated, I can't explain it. I don't know what I'm going to do from here.

>>17819824
divorce :(

>crush invited me to her christmas party
>had already been invited to a friend's christmas party the same day

not even going to the friend's party because i don't know anyone else who's going, but using that as my excuse not to go means i can't go to my crush's party either
luckily she understood where i was coming from, but i still hate it tbqh

>>17819824
Confront her about it. Make her speak her mind about your marriage. Remember that marriage is sacred and figure out a solution, either by councelling or divorce.

Broke up today with the only man who ever loved me. We're both 24. He took my virginity and everything. But he also hurt me, and I hurt him. I miss him but I know it was for the best. We've both been unhappy with the relationship for over a year.

I still feel like my hearts been ripped out. I am afraid of being alone without him. I am afraid of not being loved by another person the same as he loved me. I am afraid of seeing him with someone else and it will kill me.

Please reassure me that everything will be okay and I made the right decision.

>>17820058
No man will ever love you the same way as he did. All men have their own way of loving a woman. Why were you unhappy?

>>17819824
If you don't have kids a divorce should be relatively painless.

>>17820075
Because he broke my trust numerous times. And I kept giving him chances. And honestly he tried his best to repair it, but I was not strong enough to let go of the past so I kept making him feel bad for it. So I broke up with him because we both deserve a clean slate.

>>17819824
>getting married in the 21st century where third wave feminism has turned most if not all western women into entitled bitches
What were you hoping for exactly?

I can't release this feeling.
Everything I do, everything I say, when I release myself, when friends are with me, it's ersatz
it's empty
it's all inside me, every day, again
I've reached the boundaries of my comfort zone
Trespass? Not yet
Where should I go?

>>17820108
You seem to have trouble with acceptance of failure and maybe a bit too reliant on him. I know how it feels to be disappointed by a loved one and the scars can get too deep to ignore. If the relationship has become too toxic with hate and guilt then I guess you both need some space to breath and focus on yourselves. You seem to love him still but maybe because he was your first. In time you will truly know if he was the right man for you or if there is someone out there that can love you better than he did. I do hope that you made the right decision.

>>17820189
Thank you. I also hope he finds someone who can love him better than I did.

It's Saturday night, what are you doing here?

>>17820300
Lurkin cause it's still Saturday afternoon in west burgerland

>>17813648
What anime?

>>17813558
I'm a shitty virgin, I'm afraid of kissing, I'm afraid of falling in love again, I don't have time for those shitty flirting trash, I'm afraid of FUCKING, I'm afraid of Women.
I'm a smug little shit to hide the scars you leaved on my heart.

good job mom, you've turned dad against me. the one person that has been in any way supportive in my life, and you've ruined that. well alright then, it's not really all that different from how things have been throughout my life. you fucked things over and made it impossible for him to really be a part of my life, and were never there as a mother. so I suppose you doing that again as I've worked to actually have a relationship with my father isn't much of a change. don't think it's going to push me toward you as you become more lonely because there's no one in the house now and everyone in that house doesn't actually do much to pass the time.

truly the jealousy and pettiness of humanity knows no bounds as I've found that the enemy is often kin.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pShe3f1ce00

you've created a monster thats capable of moving alone, can burn bridges at a moments notice and feel nothing about it, and frankly needs no one. throughout my life people have sought to hurt me through those I have a relationship with knowing that attacking me means I know exactly who to beat down and that I'll do so with extreme prejudice and success. now you have no other options but to attack me directly as those around me have no bearing on my life. so come on, try some shit so I can show you exactly what you have made of your seed, the incredible emotional detachment and cruelty I'm capable of. try me, I fucking dare you. I'll ruin anyone in my way, financially, emotionally, legally, and physically. I've been waiting a long time for this to come to a head so that I might yell AGINCOURT as you are run through with spears.

face me cowards.

>i might go to college with hyperhidrosis

God fuck, I hate this shit, I bet half of my confidence problems come from the sweaty hands, why is Botox so fucking expensive fuck nigger shit fuck fuck fucking shit fuck

Well. I have been texting her on and off all day. Seems like we'll meet up soon, but I left it for winter break (So two weeks or so)

I mentioned that I am interested in that we should meet up over break
She replied with this "We can always give it a shot!"

Fuck you for keeping all your feelings to yourself.
Fuck you for "you wouldn't understand"
Fuck you for disappearing, for not replying, for not being here when I need you.

I want to slap you so hard.

>>17820300
lurking until my party

I've really reduced the amount of drinking I've been doing
Only once in the last 10 days and now 4 days since the last one
It was interfering with doing things

But my god, I'm so bored

>>17818995
>be depressed
>wish i had a gf that would make me happy

No no no...don't do this please. You have to find a way to be happy without someone first, in order to be happy with someone long term. You can't rely on someone to make you happy - not entirely anyway. It's fine to rely on someone sometimes but you can't make any one person responsible for turning your whole life/outlook on life around. It's too much of a project for someone to take on. It's nothing against you personally, it's just how it would be for anyone.

Having baggage is one thing. I mean everyone goes into a relationship with some skeletons in their closet. But if you make someone be in charge of your only reason to be happy then....they will only eventually get overwhelmed and leave you. You will become reliant upon them and your emotions will be unstable if they ever go somewhere or if anything happens. What happens if you find someone who makes you happy, and then you lose them? Will you become depressed again?

Just, if you do this, remember to take steps on your own to get better. And know that it's up to you to become happy and not them, entirely.


I might be reading too much into this, because I'm speaking from experience. If that's the case, I do apologize. I was horribly depressed when I met my ex. He became my only reason for anything in my life. When he left me due to how overwhelmingly emo and stupid I was, I was left an empty shell of a human being. I had to learn how to function on my own when it was already too late. If I hadn't depended on him so much, maybe things would be different now.

I just don't want you, or anyone, to make the same mistake.

This is incredibly embarrassing.

But I'm so fucking lonely that a character from an otome is the only thing that's helping me feel less alone and I've become obsessed with him and the game. I follow bots and people that roleplay as him and reply to them (only mildly roleplaying), I have tons of fan art and I want to spend more money on merchandise.

I'm also scared of finishing the game because I'm on the last character's route. What will I do when I can't do anything else in the game? Just play my husbando's route over and over and over? Fuck I'm pathetic.

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I have a girlfriend and a tape worm in my head

If I didn't have a kid, I would have killed myself. I stick around for them, but I'm even shit at being a parent.

how the fuck are you going to break up with me over shit that YOU fucking wanted in the first place?

you said you didnt want me to even TALK to girls in the first place, i said fine. you said you HATED drugs and alcohol, i said fine. and I had to fucking make sacrifices having a girlfriend like you who could only fucking hang out after school for like 30 minutes at a time because of your shit fucking parents who hate you (and for good reason)

then you fucking beg your parents to ask to leave the house, go to his fucking house, get drunk with him, and tell me that you want to date him now because he lets you hang out with guy friends? what the actual FUCK is your logic, how the FUCK do you think thats fine? youre so fucked up in the head after you got double penetrated raped that you think your fucking stupid ass fucking logic is fine, and that you can fucking burn bridges with as many people as fucking possible and make them suffer just so that you could feel validated

you told me he knows how to have fun, of FUCKING COURSE he does when you sneak out JUST FOR HIM AND NOT FOR ME, how the FUCK do you expect me to find things to do in just half an hour when you can spend hours upon hours with him??

also you said hes better because he lives closer? bitch I WAS THE ONE who had to drive HALF AN HOUR JUST TO SEE YOU, all you fucking had to do was fucking SIT DOWN and if pick you up

fuck you, fuck you, i really REALLY hope you live a horrible fucking life, i sincerely hope you do.

when i thought that you killed yourself because i hadnt seen you at school for a few days, i promise i never felt happier and more relieved literally all year before. i hate you.

>>17820938
Please elaborate

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>>17820959
I have a gf
And there's a tapeworm inside my brain

And I havent told her about it

*strokes penis vigourously*

The main reason I chose a college far away from home was in hopes of losing contact with some with people I no longer consider friends. also Fuck the city I want to be a country mouse.

>>17816810
Love you too
100% homo

I'm sorry for not being the party animal you wanted me to be. I'm sorry you tried to get me out of my shell and that I couldn't do it.

I'm sorry I can't relate to people, at all. I really do try, but I get angry after 5 seconds of talking to someone. What the fuck makes you think I'd be able to handle a relationship? You're friendly comforting only goes so far before it just reminds me of what hurts me the most.

I'm sorry for not being the brother I should have been, you deserve better than me, and you really shouldn't idolise me.

I'm sorry I don't want to be anyone else, and that I can't become someone else. Sorry I can't be a normally functioning, socially capable person.

>>17821022
I know this feel, bro.

>>17820968
A real tapeworm?

i know its strange, but i want to talk to a girl for days knowing something might happen between us, i wanna be that guy that you talk your friends about.
fuck its hard to meet women im interested in

I just want to apologize to all of the women over the years that I manipulated into believing that I cared for them. I completely changed my personality, hobbies, and general interests to fit whatever would hook them the best.Each one loved me with all they had but our entire relationship was one sided from the very beginning. I thought if I just pretended to feel for long enough it would turn genuine and this time would be the one that finally did. To my current girlfriend of two years, I'm sorry. You really don't deserve what I'm going to end up doing to you and I hope you'll be able to recover.

>Lost my friendships this year, everything i built in relationships broke within months of being friends
forward to today..
>Pretty good friend of mine moved to another state
>New job and he moved on, talk to him every once in a while
>Sends me picture of him somewhere with a drink in his hand, sends me snap of him out there in the world

>I don't even know if we are friends anymore, he is in another state we dont chill, i also find it interesting he is drinking and sending me a photo, as if that means something to me?

I'm working on my social anxiety, but I worry that it's already too late to make a better impression on people. I'm worried it's going to destroy my career options.

Life is crushingly boring.

why is it that whenever i get high or drunk i can think about myself and my lfie better? why is it that the doors open? this used to be so easy, id just superimpose my life on everything and AHA it worked! but now its fucknig dumb, im dumb. what have i done to benefit anyone snice i started this shindig 2 years ago? all ive done is use drugs to learn about myself and now that theres no learning to do its just a fuked up plataue of "WOW THAT FEELS GOOD" AND "WOW THAT FEELS NOT SO GOOD" what am i even saying anymore? where did my love of life go, where did the vibe go, i miss being myself, i miss feelin emotion, i miss not being numb to everything around me. i miss lovnig people, i miss loving myself. i want to do things but lately i feel as though i cant do what i want, like i lack the capabilty, fuck me, fuck me, im just setting up barriers for myself, saying i can't be this because somebody else is alrady that, or i can't be myself, because im obviously pretendenig to be like another person, how far ni the rabbit hole am i, and why do i pose questions to people that only i can answer, i set people up, i knock tem down, but where does that leave me? nowere,. except friendless and insecure. i cant say i hate life, but i know mi an asshole, im the biggest fucknig piece of shit ive ever met, so whats the ponit? i feel ike ive exhuasted my youth already, i feel like everything is in the waste basket, good bye ideas, good byue intelligence, goodbye everybody, looks lke im only ready to make people feel bad for me and for me to make myself feel bnad, i'll never create anything tangible.

>>17821354
fuck, im in the same boat? what are we

Got this girl, awesome as fuck personality yaknow.
We click, we get along. We were chillin with a friend one day after schoolio, and she goes to the restroom and ma friend goes, "yo anon she likes you."
I'm flying high, so the next day I'm looking to pop the question and ask her out right?
Well that day she's doing the normal, all touchy feely and what not, constantly staring, just flirting and doing your basic shit.
Anyhow, next class I go to ask her out and she has a sudden change in mood and says
"I hate myself, life sucks right now"
and I just say "why's that?"
she tells me that she likes someone, but they have someone else already.........
Dawg the fuck is this shit. It shot me down so fucking quick I didn't know what to say lmfao. I've been told I could do it and that she likes me, but then that shit happens. I'm confused on what to do lmfao.
A mutual friend said maybe she was just trying to gauge a reaction. Some bull shit even if he is right. BUT. Love you guys, thanks <3 you all the best.

I'm a really short, skinny, quiet shy girl.
I'm also super kinky.
& Violent.
I like to get fucked & fuck stuff up.
Mate, lets go reck some stuff, set a library on fire, then fuck on the burnt-out ashes.

>>17815728
this

>>17821525
where can i find girls like you?

>>17821525
You sound like a meme

Guys I think I have pooped so much I'm being able to float, dear god this smells like toxic waste I'll never eat burger king again this is destroying my nose.

Retards at crown casino melbourne.

Fuck off. Still you morons piss me off very inconsistently because of your brainwash practices so go fuck yourselves you aids infected retards because you must all enjoy that criminal record and getting publicly humiliated. People's problem with you is that you have disgusting aids and serve people food and drink with spit in it. Disgusting.

I can't believe how fucking stupid I was, always talking about how I don't know if I'll ever have kids. This bitchy attitude of, I have better things to do with my body than get knocked up. Sometimes I said it definitively, "No, I don't ever plan on having kids," just to mess with my mom.

God. God, I love you so much. I've never loved anyone before you. I see it in your eyes. I hear it in your voice when we talk about children. I want to give you sons and daughters. I want to hold her little fingers and I want to whisper to you that he has your nose. I want to be the mother of your children.

I'm so scared. I don't know what's going to happen. Maybe it's nothing. Maybe it's something really fucking bad.

>>17820973
>Fuck the city I want to be a country mouse.
I feel the same m8. I went from country to college in a big city and I hate it here. All my friends are ecstatic about how the city is so much better than country but I don't see it, people are more distant here, feels claustrophobic and I miss the smell of nature.

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I fucking hate my face. I have an underbite and no money for surgery/braces to get it fixed (it's not so bad that it would cause health issues, only cosmetic so insurance doesn't cover it). It makes me extremely self-conscious in any and all social situations, I can't stop thinking about it when I'm with other people, I hate taking pictures and I hate looking at myself in the mirror and I also have social anxiety on top of that. I don't socialize much anymore, don't try to find a girlfriend anymore, I feel like I won't ever have a chance anyways, because why would they choose me when they can find someone who looks fucking normal. I just spend my time playing piano, studying in college and working all the time just so I don't have to think about the future. I never wanted to be special, I just want to be normal.

My ex was the best thing to happen to me and I always overlooked the little things. I would do anything to get her back even though she turned her back on me when I tried to tell her how I feel.
>>LittleThingsMatter

D I wish we were more intimate now, cuddling in a warm bed. Thanks for bringing me out of introversion to the natural communicator I can be. I've fallen for you, although I haven't said yet. I think you see it in my eyes. You brighten my whole world, that is beautiful to me now. I hope we work this out, since I truly see us in a relationship. I'm so happy. I missed you in this short space of time. I can't wait for us to be together again R

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>>17821769
You're not alone friend.

No matter how much I lift or try to improve my looks I'll always look like a faggot.

I can't stand how everything is right now. we shouldnt be together. you should be with my best friend who you have more in common with. the nights i go to with you and your sisters - i feel like a tagalong. i don't gel with the crew, or the scene. you know what im into. im into rock and weird shit. im not a dubhead. the whole time i was thinking "i shouldnt be here, it should be my friend", it fucked up everything. i missed your cousins birthday as a result of my paranoia. the whole family was there and i missed it because "i was ill" when really it was because i have doubts again about the whole thing.

i don't know if we're compatible enough to be long term.

Every fiber of my being screams out to go back and and try once again to get you back into my life, but I know it would be futile.

>>17813558

I am going to try very hard to not ruin your life by fucking your dreams for your degree by getting you pregnant next week.

But I can't make any promises aside from that I'll take care of you and make sure everything works so you can do it after if it happens.

I'm sorry.

I'm fucking frustrated as shit over these Tinder whores.

I got a Romanian girl whose recently moved to my country and wants to make a few friends. She's quite open and seems rather nice. she gave me her whatsapp number so we can talk more, yet everytime I try to talk with her, she never asks me anything about me, she doesn't show any interest in my goings-on, reads my messages but doesn't answer half the time. Why the fuck did you even bother matching or giving me your whatsapp then?

And I find this all over the place. One girl even gave me her facebook. Another girl I have actually gone on -4- fucking dates with, complete with hand holding and making out and she initiates.

I don't fucking get it, why is it for every girl I bang senseless, I get like 20 girls who act haughty, show no interest in me when all they do is basic shit like accounting or clerical duties?

Forgive me for sounding arrogant, and I legit hate this about myself, but come on. I work in the film industry, I've literally had conversations on set with people like Michael fucking Bay, I hand-sew plush toys for charity, I carve jewelry and wood with hand tools to make as gifts for loved ones and for some reason I'm not interesting enough for you? Do you want me to cum diamonds or something? I'd love to meet a girl whose even half as outgoing, interesting or fucking experienced as me.

But I got little game, apparently, so all this is moot. I only put up with Tinder cause I do have success and I get a new lay every 2-3 months, which is apparently the best I can do. And no, I don't show this kind of attitude with them, not in the least.

Even though the girl and I agreed to give it a shot with doing something over break, I still am stupidly anxious about it

I'm more worried than excited.

Young men are just huge bags of hormones and insecurity, never seriously date a guy under 30.

I was searching for the general advice thread but I can't find it so I'm posting here. I don't even know what to say, I'm fucking scared. Dealing with harassment, stranger who got my number sending disgusting pics. Living in a country where police is not reliable. Please someone advice what to do.

The story is more detailed than that but I don't want to post too much because I'm afraid my online activity might be tracked by them. I've already blocked the number on whatsapp but I know it's the doing of more than one person. Please someone just tell me what to do, I'm really scared. I'm in tears right now and I'm really panicking.

>>17822503
Someone please reply to this

>>17822503
Get a new number, secure/delete all your social media accounts and please report your harassment to the police even though they are unreliable.

>>17822541
Also tell your friends about this. They can help.

>>17822221

Anon I feel your pain, and understand exactly where you're coming from

I had the exact same thought process

I think the trick with tinder is, dont get too attached to any of them. They mean absolutely nothing until they've shown explicit interest. You're just one of literally 100s of matches to her, just one more little ego boost

So the logical response? Beat em at their own game. Perfect the most soulless, retarded, "this really shouldnt work as much as it does" pickup routie and just hit every match with it. Just go ham and see who bites

You're just throwing bait our there and seeing if you get a nibble. Dont get torn up over every one that doesnt bite: They were probably boring and not worth your attention any way

You have to filter through the 99% of bitches in the shit pile to get to that 1 good girl

>>17822369

Same for women

Except it counts for women over 30 too

>>17822541
I don't think anything is going to come from complaining to the police. Is sending a bunch of pics and a few dick pic enough to be considered harassment? These people also are really near to where I live so I'm afraid that complaining might cause the situation to escalate. These are the type of people who have nothing to lose so they might resort to something worse.

I seemed to have calmed down for now, going to wait and see if they do anything after blocking the number. The fact that they are at the road like 2 minutes away from my house is worrying though.

I wanna drop out of university. Im a 22 year old 1st year media student. And every single attempt Ive made has been met with roadblock after roadblock and Ive had enough

At first it was my depression and social anxiety
Then it was my employer being an unreliable piece of shit
Now its the tuition fee funding
The entire time funding being a massive problem because Im too poor to attend properly and my parents are either too crooked or useless to help (the fact that if they died Id only get richer and my life would only get easier speaks wonders to this)

Ive just had enough. Im too old to be a penniless student scraping by, I should have made something of myself by now.

Im gonna drop out, save some money, then when the contract ends on this place move somewhere much cheaper with a friend and work full time

Again, save tons. In the meantime, Ill actually have the funds and freedom to enjoy my 20s for once and be able to put my excess funds into the projects I wanna work on for my myself

Fuck the system Im gonna go make my own fortune and be happier doing it. Not wasting another 3 years of my life

>>17822663
Stop being a coward. If they refuse to stop the harassement and causing you distress then they can be charged for indecent exposure.

i'm sorry to all the delivery driver who i didn't tip in the past because i stupidly thought the delivery charge was the tip

Never thought I'd live to see the day there was a post about me in a Write a Letter thread. Passive as ever, huh? This is why things will never change.

Did I just see you at Sheetz with your new man?

Talk about a downgrade... I hope his dick, at least, measures up, but we both know how rare I am.

I know nothing about you, but maybe it's this attitude that drove her away.

>>17823132
>>17822948

>>17823140
Not the attitude so much as I simply tired of her.

My relationships never pass a certain point, and at my choice.

>"i'm taking a shower"

what did she mean by this