> Suffering from clinical depression for almost 15 years (I'm 33)
> Last relationship ended a couple of years ago, after living together for about 4 years
> Not had sex or any intimacy for about a year
> Can't remember the last time I fapped, got hard, or was even remotely horny.
> Feel horribly lonely, really need to be close with someone and feel loved, don't think sex needs to be involved.
> Decide I could see a prostitute but just ask to cuddle up for a while, that's kinda normal right?
> Can only find escorts online, more expensive but fuck it, find one local and pluck up the courage to call the number
> Try explaining what I want, she reacts like I'm a creepy freak, cut call off.
What should I do? I didn't think this would be a problem, but apparently being a horny pervert is fine but being lonely isn't? It's taken me a lot to get the courage up to consider going this route, now I don't know what to do.
I've seen things online about services for people like me, kinda like non-sexual prostitutes, but something about that seems even dodgier. I'm in the UK and there are none near me anyway. Advice?
Pic random, probably unrelated.
Prostitutes don't want to do anything that implies emotional connectivity. They're selling sex!
Look and see if there are cuddle parties in your area. Or hell, go on a dating site and say you want a cuddle buddy, someone out there might be up for it.
>>17806585
Or, see if you can find an escort/prostitute that sells the "girlfriend experience"
>>17806592
They all say GFE, including the one I called....
do 4,000 pushups a day
and 100x100meter sprint
>>17806611
Some days I can barely muster the motivation to get out of bed. Sometimes I don't. I envy you for having no experience of depression.
your not depressed
your just a pussy
now get to work
4,000 pushups
as you do real work and have pain and need deep sleep
you will get shit together
learn programming from home
make cash
fuck women
be a total dick to everyone
Accept your current state of isolation,
it may not get better for a while,
relationships are like a drug and right now you are in a long period of withdrawal.
assuming you do succeed it will make you feel satisfied for a moment and then probably worse because you're cognoscente of what is 'missing' from your life.
The less pressure you put on yourself
the more content you will probably be.
Spend time working on stabilizing your mood,
taking care of yourself, and finding contentment outside of external validation.
it will pay off in the long run.
Cute pic. What's your favorite fictional setting?
>>17806616
Force yourself to exercise bitch. Depression sucks but it's all in your head. Your body still works.
>>17806611
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>>17806716
ITT: People (or one loser) with no idea about depression.