That feel when I outdid myself. I took zolpidem this night and

It is just human nature. I've once covered myself in my own shit and licked all of the fungus off of my shower and I am completely normal. It is a symptom of being alone, and as long as no one sees you doing it, you should be fine and do these things, but not doing it so much that it interferes with your life. Indulging in these things can provide great moments of pleasure, but these are only temporary (obviously). For example, I scrubbed out my mouth for 20+ minutes after licking the fungus and felt utterly disgusted at it. As long as these things don't hurt yourself, cause people to see you, or cause you to commit a crime (ex. capturing someone, killing someone) then it is perfectly normal and you will be fine.

Just look at the rest of 4chan and some other sites and you will see it is quite common when people are (or think...) they are anonymous.

>>17803312
>and i am completely normal.

anon.. i don't know how to tell you this but no.. no you're not

>>17803312
Well thankfully my deviations are confined to just watching sick shit, though I did some shameful things in the past.
I'd rather not be like you desu, no offence

>>17803312
>It is just human nature. I've once covered myself in my own shit and licked all of the fungus off of my shower and I am completely normal.

People on 4chan actually believe this.

>>17803403
Uh, it is true and I've done similar things many times. Maybe it is a little hard to believe, but it is just something that I like to do since I am usually extremely scared of coming into contact with disgusting things and that just fuels it when I actually do something. It might start out as my shitting in my hand and going to put it in the toilet, but just doing that starts something else. Haha I can barely even touch the fungus in the shower when I am not in that mood.
>>17803369
That is pretty good, then, since you've probably seen extreme things and seen that you are relatively low on the spectrum. Watching bad stuff, doing bad (but harmless) things, and doing harmful things for the deviation or whatever are probably some categories.

>>17803422
i bet now you're going to tell us after you take a shit, you wipe your ass standing up instead of sitting down.

i bet you even put the toilet paper in the wrong way (pull from the bottom).

you sick fuck. you probably don't even like chocolate milk.

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The thing is I can abstain from femdom (and fapping in general especially since my libido is lowered by meds) for weeks, but then I always come back to it, which leads me to think I'm addicted as I don't fap to anything else, it's just how my sexual drive manifests. I don't want to stop fapping altogether since I want to be sure my dick is still working so I thought about forcing myself to fap without porn or even to milder and different things like bukkake which I used to fap in the past.

>>17803245
The more you try to resist your fetish, the more it will link up with the parts of your brain that get off from shame and the worse it will get. Not much you can do about it now.

>>17804397
Liar liar pants on fire.
I believe some reprogramming like I described in >>17804391
is possible.

>>17803245
Dude, zolpidem is weird shit.
When you take it go to fucking bed. Do not fap. Do not even bring your laptop or your phone in the room.
Just fucking sleep.

I woke up in the kitchen with BDSM porn on the screen once. I called a friend at 2 AM in the middle of a panic attack and then tried to have phone sex with them.
Do not stress it too much.