Welcome to the NEET/shut-in improvement thread! >old thr

My life is a waste, I'll probably kill myself sooner or later. Probably within the next few years.

Ive been an NEET autist virgin handholdless contactless semi mute depressed apathetic shutin guy that's almost about to hit 30. My survival is due to autismbux, but for a long while kinda seems like a waste. Im not doing anything worthwhile and I don't have any thing to look forward to.

>>17787072
It gets better guys. Challenge yourselves to see what's really going on. Push yourselves, even if it hurts. It hurts now, so that it won't have to so much in the future.

5 years on and off as a NEET, never off my parents dime. The whole thing was living a total lie, sweeping shame under a rug. Pretending not to exist around their friends, around our family. Acting like I didn't know how much I'd made my mother cry by being such a failure.

I only got out of it by forcing myself to take a part time job as a barista, after a long bout of idleness and depression. The job hurt. It was stressful and humiliating. It was a high volume store, and the business of it was overwhelming. I'd come home from it and lay in bed for 2 hours just to feel all the things I'd shelved while at work. People looked down on me, talked around me as if I wasn't there, said how sorry they felt for me behind my back. Shift managers would fuck with me and intimidate me because I was meek and they were stressed. I got juggled from position to position, but managed to be a total fuckup in every single one. I wanted to kill myself a lot.

But there were good people, too. One of them helped me get a full-time position as a baker someplace else. It's enough to be independent, which I have been for about 4 months going strong. Things are alright now. They got better for an autist like me. You all can pull yourself out of this hole, too.

>>17788101
We've got someone in the group who's 39, and another who's 28. Most of the rest of the group is in their mid/early 20s. There's a lot of people in similar situations to you all finding their own way through life. You're not alone, Anon. And if you like, we have a lot of really good resources in the Pastebin devoted to dealing with anxiety and depression.

The biggest thing to remember though, and it sounds silly to say but a lot of people forget it. Change only happens if you're willing to take the steps to change. You don't have to rush in over your head, and you don't have to change your whole life at once. Tiny little baby steps are best when you're in this situation. Build on one small success after another.

http://www.llttf.com/
Check out how to fix almost anything if you'd like to hear a bit more on what I'm talking about.

I quit on applying to fucking jobs

fuck this shit no one wants me I'm worthless

So how do you actually become a NEET?

My parents are dirt poor and I live in Yurope, where you need to look for work and be available for tons of dumb shit if you want welfare. I don't think I have any official mental issues to get autismbux, nor certain if I could fake it well enough due having job experience and a degree already. Something like committing a small crime to be unemployable for most jobs doesn't sound like a very good idea either, due work options for convicts. Shit, there are even opportunities for disabled people. How do I become a NEET?

I was unemployed for 4 years after graduating university. Lived inside of vidya and porn in my parents' basement. Never been kissed, never been in anything approaching a relationship, blew everything that came within a hundred miles of a chance with a girl, couldn't even get myself to apply for jobs any more, I was just existing like a useless lump. I would have been 26 at this point.

The change was almost imperceptible at first - it started with a phone call. The one company where I was still applying for jobs(because it was easy, and it let me tell my mom I was still trying) gave me a call. Not for an interview, just a random recruiter who gave me some career tips. Told me to go work at Best Buy to develop some experience, of all things. I appreciated the gesture, but it felt a bit silly. Still, I started looking for work a bit more, with lower standards, and got a job at a call centre. It's a shit job, right - one you wouldn't want? Best thing that ever happened to me. Holy shit does a job change your life. I was healthier, happier, vastly wealthier, more confident, and just overall in a better place. Finally had enough confidence to ask girls out here and there, and got a date out of like the eighth girl I asked - a coworker, maybe 4/10, but she was smart and friendly, and I wanted to get my feet wet. Second date I got my first kiss, third date I got her naked, and had my first sexual experience ever - I couldn't get the condom on, she couldn't get me off by blowing me, though apparently I was really good at giving her head. And then I said something stupid and she dumped me by text the next day. Go forward a few months after that, and I met the woman who's now my bride(who's smarter, prettier, and saner), and got a job in my industry about a month later.

The funny thing is, all that stupid shit I did with call-centre girl wound up saving my ass with the one who actually mattered. That shit job got me a good one. Things do look up if you give it a chance.

>>17788154
Start smaller then. Take a break at applying. Work on your resume, work on coping with depression, social skills. I've got a small part time job now, but I don't think I would have landed it or kept it had I not tried improving myself beforehand.

>>17788162
>So how do you actually become a NEET?
This thread is for people who are trying to cope with their depression, anxiety, and other issues with the ultimate goal of reintegrating into and becoming functional members of society.

>>17788196
>anxiety, and other issues
Includes me then, do you think a person without issues would go their way out to become a NEET? I need time to deal with that shit (tried therapy and normal life already) and it's pretty much the only option, with the alternative being, getting dragged from one job I hate to the next and losing the last bits of confidence and a good dose of will to live. (tried it too)

I don't plan to waste my life with porn, anime and vidya but simply need time for self-improvement without the constant pressure looming over my head. Don't see any better way too accomplish it beyond NEETdom, and who could help me better to do that, than people who did it for years.

Sure, it's clearly not the main goal of the thread but perhaps someone could still give me a hand.

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>>17788154

I'm a neet at 22
I'm need to get a job but I just can't see myself doing any of the ones I have experience for that I wouldn't absolutely hate. I'm giving myself 1 month to try to make it online through YouTube or online otherwise and if it doesn't work I'd have to get a job anywhere that would take me. I actually get excited in the morning to work on my material. Is this reasonable or just an cop out for doing real work?

I have 0 friends and I don't know how to make them.
I've never actually had to MEET new people on my own. I was homeschooled so when I went to public school I default hung out with the weirdos nobody wanted to be near, and I made friends by people just already knowing other people. I literally piggy-backed off of other peoples social skills to make friends.

But now I'm 23 and everybody has moved out of town and I have no idea how to meet new people. There's a guy I talk to from my calc class but we basically only ever talk about the class itself or other classes we're taking. Inevitably the conversation goes quiet.

>>17788338
It's one thing to not be ready for facing a job and I don't think there's anything wrong with that so long as you're working on improving other things. But you didn't really convey any desire to improve in what you initially posted and quite a lot of what you said would actually damage you in the long run.

>Don't see any better way too accomplish it beyond NEETdom, and who could help me better to do that, than people who did it for years.
I can tell you plainly that while it's okay to not rush into getting a job or something you're too overwhelmed to handle, that deliberately launching yourself into being a NEET will cause you nothing but damage. While I was a NEET and a hikikomori my social skills atrophied dramatically, I developed anxiety where there was none before, and my depression dramatically worsened. The best way to deal with anxiety is through exposing yourself to small, manageable doses of what makes you afraid. If a job is too much all at once find some other avenue to do it in. But withdrawing is going to make it worse.

>>17788359
One month isn't really long enough to build an identity and get a substantial amount of viewers. And working would do nothing but help you in the meanwhile. Why not do both and let your work on your channel be your pet project while your job be a source of income until/unless you gain a large enough following to quit it?

How do I stop doubting myself? I feel very uncomfortable with myself and my self-image to the point that I don't want to be seen by anyone. No one could possibly love someone as ugly both inside and out as I am, and I hate this thought because the hope of finding love is the only thing that is keeping me alive right now. I know these thoughts are irrational but I cannot stop them from coming up. Thanks in advance.

>>17788380

>>17788380

>I've never actually had to MEET new people on my own.
It's okay man no better time than now to start getting yourself out.

>I default hung out with the weirdos nobody wanted to be near,

What are those guys doing these days? Have you considered looking them up on Facebook (I know I know)

>and I made friends by people just already knowing other people. I literally piggy-backed off of other peoples social skills to make friends.

To be honest I've made a fair share of my acquaintances through others. There's nothing wrong with the piggy backing (most adults do it)
So to an extent you know how to befriend through others, which is good.

>I have no idea how to meet new people.

That's okay, a friend can be made anywhere, anytime just remember two things :
1)Everyone else is also figuring it out as they go
2)As long as you're friendly (Smile, say hi, thank you etc.) a friend can be made anywhere

Small talk with anyone anywhere goes a long way, and people love it when someone takes interest in them (Maybe ask about their day or their plans for the weekend)

>There's a guy I talk to from my calc class but we basically only ever talk about the class itself or other classes we're taking. Inevitably the conversation goes quiet.

That's okay for their to be lulls in a conversation, maybe slip in a question like "Any plans for the holidays?" "How was your weekend?"


I tried to cover what I can while typing fast lol but man I hope some of this was at least helpful. Definitely hit me up with any questions, concerns, and just to let me know how this stuff goes for you, I'd highly recommend checking out our discord server if you're looking for more advice and perspectives or shit even just a sense of community.

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>>17788438
"Just accept yourself"
It's corny af. but its true. Contarary to popular belief, you're not THAT ugly. People tend to make the situation look worse than it actually is. My /adv/ is to fix your image by getting /fit/, washing your face/basic cream. And love happens after you love yourself.
Its sounds fucking stupid but thats how it works.
>>17788380
Just try to start a friendly convo with the calc guy about something other than school. Once you are comfortable with that, go up to normal guys and hit them up with something you enjoy: vidya,sports, you name it. Rejection is inevitable, but thats how we move forward. Life is an uphill battle, but it is conquerable.

Any hobby fags in here?
I'm trying to get fit and hop on the nofap bandwagon.

>>17788425
You right
Ima get a job at McDonald's or sum ish

>>17788380
There is a website called MEETUP and what you can do is find a group of people who are all gathering together to do something you'd like to do. Check out this website and see if anything is happening in your area related to something you like doing. Even if you're bad at making conversation usually, you'll have this common interest to talk about with them when you get there.

I'll read through your post a bit more deeply and if I can think of anything else to help out i'll post

>>17788359
Yo whats your channel, I could review your stuff.

>>17788196
Good advice, I'm going to chill out and enjoy the beautiful winter for a bit then get back at it. Depression has been the most hard on me, I have quite good social skills when I put on a facade and pretend but anxiety and depression still hit me.

>>17788353
I know, it's relevant. But I have a fucking degree for fucks sakes and I've spent years seeing my colleagues get opportunities and internships and all this shit while I'm sitting here with good grades on my record and trying my best with no result. I mean, my degree is pretty useless and I plan on doing more but I'm just salty and don't understand why no one wants me.

>>17788438
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1UtfZIbe6lVk9JmqHs0hfaDV9vcW7G-jpTRnJSEEHnmM/edit#
Do the first three activities mentioned in this.

>>17788405
>you didn't really convey any desire to improve in what you initially posted
Well, the point was get on point as fast as possible

>quite a lot of what you said would actually damage you in the long run
Only the "do a crime" part really would but it was mostly to show my desperation for it. I'd worry too much about the reaction of other people to actually attempt it. Same reason I couldn't do something fool proof as coming drunk and without showering for days to a job interview. Hell, social anxiety kept me employed in my last job for two weeks longer because I didn't know how to handle my boss the quitting note even though we talked daily on a pretty casual level.

As for the being unemployable part, it wouldn't stop me from doing some volunteer work, and currently I don't see myself doing much more in the future. I don't care enough about money to justify a career, not leaving my co workers with too much work, was my biggest motivations to get out of bed so far

As for the downsides of complete withdrawing, all true but that was never the plan. On the contrary I'd have more time to interact with people, and opportunities for trial and error. Making casual friends isn't a huge problem for me, finding the (emotional) energy and the confidence to make closer friendships is the tricky part. Being yourself needs time to find out what that really means and I am pretty slow at that; work was pretty destructive for the process, forcing me back in a certain role and taking the energy away for anything else

>best way to deal with anxiety is through exposing yourself to small, manageable doses
Pretty much, something like a part-time job would be ideal but not really an option. (economical and legal factors) Also, anxiety is one thing of many I'd need to deal with, there is also shitty health, some stuff I couldn't even point out, although most of it seems related. Oh and burnout

Anyway sorry for disrupting the thread with first world version of the problems here

>>17788359
>I'm giving myself 1 month to try to make it online through YouTube or online otherwise

This is virtually impossible. Not intended to discredit you in any way, but assuming you don't already have connections with other massive e-celebs or some kind of semi-large established fanbase already to spread the word, there's simply no way for anything to pick up in that amount of time.

It'd take at least a year, but probably more, and that's if you're lucky and if you're good at what you do. Pretty much all the big YouTubers or whatever who reached the top without leeching off of other established e-celebs spent a long time doing it as a side hobby while working a conventional job. It takes a hell of a long time to start making the kind of money that allows you to live off of it.

How are my stats?

24
HHKV but not a problem
Ged, 50/50 chance of going to community college next year
no job experience
permit but can't drive

Am I fubar?

>>17788616
Read through the Pastebin. There's a lot of really good resources in there about dealing with anxiety, depression, and other things.

I don't want to continue being on this path but I don't have the motivation to push myself and faith to keep going. I'm thinking it's about time I get some therapy, but how the hell do I go about it? Has therapy helped you guys with your neet/hiki ways? How'd you go about it?

>>17788618
I'm very lucky and good at what I do

My plan is to get collaborations with big youtubers ASAP by any means necessary, that's like the main goal besides good content

I'm gonna get a job until it cathches on though

I know this isn't strictly NEET related but I'm a NEET at heart. I think my coworker may like me but this doesn't make sense considering the disparity in our attractiveness and the fact that she is currently dating someone. Is there a way to find out if I'm just seeing things or if she really does like me?

>>17787072
Wow! I'm sure in need oft his thread.

Alright so let me describe my problem and myself.

I'm 18 years old, I'm a shut-in. I've been homeschooled all my life and all I got was radical thinking and a GREAT EDUCATION IN MEMES. The best friend I had (and pretty much my only friend) was last at a homeless shelter when I last spoke to him. Now I don't know where he is and I'm worried he is dead.

I am very lonely, virgin, never been kissed orhad a girlfriend. I'm all alone.

I no longer with with my parents because they broke up and I had to physically fight my dad. I live in an apartment underneath my Aunt's house.

I want to break out of my bubble and find some friends and one day have well developed social skills.

Okay. Here goes guys. 24 years old. Grew up in Southern California Orange County. Work at a Starbucks in a small town in Central Valley CA. sucks serious ass. Only moved out here because my Dad couldn't keep me under his roof (not his fault;only lived with him from 17-20 and had too many things going on at once in his life with my younger step siblings) and my Mom offered me a roof and a place to stay. Been here for 3 years doing nothing but working and Vidya and Girlfriend time. I'm decent at what I do though. Work pretty hard whenever I'm there. Girlfriend loves me more than I deserve. I love her back insanely. Currently trying to go back to school. Bought my first laptop ever for classes and pretty much bullshitting around. Was super talented back in the day with acting/singing (High School and College) but have developed this giant lack of confidence and cant get myself to go out to hang with people besides my girlfriends friends. Run every day about 5-6 miles at a 7:30 pace. Try to read as much as I can. For whatever reason though, I can't seem to get past this town. Its like Twin Peaks without all the excitement. People love to do everything but progress. I'm not at a point of suicide, but I'm definitely at the edge of something. I work with an asshole that the girls obsess over and I got another positive guru bullshitter that comes into my store to flirt with the girls and try to give me pointers on how to make coffee properly. Honestly do think both of these guys are great, but they can be overwhelming and a little too extra. Just knowing there are others feeling what I'm feeling makes me feel a little better. Want to move out to the Bay with girlfriend and get away from here and never return. Keeping my eye on a goal helps but its hard lately. 24 going on 25 and realizing I've wasted my talents for the better part of the last 6 years.

>>17788880

Just get a job faggot, I NEETed for 3 years, my social skills became those of someone with down syndrome but when life forced me to either work for food or die I just got out of my lazy comfort zone and didn't really have much trouble despite all my internal insecurities that turned out to be just bullshit and me being a humongous faggot

>>17788880
http://www.llttf.com/
Check out I can't be bothered doing anything. I don't know how to go about picking a therapist and haven't been to one myself but a lot of people I know have been to psychologists with great success. You can get a recommendation from your GP if you're at a complete loss.

>>17789150
>I'm all alone.
Join the discord if you need to. We can offer you some companionship and support while you work on getting in touch with your friend and breaking out of your shell.

>>17789285
What is discord? A website?

>>17789421
There is a browser version you can use but there's also a downloadable version. Discord is a program for chatting a bit like Mumble or Teamspeak if you're familiar with them, Skype if you're not. Follow the invite link in the OP if you want to join.

Otherwise, if you're just curious:
https://discordapp.com/

>>17789282
how did you decide to not be insecure anymore? I always make a fool of myself when im being confident.

>>17789282
How old were you when you got your job?

>>17789961
Not him, but what worked for me was the stuff in here. >>17788568 I started doing the latter two back when I was a hikikomori without internet access and it really did help me a lot. I felt stupid doing it most days, but eventually some time later it started to click and it became more and more sincere. All of them are really good though.

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Hello
A quick question.
Is there any way (personal experiences) to get over fear or at least reduce it enough so it becomes manageable?

For an example, when I want to apply for a job I get scared and never build up enough strength to hit send, I'm always scared of being rejected, or I imagine the employer laughing at my resume. Sure, I know this shouldn't matter since I'll never meet them but thinking that never helps. My therapist has suggested a few strategies which help reduce my fear and anxiety a little but it's never enough to actually reduce it to a level so it doesn't bother me. So far the most reliable thing for me to do is just to email the employer so quickly that I don't have time to think about it, but it's a very narrow window that I have to make and it doesn't work a lot.

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>>17792076
Use these to work on the underlying sense of inadequacy and fears you have.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1UtfZIbe6lVk9JmqHs0hfaDV9vcW7G-jpTRnJSEEHnmM/edit

For anxiety in general, there's a lot of resources in the pastebin. I've personally found this one really helpful. http://www.getselfhelp.co.uk/index.html Also breathe in time to pic related.

At the beginning of this year, I thought my situation was hopeless because every job I had searched required experience and/or a degree. I wasn't exactly desperate but I knew if I didn't start finding a long term job, my chances of being employable would decrease as I age. Luckily, I was able to find a job that didn't require experience at all. From that job I leap to a "real" job at a factory, which management unfortunately decided not to keep me after one month, but it was perfect timing in retrospect. After a month-and-a-half of job searching, I landed a tech job that is ideal in many respects except for the pay. I probably won't ever be able to get married and have a "normal" life, but at least I'm able to take care of myself.

My advice is to not let fear be the deciding factor in your decisions. And don't turn down jobs because they're outside of your comfort zone. If you're flexible, you'll have a higher chance of getting a job.

What should I go to school for?

I'm below average at math but did really well in other subjects in high school when I completed all the work.

It's been almost 5 years since I graduated high school.

Really the biggest things I want out of my career are to not hate it, be prestigious enough to make my parents proud and make relatively good money/ have the job security, enough to start travel and start a family with financial security.

>>17792346
I'd recommend getting a job first if you don't have any direction right now and haven't gone to college or worked before. Find a part time job, see how you feel about it and if it feels fulfilling. If it's not you've learned some things you don't want to do for a living, and if it is you've learned something you do want to do. Repeat until you find your calling, and then pursue it.

God I'm so stressed.

Graduated with a math degree but only because math is easy. I have no passion for it. Doesn't help that a bs in math opens no doors for you.

Considering getting in as in computer science since that's what I'm interested in but man.

I feel like such a fucking failure.

>>17792372
Stop doing stuff that isn't working. Go get a job in the industry you want.

Find something you enjoy...college is overrated..unless your going for a specialized degree...Engineer..Attorney Dr..i have a worthess BS in behavioral science and a minor in business..and im in debt like 50,000 depends what credit agency calls me..get a 2 year specialized certificate in something that appeals to you or get a low level position and work your way up for twenty thirty yrs and maybe youll be in a supervisory position..or terminated because you make to much money..maybe dont dont listen to me...i haven't had a real job in many yrs...and i made the most money being a waitress..till i couldn't take the ignorance and abuse anymore

>>17792374
I honestly would love working with computers. Learning languages is interesting and, though I have little experience, I'd love to learn a whole lot more.

There's just no industry in my city and I don't know a lot. Just basic c++ and a little java.

Find something you enjoy...college is overrated..unless your going for a specialized degree...Engineer..Attorney Dr..i have a worthess BS in behavioral science and a minor in business..and im in debt like 50,000 depends what credit agency calls me..get a 2 year specialized certificate in something that appeals to you or get a low level position and work your way up for twenty thirty yrs and maybe youll be in a supervisory position..or terminated because you make to much money..maybe dont listen to me...i haven't had a real job in many >>17792372
yrs...and i made the most money being a waitress..till i couldn't take the ignorance and abuse anymore

>>17792393
where do you live?no tech or community colleges near you...how about online ..so much now but be careful...make sure you look into the programs credentials testimonials etc etc .too much bullshit on the internet...double triple check it at the least.. good luck

>>17792402
It's complicated.

I live in Socal (hear me out) really close to San Bernardino. Everyone commutes like an hour for their job. There are CCs and I'm trying to get an AS but I just feel stupid. I have a Bachelor's already. I want to work, to build things. I want to do something meaningful, not run and hide in school. I just have no friends or family that have gone into this field so I can't get any advice.

What the hell do regular people talk about? I bring up work, school, etc, and then I'm out of common ground.

>>17792409
Get a hobby.

I'll tell you guys, and you better not forget my post.

Neet is only an extreme bad habit, the edge of a bad development.
You guys are primarily shut-ins.

And no matter what you do, how much you improve.
Best believe me that you will end up going to your old ways one way or another.

The "go out and meet people" meme is rightbut most solutions or people don't explore the actual reasons behind your condition.

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>tfw no loli in life to wake you up from this dream

>>17793124
>>17793353

>>17792614
>Best believe me that you will end up going to your old ways one way or another.

I remember one of my classmates in highschool who said he used to be a hardworking student but became lazy starting in elementary school. At first, I didn't think much about it because a lot of students were lazy, but it turns out he never got his shit together, not even during college. He was a lazy bum throughout his life.

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I'm not really a NEET but I have career problems

Thinking about leaving my job as a server. Been at this restaurant for 5 years and it's really killing me. I'm still in college, but fucking hell its kicking my ass. I hate my accounting major and I just want to quit. Everone from my job is also leaving, so I feel like I should too. I thought about going for a administrative assistant at a hospital. I'll get paid $19 an hour and I won't have to run around and kiss ass to get any tips.

I feel like the Admin job is boring, but I'll get paid more, have more hours/benefits, so I guess thats better, right?

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>>17788526
What degree?
>inb4 gender studies

Okay, may as well go here. Not a NEET but this is the /SIG/ thread so.

>22 years old
>in an area that's almost entirely mexican despite being the whitest motherfucker in California
>had depression all my life, in all likelihood
>got good at lying to hide it because I'd just get pulled in for "anger management" classes for responding to being hit by hitting back while the little spics just got off scot-free
>just got out of an abusive relationship where preexisting PTSD was worsened
>can't go to police with it because it was all emotional bullshit and subtle degradation
>Not to mention "women can't be abusive"
>couldn't go when I got raped because I was 14
>probable ADHD or some other autism-spectrum bullshit
>never got tested
>can't admit to myself I'm pretty much broken
>can't admit to myself I'm not able to reach my own standards
>can't admit to myself that my entire ideal growing up as a boy and a young man to defend those whom cannot defend themselves is entirely fake, borrowed from those who actually have some degree of morals
>got in a fight, ended up killing the other guy after he pulled a knife when I was 17
>can't admit to myself that I liked the adrenaline, as it was the first thing to make me feel alive in years

On a lighter note, took a screencap of this captcha. Funny.

>>17792076
Do it even if it bothers you

I'm not a neet but due to previous neet years I haven't graduated from high school, feelsbadman
Currently trying to fix it but it'll take a while

>>17795082
>What degree?
Political Science, so not technically a NEET but technically a NEET because I have no fucking wanted skills

>>17795082
>got in a fight, ended up killing the other guy after he pulled a knife when I was 17
What the fucc man you killed a guy?

>>17788113
>It gets better guys.
In what regard?

Say you're trying to meet women and never have before, and about to turn 30.

>>17795797
Every regard. What have you done to meet girls so far? What do you try to get them to like you? How do you think you can improve and what parts of things are you struggling with? Is it a lack of knowledge on how to flirt or a lack of putting yourself out there?

>>17795952
There hasn't been anything to try.

People who are out in public, have somewhere to be or someone they're planning to meet. If you don't meet a single girl through school or work there's basically nothing to try at all.

And no one admits it.

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>>17792076
>fear

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJeA4fpXwM0

>>17796374
Go out to a club, join a dating site and message people. Go to social gatherings, make small talk with someone while you're at one, then if you hit it off with a girl get her number and follow up. If you're not putting yourself out there or trying you won't ever get better.

I started the neet life about 4 months ago, However I am starting school again in January.

How do you deal with the feeling of the days getting slower and slower? I swear to god these few weeks felt like months.

>>17797001
get a hobby, clean your house, go on a walk find a way to fill your time

Khan academy isn't helping
I think I might just be stupid after all

>>17795082
You are just another narcissistic milenial
I would give you some bullshit advice but there is no fix for borderline so wathever keep being yourself it's not like you have an option

>>17797194

for fuck sake, can you stop throwing that "millenia" shit like its a thing? you only making it worse. just becouse that guy suffers from extremly elevated levels of autism doent make him a part of something.

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Anyone has this? I can't find it anywhere I searched every way I knew how.

Hey guys, does doing freelance on the internet pays well?

I'm running out of money and wondering if I can make some from it.

>inb4 get a real job fag
I have a problem of going outside my house and socializing.

>>17798205
You're a pussy and a coward.

>>17798208
Maybe I am.

I did work a steady and good income job for 2 years and it was killing me inside. I hate my everyday routine and it made me grumpy and full of hatred towards people around me.

If you have no real input on that matter might as well STFU.

>>17798205
>I have a problem of going outside my house and socializing.
Work on that while you try to get a job freelancing then. There are a lot of resources in the OP about dealing with anxiety and other issues that might affect your ability to socialize. And as with anything, the more you practice it the easier it will be to do.

If you're holed up inside your house all the time, you're not working on the problems that really need to be fixed most urgently. Start going outside and start practicing socializing on your own terms, slowly at first so you don't get overwhelmed. There's no need to make any big changes right away.

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I was told learning some skill would improve my confidence. I have time for most stuff I believe. What skill should I go for? Nothing in particular attracts me.

>>17800008
What kinds of things do you do in your spare time already? Are you working on anything? For instance, if you love anime and manga learning Japanese might be helpful. If you're wanting to lose weight and diet, cooking could work.

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>23 year old kissless virgin
>do poorly in college.
>go to community college for a few semesters, do mediocre but they let me back in
>now in 5th year, back in a 4 year but still doing rather mediocre
>Still a year and a half way from graduating
>have no friends at school, come straight home and waste time on the internet when I'm done with class

I can't take this anymore, I want to drop out but my parents won't let me. I'm going for a useless major because I was miserable while trying engineering/CS. I'm going to be working starbucks either way. I have no future. I just want to fucking die but I would never have to guts to do kill myself.

>>17800072
You need to change the shut-in part. Education doesn't give your life meaning. Being forced into something doesn't give your life meaning. Making ties with others and finding passion does. Talk to the counselor at your college.

Just here to remind you that studies show that the more intelligent a person is, the more alone time they require.

If you are happy sitting in your room playing guitar, drawing, etc. that's a good thing.

I myself noticed recently how much alone time I need. I find myself out with friends thinking "this is great, but I've had enough. I'd much rather be alone."

Not a negative thing, perfectly healthy. Chilling with yourself is important for growth.

>Even if a miracle does happen, you're already too old and fucked in the head to ever be good at anything.

Just admit it fellow NEETbros.

Things will never get better.

For every of one NEET from /adv/ "making it" there are thousands of NEETs that don't myself included.

>>17800135
Pretty much. Once you're old enough, just stick to living in apartments and being a loser all your life.

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>>17800072
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yassj4iJK1k

>>17800041
I do some exercise at home and from time to time fighting with foam swords and shit.
I tried taking a martial art but had to quit after a while.

>>17801065
>fighting with foam swords and shit
What if you tried learning fencing? It's not something you could learn independently but it might be fun.