Hey, /adv/, I finally got a appointment with a psychiatrist.

you probably have normie meme depression

>>17783288
yes, I know that I'm depressed for about a year, but recently it's really fucking up my life. I lost my whole motivation for things that I normally like, I cut off almost all of my friends, stay the whole day at home if I don't have to go out, I get really angry for no reason and my studies get worse and worse. Additionally I'm a 21y old KHV, and I often think about throwing myself in front of the train before I go to university, which I still have for at least 2 years. I'm a shitty mess at the moment. I hold my the phone for about an hour in my hand before I called the shrink and then answered with a high pitched voice like a kid. When I talk to people I always think about them laughing about me. I don't understand this shit anymore.

>>17783297
>21y old KHV

as a 19 year old KHV i know that feeling

>>17783317
It's not even the fact that i'm a KHV that is so depressing, I simply can't find a single good thing about me so I never approach any girls. In conversations my thoughts are blocked and I don't find anything I can talk about but superficial things and questions. It's like the words stuck in my throat and the thought of other people knowing how I really am is frightening for me. Everything seems shallow and I lost the hope that I can recover by myself. Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy.

Definitely be completely honest to your therapist, adress the meds and ask his opinion. Being 100% open with your therapist is the most important thing. Jesus dude, I feel like I couldve made your thread. I can just feel the pain in your words and I aswell am waiting for my first appointment. I dont know how to help you but I care about you