Am I going to be okay? >27 >Had GF of 5 years >She

>>17774567
I don't know her and I know this is going to come off as cheesy but don't off yourself. She wanted you to be happy alive. Live for her and do good for her.

Considering this was recently I can understand if you want time to take it in, that reality is happening right now. Grief and such. Do that and once you are done carry on.

I'm sorry Anon

>>17774567
Go see a grief councillor. this shit could last you a lifetime if you don't get it sorted and you definitely seem to be having a mental health emergency from the grief it is causing you.

>>17774567
Talk to a doctor. You're going through a lot and you can't (and shouldn't) handle this alone.
I am really sorry, OP.

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You need to talk to a human being and let your feelings out in a constructive manner.

You can get through this, what you are experiencing is a normal reaction to the death of a loved one.

I believe in you anon.

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>>17774567

>>17774567
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i cant help you, unfortunately. but i can extend the sympathies of an anonymous stranger on the internet.
keep your head up, anon. its what she would want.

Suicide hotlines have helped me in the past. But for long term help, you might want to consider seeing a therapist for a few months or a year. However long it takes. But definitely make weekly appointments if you can afford it. Look into free clinics that offer therapists and support if you don't have the money.
Google blogs written by people who have gone through similar things. It's always helpful to know someone has felt similarly.

Best wishes to you OP. I wish for the fastest recovery possible. I'm sorry this happened.

You should keep living, because someone's got to.

>>17774567
>Am I going to be okay?
Yes. But it's up to you.

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>>17774567
>>She died in a car crash

shit m8
We're here for you. It seems you'll live for a long time.

>>17774567
Remember the good times. Some live their entire lives alone. At least you had five years.

>>17774567
Seriously?

I'm 29, been in the military and have seen people die. What you have just described would mess me up.

You NEED to see someone.

>>17774567
OP, I am so sorry.

In a time far enough from now though, I can promise that you will be okay. You need time to think, think about her, how much you loved her and she loved you. Think about how devastated she would be to know that you decided to end your life. I know it's so hard, it feels awful. But there are so many people who care about you, even me, someone who doesn't even know you. I care about my fellow anons. Let us know how you are coping, and please try to get some rest, and irl help as well.

>>17774567
hey dude, i went through something similar. hope you handle it better than i did.

the pain might have a bit less sting over time but thats about it, that shit hurts forever.

that surreal feeling where you're still trying to figure out what the fuck happened, what you could have done differently and where you go from here sorta fades out into general hopelessness though.

>>17774567
You need to fucking sleep. Melatonin, xanax, whatever. Lack of sleep increases stress and suicidal thoughts. Plus are causing your hallucinations.

Go to sleep. It won't be any shittier in the morning.

this has always been my biggest fear. i dont know what you are feeling because ive never been in love or even loss to this degree. i think what some of the other anons are saying is good, that she would want you to live. of course you wont be happy right now or even in the near future because this is a big deal. if you dont feel suicidal but you just want to talk there are plenty of site where you can just talk to people. thee are commonly referred to as "warm lines" instead of a hotline. just to have a comforting conversation with someone. just think about if you were her, you would want her to be happy right? even if it was hard? people say that there are tricks to magically getting better or being happy but in my life i have found that the best healer is time. the times ahead are going to be rough, there is no doubting that. think about her often, think of the good times, live with purpose, and live for her. this is a cruel world and we are lucky when we get to live in it with someone even if just for a little while. we love you, and so does she

My brother killed himself a week after losing his wife.

Even though I miss him, I honestly think it was for the better. He was so damn fucked up it was unreal.

I think if you genuinely want to die, you have the right to kill yourself, but if you think you can get stronger and possibly help others in the same situation, then you should. Because honestly, you're never not going to be fucked up from this, and it will always hurt.