Hello guys, I'm here to talk about my rivalry with the guy

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Hello guys,
I'm here to talk about my rivalry with the guy who's been my best friend.
We had the same ideas, and a very deep connection, we wanted to be a musician and we had a band at this time. We were overall doing good even if we were fighting a lot, the artistic results where impecable and we had a connection that I never had with a friend. The thing is I was depressed, I had this tendencies to get late, to push back working on stuff,I told him about my depression of course but that's a thing he couldn't understand. One day I went a little hard on him, saying it was time for the band to split and that his work sucked and etc... we went on a huge fight over text. But I wasn't that pissed. He was. He wrote a very mean diss song about me and it hurt me so much. He sent it to all of our friends. After that we tried to work together as a team but I couldn't push our work together because I always had this idea in mind that he could betray me again. Recently, we tried to squash our beef again, but I still wouldn't push work too much : be there when he calls, nothing more. And suddenly one of my friends got in a beef with his friend, and I decided to stop answering his messages (as I did before).
But I don't feel good. He is still haunting me, and I can't move forward. Without him,I don't have the spark or the energy to go through my ideas. I feel very lost and depressed, I don't know if I want to be friends with him again and I don't know how to start building something of my own without him haunting me.