I'm a horrible person and I only like people if they treat me even worse than how I treat them.
Is it because my mother was a narcissistic cunt and my father non-existent? Or am I just a bad person?
I like to make people like me, even fall in love with me only to have this power over them and exploit it to an extent, making them feel bad and that they end up hating themselves.
Only when I meet someone who's an even bigger douche that treats me like shit I feel affection. Like I deserve it.
I know that I'm fucked in my head, but is it beyond any repair?
If you see a problem with yourself, fix it. Stop dwelling on it and start working on it.
>>17741047
Convert is all into sexual energy.
I was similar to you op. Then i hooked up with a nice girl and found out she was violent in bed. It fixed everything. I felt like i had power over her but in the bedroom she was more violent than i was.
>>17741060
How on earth are you supposed to fix that. It's not like you can turn off emotions.
>>17741074
Your brain and hormonal balance are a mess. Start lifting and going outside, you dumb fuck.
>>17741111
I've been like this my whole life. Even now I got a job recently and don't feel even remotely depressed.
Still I despise most people and only gain fun from manipulating them.
>>17741115
I recommend going into politics then.