Hi, I'm 23 now, and I haven't felt anything since I

You have major depression. Depression isn't "boo hoo im really sad :(" all the time. It's much more often a complete disinterest in everything and a lack of feeling.
Go see a therapist.

>>17740540
Yeah, I actually had two sessions in last two months. We tried two medications, neither helped. Next session is friday.

OP, do you have a job right now? Or are you producing something you want in your life? Sometimes you are missing the feeling of accomplish something or to contribute for something and it is totally understandable.

>>17740563
I study at university and also work. But struggling at both, since I just won't find time to do something for them (my job is from home and very flexible). I almost didn't finish my bachelor's degree (doing masters now) because of this.

When I finally passed (second/last try) my final exams (we have one big exam containing everything before we get our degree), I didn't really feel good or bad about it. And it's second best university in my country, so people would probably consider it an accomplishment. It didn't matter to me.

I'm very good at my job, so that kinda brought me satisfaction in the past I think. I'm now trying to score a job at Microsoft/Google/Facebook kind of company, but can't really bring myself to prepare for the interviews. Last time I got in Google to the last interview round without preparation, which is probably also an accomplishment, but stil really didn't matter to me.

So, to answer your question, I'm probably not producing something I want.

I wish I didn't feel anything, feelings suck

>>17740606
Feelings are awesome bro, praise feelings

Your hormones are a mess, start lifting and go outside.

>>17741089
I've been lifting for a year now, and I've lifted extensively in high school. No change.

One thing I can't figure out is what keeps me going to the gym.

Your soul has left the building

>>17741121
Can people actually lose there souls? I'm in the same place OP is in. I'm bipolar but when I'm not having a huge depressive or manic swing I'm just like OP I feel nothing at all, it's infuriating

Do you already do drugs?

>>17741199
No. I drink every now and then, but never even tried weed. I'm not against it though.

Do have have Kik, Snapchat, etc. we could talk on there I'm in a similar boat

Souls don't exist. cut yourself OP

>>17741396
This.

>>17741331
Try psychedelics, it helped me.

Granted, I'm back in your position now just cause I'm a lazy fucker, but it at least showed me "this is your problem, this is how the world is, this is what you need to do".

Start researching LSD and its effects/what to expect. I highly reccomend the YouTube channel PsychedSubstance for this. Start out safe (BUY A TEST KIT) but don't be afraid of taking very high dosages once you know you're ready. Good luck OP, we'll get through this.

>>17743286
I thought about that, but I had really fucked up childhood, so I'm afraid of a very bad trip.

I'm in the exact mental state as you. I talked with a doctor about it and he said I just needed to find something to make me happy, but thats the problem. I'm never happy so i literally don't know how to. Hope he puts me on some meds desu.