Hello every (and maybe good-bye). I've been suffering with

>>17722831
Human contact is always good.

>>17722831
1. Go to a psychiatrist (ER at a hospital that has a psych ward cuz you aint got time for appointments) and have them alter your meds cuz they arent working

2. Set yourself up with a psychologist to talk through your issues, who you are, and find a sense of self.

3. Find something to live for dammit. Work towards a cause, preferably one that wont be achieved in your lifetime. Find a philosophy and work towards a better world through it. Popular choices have been: Religion, socialism, communism, capitalism, libertarianism, federalism, charity, animal preservation, environmentalism, advancement of science, education, etc. Literally pick one thing that you think is a good idea/helps society, you dont even have to be passionate about it, and just work towards it. People who live for themselves, for their immediate friends or relatives, for respect, for wealth, etc, all these people are at risk of potential suicide in a moment of weakness in my eyes. An idea can never be destroyed and so not matter how bad things get, you still have an objective to carry out.

>>17723345
agree

>>17722831
That's a really cool picture btw...
You could talk to a psychologist, but don't expect for them to tell you who you are. There is no one you need to turn to except yourself. 9/10 times when someone is depressed or anxious, there is something they are running from. Running from it only makes us aware of the fact that we cannot escape it, because it's all inside. Face it. Understand it. Let go of it. Meditate my friend. Be patient.

>>17722831
Just find a painless and easy way to kill yourself, like helium inhalation. It's very freeing to be planning suicide. Make sure to have all the proper equipment purchased, then go and spend whatever savings you have on things you enjoy. Drugs, videogames, prostitutes, you name it. When cash is low and life is grim again, end it.

There is no point to life except what we choose, and any choice will require significant effort/pain. This is a much easier, simpler, and more peaceful path.

I've had two friends commit suicide, and it's not as frightening as you might think. I will as well, once my parents have passed.

Good luck anon.