>Diagnosed Asperger's >Family history of depression

>>17689747
just smoke regular weed?

>>17689747
>self-diagnosed cingulate cortex "malformation"
>throws around unnecessary words like post-natal, and out-of-place jargon like neuroplasticity

You're probably right about the aspergers (even then it got swallowed by ASD and doesn't exist anymore) though.
Read any book by Barbara Arrowsmith-Young. "The Girl who Changed her Brain" will do. Stop the pseudo-intellectual conjecture, it's literally bad for your health.

>>17689825
This would imply knowledge of how to obtain it. Somehow I feel like walking up to strangers in back alleys and saying "I have $100 cash on me, do you sell weed?" is a bad idea.

>>17689842
The old "I have a mental illness... Drugs will help xD" meme. The only person I know with autism is treated with methyl phenidate, which has the opposite effects in terms of mindfulness as marijuana.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_dissonance

>>17689839
third year surgery resident here
this

>>17689839
Having nothing better to do with my time, I'll address everything here individually

>Unnecessary words: post-natal
I found this word necessary because I don't believe I was born with the disorder. It has gotten progressively worse as I've aged.

>Out-of-place jargon: neuroplasticity
Asperger's has been attributed to increased neuroplasticity. I don't think this is out of place at all, as an increase in neuroplasticity could lead to reorganization of neurons in any part of the brain - including the limbic system

>Pseudo-intellectual conjecture
My conjecture is based on speaking to medical professionals and scouring three medical textbooks and spending weeks researching my symptoms. I may not be a medical professional, but I feel safe saying the "pseudo-" was not justified there

>It's bad for your health
Maybe. The more I come up with chemical or mechanical causes of my emotions the more helpless I feel to control them, exacerbating the loss of agency.

>>17689849
Thank you for that information. I'm not a doctor and only was interested in medical marijuana because in researching the long-term effects I found that it affects memory, mood, and motivation -- all of which are suffering in me. I'll look into methyl phenidate, though

>>17689849
Researching methylphenidate, I don't think it's for me.

>You should not use methylphenidate if you have:
>a personal or family history of tics or Tourette's syndrome
>severe anxiety, tension, or agitation

>Consult a doctor if you have:
>High blood pressure
>A family history of heart disease
>Depression

It looks like methylphenidate is more for ADHD and less for autism. Although I don't feel like the episodes I'm describing in the first post are wholly explained by autism alone.

>>17689858
>word pedantry
Sure think, kid. You're basing your entire hypothesis on an intuition that sprang from some biased research. I can't dispel that and keep a cool head. Rather than argue the toss, I urge you to get a MRI scan. See your cingulate cortex in all it's malformed glory and prove me wrong ( or get your theory blown the fuck out of the water :^) )

>>17689747
Try meditation. It gets you more into your body and out your being inside the head habits. Helps calm the mind. For 15 mins. a day.