Why does God do this? Why make people with such deep rooted flaws?

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Why does God do this? Why make people with such deep rooted flaws?

I've reflected on my life and all of my problems seem to be due to "autism" (if that's really the name for it, I'm not sure). From the moment I was born to now I've been doing things that are obscure. I was born and would refuse to eat anything but milk and cheese. I would act calmly around other little kids, not because I am "calm" but because I didn't understand their interactions so I didn't react even when they insult me - BUT I still had terrible fits of rage when I felt bad. Then in elementary school I did not have friends and played alone, but I acted weirdly like hitting other kids. I wanted friends so I also acted overly-funny/friendly and got some friends but could never maintain them. In middle school I saw that being good looking was becoming important to be popular so I became overly vain, stopped being funny and friendly and tried being "cool". Again I made friends and had girlfriends (I could barely get close to them since I can't even make a close friend) but I still was the same, it was fake and hard to maintain. It seems I'm struggling with autism all my life.

Most of my issues I didn't even explain, but the point is that every memory, every action and thought I can remember (literally EVERYTHING) is obscure and weird in a way I can only call "autistic" - It would not happen that way if I was "normal", my whole life, problems and personality is due to my mental obscurity / autism. And I was diagnosed with aspergers as a teenager... They may be right, it feels like I am a programmed robot, my whole life is struggling because I think differently than everyone else.