Tomorrow I am going to tell a mental health professional at university

>>17636584
If you feel badly enough about being a psychopath that you need to tell someone then that's a pretty big indicator that you're not a psychopath.

>>17636584

>tomorrow im going to tell a mental health professional that i am a psychopath

why bother seeing a professional when you're clearly so good at diagnosing yourself :^)

>no i haven't killed anybody

we werent going to ask. on the contrary, we would never assume something like that. on the contrary, we assume you're just being edgy.

>what should i expect

a long condescending conversation about how you're retarded, but not a psychopath.

what makes you think you're a psychopath?

>>17636590

pretty much this.

Getting help is the best thing you can do OP. Being in a hospital is definitely preferable than being out on the streets or in prison, the places where many psycopaths end up

>>17636584
Ignore most of the replies here

You may or may not be a psychopath. Self diagnosis is rarely accurate

However - the fact that you percieve yourself to be a psychopath (accurately or no) is indicative of issues that require professional help.

TDLR you're doing the right thing. They're really nice and will try to help but you may feel slightly patronised - this is bc they're not sure how to treat you yet (they don't know you) and so will err on the side of caution and be extra nice, which can come across as patronising.

Gg senpai this is a positive step

>>17636584
You sound like a pathological liar more than a psycopath to be honest.

>I can reply

What did you mean by this? just curious

>>17636590
I don't feel bad about it lol. I've never felt bad about it, unless I've pretended to when I've been called out for it, but I don't know what the actual feeling feels like, despite being really good at acting like I do. Trust me though, living inside of my mind is fucking boring at this point and I obviously must be searching for more stimulation.

I've gone through it in my mind, what my motives for doing it are (am I doing it because I can actually feel guilt, am I doing it because of the fact that it would be a fun experiment to gauge reactions if I revealed a little about myself or am I doing it because I would be more higher-functioning if I could actually feel genuine emotions.

I came to the conclusion that the two final answers, regardless of which one is true, would provide me with a beneficial outcome, and make life a lot less boring than it currently is, so I'll do it anyway and what the hell if they can fix what's wrong with me then it logically makes sense, right?

If you were incapable of loving even your family, grieving or feeling empathy I think you would know what you were too.

If you want my reasoning as to how I "happened" I'd be ok to post some of what I have prepared to say tomorrow, but there are just some things I can not share, even tomorrow. I think if I did share, it would be one of the biggest pieces, but I just can't for my own good so I've had to abandon that ship.

I wonder if I will be sectioned too because I have already spent time on a mental ward.

>>17636661

nope! they can't section you without a reason. saying 'im a psychopath' doesn't make you a harm to others nor does it even make it true.

you've done nothing to hurt anyone and live a normal life. if you were a psychopath they would have noticed the first time you were in a mental ward.

>>17636669
I faked/charmed my way out of the psych ward, I think they knew because I got questioned about it afterwards.

Why is it that the first conclusion everybody reaches is "you're not a psychopath"? Does it make you feel more comfortable talking to me?

Something in me reacted differently from a young age, when I lost and saw the dead bodies (some nice condition, some not) of my Great Grandma, Great Grandfather, Great Grandma (other), Grandfather, Grandmother, Aunty, Family Dog and have lost two children.

I watched somebody get decapitated infront of her son at the age of nine by a boating accident and my family is incredibly dysfunctional. Drug using/swinging/coming home from school to my depressed mother unconscious on the sofa in the dark/etc

By the time my Grandfather died it had significantly progressed from there. I felt like a freak because I didn't FEEL anything. As I stood over him and watched him die in hospital I knew that I couldn't compute any emotions. I thought it was part of the shock grieval process, but I didn't grieve. Nothing happened, and I had to pretend to my mother who was crying her eyes out. I use people for my own gain and don't care otherwise. I've been ignoring the calls and messages from my parents for days because I haven't needed them.

I manipulate people into thinking what I want them to think. I can't go into this fully now because I've only just dropped that. And as it's a huge part of my life I wouldn't be able to dignify its significance, so I think I'll forget that for the most part, but I am quite the fucking genius at manipulating people, I call it my "craft". But I appreciate the art of really great lies that actually work. I've done it to outwit people I shouldn't do it to (hint), and I do it to every single other person I've ever met every time I see them, I'm a charming motherfucker.

>>17636822

sure you did.

>>17636834
The fact you think this is a made up story makes me feel badass, straight out of the movies or something so thanks for that lol.

This is /adv/ anyway, no? not /b/

>>17636584
Expect them to do the world a favor and execute you with a pistol on the spot.

>>17636840
do you also like that feeling when people call you asshole?

>>17636841
Hahaha, thank fuck I don't live in the US, m9

It's p.fucking liberating to finally see somebody actually say that to me though

>>17636846
Nobody irl calls me an asshole because I make friends with everybody. Really fuckin' good at it too.

(I know that's just your way of calling me an asshole)

I came here for advice though.

>>17636822
The reason everybody's so quick to tell you "you're not a psychopath" is because self-diagnoses are notoriously inaccurate, as one poster already mentioned, and because moody teens and young adults often claim to be psychopaths in an attempt to impress people, because they think it'll make them seem mysterious and dangerous (read: sexy).

That's what you're doing, whether you're willing to admit it or not.
>Does it make you feel more comfortable talking to me?
>I manipulate people into thinking what I want them to think
>I am quite the fucking genius at manipulating people, I call it my "craft"
And so on. You're not making people feel uneasy: you're making them feel the same thing they feel when they see anybody else hopelessly pretending to be something they aren't, e.g. a 50-year-old dad trying to act "hip." When people read your posts they're not picturing Patrick Bateman, they're picturing an acne-scarred fifteen-year-old dressed in a trench coat and fedora.

If you write like a kid trying to impress people, that's what people are going to assume you are.

Regardless, you still should tell a mental health professional exactly what you've told us, because you certainly do have issues out the wazoo, they're just probably a lot more mundane than "psychopathy." Fortunately for you, as you'll eventually come to realize.

>>17636860
no there's nothing wrong with being a psychopath, but isn't it amazing how easy it is to make other people sad just by playing them out against eachother

>>17636866
Interestingly it wasn't a self-diagnosis. My psychs have warned me in the past there might be a personality disorder, and I've been told by people whom I've accidentally "blown up" at. Though at my point, it's just something you know and live with like a Pirate with Polly on his shoulder. When I lose my temper it's like a blackout or a seizure, and I "wake up" afterwards really lethargic and usually go for a nap. So many things have been smashed etc I couldn't even begin to list. I have a permanently disfigured hand now from hitting the wall too hard. Now that's a regret. I was on a good dose of anti-psychotics since 2009 but I cut off from them a while ago.

One time, I was having a violent fit at my dad and I got locked in my room. The police arrived and before they spoke to me I punched myself in the face a few times just so they'd ask me if he'd hurt me lol. It was a kinda payback to him to let him know I could have fucked him (as long as I knew I could have done it)

Fucking hell, what would you actually think if this were true? If I came to /adv/ thinking it was a legit anonymous advice site? Doesn't bother me though, this is the internet after all.

Impress? How is it impressive to say I'm incapable of love and grief towards my family? That's not what I'd use to impress people. I normally use qualifications, cars, sex, drugs, humour and other skills. This is me being honest for once.

How can I still be 15 if I have lost two children? or a house and all of my possessions to an ex with whom I had the most destructive relationship of my life? I lost my virginity at 13 and had lost my first child by 15, but I'm 24.

>>17636850
Ur rite m8. Jus pop urself wit a gat n erry1 wil b rite n proper, ya?

>>17636874
Definitely makes me feel grandiose, I've entirely made up other people and seeing people buy it is 100% better than cumming.

I recently broke up two best friends by placing subconscious things here and there etc, it was like a long-term project, and now he just comes here all of the time and does me loads of favours and enjoys bitching about him, loads of good stuff came of it, worth it and pretty funny now I think back to it.

Now the guy's a lonely sack of shit, but he won't fuck with me again at least lol

Could somebody offer some real advice instead of "kill yourself"?

>>17636958
Kill yourself harder?

>>17636958
why is it that you never tried to kill anyone?

>>17636969
If you actually think I need to kill myself I'd rather hear a proper explanation why over just the sentiment.

>>17636910
I'm not saying that anybody thinks that you're an actual fifteen-year-old, that's just what they're picturing when they read your posts, because you write like one, and however obtuse you want to act about it, your previous post was an attempt to impress us. You were grandstanding, particularly with the last paragraph.

"Psychopaths" occupy a certain niche in pop culture, helped along by movies like American Psycho and shows like Dexter and so on, they connote mystery and danger etc -- or at least they do to the sorts of people who claim to be psychopaths on websites like 4chan. You're not the first "psychopath" to ask for help on this board, understand that. If instead of writing "I'm going to come out as a psychopath tomorrow," you had written "Tomorrow I'm going to tell my psychiatrist that I think I have a personality disorder. I feel very little empathy for anybody, I have wild mood swings, I spent a while taking antipsychotics but they didn't seem to help, etc etc" you'd have gotten a much more supportive response.

You want my actual advice? That's what you should do from now on. On here, in person, talking to anybody, family, your therapist, your doctor, don't use the word "psychopath," NOT because it scares people -- it really, really doesn't, dude -- but because what's relevant here are your actual symptoms, not whatever disorder you've self-diagnosed yourself with. And I'm sorry but you have self-diagnosed. Being told that there "might be a personality disorder," or being called a "psychopath" by untrained laymen in emotionally charged moments, doesn't qualify as a diagnosis. You have no idea what's wrong with you. Stop being invested in being a ***psycopath*** instead of having one of the many disorders that can cause symptoms like yours and you'll have better luck in getting the help you need, both from us and from your doctors and therapists. You won't come across as an edgy 15-year-old then either.

>>17636982
Because you're a walking time bomb and should be put down before you cause more damage to others.

>>17636974
I think about that often. I've got too much travelling and shit to do, and that'd be ruined for a temporary high with a permanent consequence. It plagues my mind almost every second of every day though. Sometimes the temptation is a little too great and I might have gotten close, sometimes, but as I've never done it it's manageable enough. I might be talking myself out of going tomorrow here lol.

Prison would be so fucking boring too in one building, caged for the rest of my life, I'd rather just kill myself.

>>17637025
>Rather just kill yourself
Do it so we won't have to hear your edgy teenage bullshit.

>>17636987
This is actually really good advice.

>>17636987
I very much understand your great post. Though I stand by using the term as when I use it, people instantly know what it means, and have a more narrow perception of my symptoms, as opposed to the general term of "personality disorder", and therefore don't need 5 explanatory posts detailing what's wrong with me. I created this thread with the request for advice surrounding what might happen to me upon revealing my symptoms?

Of course I am not going to walk into that room and tell her I'm a psychopath. I'm not even going to tell her "personality disorder". I'm just going to walk in, be nice and tell her about what I've gone/am going through, and watch the atmosphere drop in such a way that would make Skrillex proud.

Thanks

>>17637031
>I'd rather just kill myself

That was a joke lol

>>17637069
It doesn't have to be.

>>17637076
Oh shit, it's my ex.

>>17637025
what you say sounds more like antisocial personality disorder

>>17637082
Ex because you killed her you fucking nut job?

>>17637091
The two are directly linked together.

There is no 'Psychopathy' in the DSM. It's only covered under APD. I have purposefully understated how great the urge is though, for obvious reasons.

>>17637108
Fuck off.

>>17637060
Upon revealing your symptoms, she's going to ask you some questions, maybe a lot of questions, to get a better handle on your situation: stuff about your symptoms, what treatments you've tried in the past, how they worked (or didn't), your medical and psychiatric history. Once she's satisfied that she understands what she's dealing with, she'll move on to talking about potential treatment options. If she feels she doesn't have the expertise to deal with your problems, which might happen, she might refer you to another specialist. In fact, even if she does want to continue meeting with you, she might do that regardless.

She'll remain civil and professional throughout, because you're a patient and she's been trained to do so, and unless she's very, very young and inexperienced (doubtful anywhere, doubly so at a university), you're far from the first person to walk in there and tell her something shocking.

If for some reason she does say or do something unprofessional, you simply walk out of there without scheduling another appointment and you find a different mental health professional, having lost nothing but an hour or so of your time (and your money if you have to pay for the appointment yourself.)

She will not have you involuntarily committed to a psych ward and what you tell her will obviously be completely confidential, and will remain so, unless she has a strong and *specific* reason that you're a danger to yourself or somebody else -- which you aren't, so don't worry about that. A general worry that "oof, I'm not super comfortable with this person walking the streets" isn't enough. There are a handful of circumstances under which doctor-patient confidentiality can be breached, none of which apply to you.

>>17637108
when I lost and saw the dead bodies ... Aunty, ...

>>17637140
Naw fuck you. Edgy piece of shit teenager. Kill yourself, faggot.

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>Best friends are actually diagnosed with mental disorders like schizophrenia and such
>My face every time I see someone bragging about some self-diagnosed shit

You're not crazy, you're just an asshole. That's it. You might have some genuine things going on up there, but you are most likely not a psychopath. By most likely, I mean you missed every actual indicator.

Call me when you lose 3 days on a k-pin binge and cut a tree down with an aluminum bat.

Unless youve been diagnosed by a medical professional as having an antisocial personality disorder, they wont take you seriously, and will probably disregard the statement entirely.

>>17637188
You're a fucking faggot mate.

I fucking hate when cunts like you have one pussy friend, you think that nobody else is capable of it. There's more that I'm keeping from you lot about my diagnoses, so fuck you. Why do you think I have been a top fucking dose of mood stabalising anti-psychotic, and have been admitted to hospital

Reading posts from pricks like you makes the whole thing worse and reminds me that going tomorrow is what I should do.

Looks like the thread's over. I'm updating tomorrow after I get back from the appointment whether you faggots like it or not.

I would actually like to speak to that guy who gave good responses, I could actually learn something from his advice. Shame we can't talk more

>>17637224
>I fucking hate when cunts like you have one pussy friend, you think that nobody else is capable of it
That's funny, that's exactly what I was accusing you of. "U guys I'm the real deal, seriously. I even made two of my friends fight once".

No, in fact I'm acquainted with a handful of rather unstable individuals. I know you won't believe me, so I won't bother going into how mean /actual/ psychopaths can be, but for what it's worth I've blacked out in a rage and manipulate people close to me too, and I'm certainly not the crazy one.

>There's more that I'm keeping from you lot about my diagnoses, so fuck you
Funny how every time someone calls you out, you suddenly have "way more that you're not telling us about".

>Why do you think I have been a top fucking dose of mood stabalising anti-psychotic
Unfortunately, since I know lots of mentally ill people who /do/ take massive doses of anti-psychotics, I am aware that they have more than just the one function. Just curious, what mg is a "top fucking dose"?
>and have been admitted to hospital
You and literally everyone I know.

Look m8, I believe you. I believe you have anger issues, I believe you have mood disorders, and I believe you should see a professional. What I don't believe is your self-agonizing bullshit about how you're a psychopath, because you literally aren't.

If anything, you've got sociopathic tenancies.

>>17637224
For the record, if you started the thread with "I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow about the possibility that I have an anti-social mood disorder", I probably would give you proper advice on how to do that.

But you said "yo I'm gonna go tell my doc I'm a psychopath", and then every post after that has been some weird combination of bragging and grandiose.

So, fuck you

>>17636584
You're probably not a psychopath, man. You might be something else, but you're not a psychopath.

There's no real point in telling a medical professional, especially if you're able to function socially. Wha

>>17637334
cut off accidentally

What advantage does telling a person you're a psychopath have? None. Psychopathy is only ever even a little bit of an advantage if you're the only one who knows what you are.

Quit pretending yo.

>>17636584
why would you report being a psychopath when you're prolly not and just gay?

I want to fucking brag, I want whichever cunt it is to know what I've done and I want to gauge her reaction because it's the next best fucking thrill and I absolutely need that thrill, I can't go long without it because it's fucking ecstasy for minimum effort.

That's why.

Fuck it. It's not because I feel guilty for doing the things I've done to people. I'm fucking proud of that. It's not to get help because you're right.

I shouldn't have used the term psychopath guys, but fucking hell just understand that I didn't expect to be interrogative, I only did it so you'd know the kind of shit I was on about and didn't have to listen to you say it back to me. I couldn't give a fuck what you think though I've been like this for as long as I can remember and don't know anything else, so just fuck off and humour me here. I'm not lying or pretending.

I held off from shit and kept saying "oh yeah well <new info>" because I've never fucking done this before. I've never spoken about it out loud. Maybe I'm only posting it here to brag anyway. I've never been candid with any of my friends or family, I didn't want to think any of them were reading this and happened to add up what I wrote about them and tied it back to them. I also didn't want to be reported.


I was diagnosed bipolar in 2009. I've been on (I don't remember the doses because I stopped taking everything and threw them away in 2013) Olanzapine, Depakote, Risperidone, Procyclidine, Citalopram, Fluoxetine and another I forgot the name of. The biggest dosage was Depakote, which I remember to taking two 500mg pills of them per day. This was the 2nd to highest dose available of the pill.

I hope that clears some things up.

Doing this tomorrow will give me the buzz I get from manipulation and maybe slightly ease off the OBSESSION with wanting to do things to people every day. If she makes me see another professional, more people to give me attention and thrive off of.

Holy shit this feels good

>>17637402
OP Googled "prescription drugs for psychopathy patients"

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>>17637433

I wasn't on all of them at fucking once. I had a fucking humiliating and pathetic grandfather pill box for them, and was only ever on a MAX of three different medications at once. You'll notice some of those are different SSRIs. I also took Procyclidine to counter the side-effects of the Olanzapine, which gave me a horrible tingling sensation all throughout my body that I couldn't shake unless I slept through it.

The box looked exactly like this one

>>17637447
There there, op. I'm sure it did.

>>17637456
Lol just go fuck yourself

I could tell you anything you wanted to know with regards to them, but there's nothing else to say. It was trial and error with a load of various medications and changing the dosages too-regularly-for-my-comfort, I was also shit at remembering to take them and forgot pretty often

>>17637470
Its OK OP, nobody expects much from you anyway. I know what would brighten your mood: some chicken tendies! Does that sound good, OP? I know it's your favorite. I'll go whip some up right now for you.

>>17637478
You taking the piss or something?

>>17636584
>that I am a psychopath

*I am autistic

^^^You guys see this above response?
This is the appropriate response.

We need more shit like this. Not stupid redditors who wan't to feel important/smart.
You need to call out bullshit autistic shit like this when you see it.

Then again, you yourselves are autistic.

New solution, how about just get off my fucking site?

>>17636607
>TLDR

>>17637486
No, I haven't had much to drink today. I don't know why that's relevant. Anyway, turns out I'm out of chicken so I need to run to the store. Just stay here and play minecraft while I'm gone. Don't bring any juice upstairs because you spilled some on the carpeted stairs last time! OK? Thanks OP!

>>17637493
Really well fucking memed there mate!

Didn't even read the thread. I can smell the autism on you, go back to Minecraft, autismo.

>>17637188
>My face every time I see someone bragging about some self-diagnosed shit
>Best friends are actually diagnosed with mental disorders like schizophrenia and such

>best friends

>Call me when you lose 3 days on a k-pin binge and cut a tree down with an aluminum bat

>stop being such an edgy autistic "hurr durr I'm mentally ill gimme attention"
>let me do it instead

Do you have any idea how ironic this is?

Fucking neck yourself, you tumblr fag.

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>>17637507
>I don't know how to formulate an actual response, I am only capable of le downboat

you have to go

Do you guys think I should go in there confident or appear to feel guilty? Both have advantages and disadvantages

I think I'm going to go in there guilty and humble but turn up the confidence as I progress through the explanation lol

>>17637528
You should go in there and blow your head off right in front of her. That will traumatize her for life.

>>17637533
Hahahah, yeah but I wouldn't see her reaction.

>>17637537
Oh darn.

>>17636615
5 hrs later...
Oooh
Now I get what you mean,
That you want to prove that you are a psycopath more than anything else.

Again:
>Pathological
>Liar

>Source: I am one myself

>>17637643
I am a pathological liar, but I've enjoyed getting some dirty truths off my chest here for the first time in ages.

How do you account for everything else I've written, though? :v

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>>17637537
Literally who cares, just end it you edgy fag

pic related, it's op

>>17637683
Lmao nice b&ter but technically those two are the same personality.

>>17637668
I literally don´t care,
I found the last line in you first post interesting tho.
Like something I would say, that´s why I asked.

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>>17636584

The "I'm a psychopath" meme is played out, kid. We get this shit every day.

>>17637738
You're alright.

>>17637748
Keep posting in them then, faggot, I don't give a fuck.

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>>17637757

There's a difference between being a psychopath and being autistic OP. You are clearly the latter.

Stop being edgy, I can tell you're a freshman.

I'm a psychopath, too.
Or at least have tendencies.

I think the closest thing I feel to love is lust?

I don't care about anything and I'm ALWAYS bored.

I have to play music 24/7 while I'm awake.
Not even kidding.
Work, home and car or else I just can't stand it.

>>17636590
My sides.

Try narcissistic personality disorder instead

>>17638192
You're clearly the fucking kind of autist that goes around disregarding everything written because it's on the internet. You have no fucking clue and you don't know me.

I'm not even a freshman, you're a shit detective. I am a fully capable fucking adult.

>>17638201
Any way we can talk?

>>17638192
I genuinely fucking hate cunts like you that use the word 'edgy' to describe some really fucking serious issues and disregard them like they have no matter

Please hang yourself

>>17638242
It's a good joke but read the rest of the fucking thread before going back to Tumblr please.

>>17639004
this this this this this

although narcissism and psychopathy do go hand in hand

thelastpsych has a shitton of really great articles about the two topics

>>17639398
I'm not interested in all of your webmd responses.

This is /adv/ cunt.

I made a post "This is who I am, this is what I am doing, what can I expect?"

Not all sorts of fucking medical opinions you fucking neckbeards

>>17639407
i wasn't talking to you, you worthless faggot

>>17639428
I have my worth in my left ballsack than your entire life lol.

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>>17636584

>>17637511
Ever watch a dude cut a tree down with a bat? It's a humbling experience

>>17639466
>I have my worth in my left ballsack