>2007 >poor >abusive mother >suicidal >father

obligatory bump

2007 was the year everything went to shit.
In a way its like I'm trying to make up for that.

Well, It seems in all my endevers I lose motivation.
Oh sure a time or two here and there I was pumped and ready to something. I did it or whatever but, then in the long run I don't want it anymore or something like that.

>>17587124
Give me more background, tell me more about yourself

Probably unrelated question.

>wearing army green shirt i got when enlisted
>go into elevator
>2 guys enter beind me
>1 sees my shirt and says
>"are you in the army?"
>oh im in the delayed enlistment program
>"have fun shooting my people. You guys shoot my people"

How the fuck do i reply to that? I just said "umm.... thats not nice...." What is an appropriate response?

>>17587202
I dont know why they live here. If they have that attitude for those who live to defend the country they live in, then they should go back to "their" people

My dad told me to stay away from the military for a reason, and I actually plan to listen to him for once in that regard.

>>17587088
>be me
>abusive step father
>mother had stockholm syndrome
>hid in my room most of k-12
>did JROTC in highschool
>found purpose and became color guard commander
>finds gf and first love
>feelsgoodman.jpeg
>graduate
>no more JROTC
>GF cheated and left
>mom gets sick
>step dad still abusive

>>17587202
Professionally, ignore it dude.

There's always going to be haters. It doesn't matter if you're military, rich, poor, hispanic, jewish, ripped or Buddhist. Motherfuckers are always going to try and hate on you.
I try and can a few insults for passing encounters, where it won't leave harm

"Baby killer!"
(Only when I shoot low)

"You kill my people!"
(Usually if your people shoot first)/ (No, I don't kill Americans)

"Thank you for your service"
(Thank you for your taxes)

"You ever kill anyone?"
(I killed your sisters pussy, that's why we call her rigga-more-dick)

>>17587247
>do community college 1 year
>suicidal and no sense of belonging
>fuck it join the Army
>join the "reserves"
>68w (combat medic) fuck ya
>basic and AIT
>met people i never thought id meet
>did shit i never thought id be able to do
>lose 40 pounds when i got home

>>17587247
What are you doing now?

*Disclaimer*
I'm not trying to recruit anyone. I don't think that the military is for everyone, and the way that it's heading is new in the worst way. In the way that traditional military service will neither benefit you, or the country. I got lucky, learned a ton, and want to give back to the community that helped me so many years ago

>>17587257
>go back to community college
>join real ROTC
>more great people
>better grades
>on the way to officer
>HOOOAH

>>17587250

There's nothing to hate on about joining the military

>>17587088
>>17587092
>>17587124
>>17587166
>>17587202
>>17587223

Give me some pointers, OP

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x4obeqaxhRs

>>17587267
>mom is at the ER
> gets excused from drill to go to hospital
>doctor talks to me
>"your mom has cancer"
>..........
>tries to support mom through chemo, radiation etc
>keep up with School
>keep up with the reserves
>keep up with ROTC

>>17587279
http://www.cplusplus.com/doc/tutorial/pointers/

Sarcasm aside, what do you want tips on?

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>>17587286
>just last month Mom passes away
>step father made scene at funeral
>Ex wants to be friends again

I wouldn't be here as optimistic as i am without the Military. that sense of belonging and family got me through a lot. I dont regret joining.

>>17587287
>Sarcasm aside, what do you want tips on?

You said in your original post that you found meaning in life. What was it that gave you meaning in life?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaCHBmGWcBc

>>17587297
I'm sorry about shit man. I really am. Someone as high quality, and decent, as you shouldn't have to go through so much. You're going to be much off for your kids though, and the people you interact with on a daily basis.

>>17587298
"I never got why people would kill themselves.
So if you want to die you obviously don’t give a ****. Like, about anyone. ‘Cause if there is anyone who loves you, you don’t give a **** about them, or hurting them, and if there’s not, there’s no one to give a **** about.
So instead of killing yourself, why don’t you just get the **** out? Leave the basement, leave your house, leave the ************* country. Go on an adventure. Spend your time doing something awesome, like tracking down some terrorists. Go be James Bond. Go **** up a shark with a harpoon. Danger? **** that, you were going up against 100% death rate before, you’re being safe now. **** EVERYTHING, man, the world is your oyster.
Sometimes I wish I was suicidal. I’d pull the barrel out of my mouth and point it in the air, start a revolution, LIVE. Move to Barcelona, hit the bars, band some chicks. STDs, who ******* gives a ****?
And then when I’m done, maybe I wouldn’t want to kill myself, ’cause I’ve seen how beautiful this world is."

It's a useful copypasta once you take action on it. I... had a bunch of experiences, good and bad, and consciously decided that I wanted to live, had some fun, stopped being so self righteous, and stopped giving a fuck what people thought of me

>>17587297
>that sense of belonging and family got me through a lot.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7RXY4VOAz78

Yeah, see that is my problem. I grew up being the only white person in non-white neighborhoods. Every other ethnic group had a gang to join except for my ethnic group. I don't really have any family or any sense of belonging. There is no unfortunately no real nation wide organization for people of European ethnicity that don't have families that I could join, unfortunately.

I am attracted to ideologies like National Socialism because I am searching around the world trying to find that family and ethnic kinship group that I never had.

>>17587316
you dont choose to be an ethnicity. you can choose to be a solider
From what i learned and see, i dont see black, white, yellow or whatever. I see green.

>>17587315
Thanks much appreciated. Battle buddies make it all easier to carry the load.

>>17587321
>you dont choose to be an ethnicity. you can choose to be a solider

Yeah, but I want to have a family. A family is a bunch of people who look like you do and they have the same genetics and DNA that you have because they are related to you by genetics and DNA.

>>17587316
You don't want that shit man.

Don't be part of a gang. Gangs are groups of desperate people who are going to go nowhere fast except the grave.

You want belonging? Join a community. It doesn't matter if it's art, law, police, plumbing or any of that. You're going to live longer, have better relationships, and generally be more satisfied. Open yourself up to others. Most people are essentially the same, they just don't know it.

Perhaps you could create your own "gang". By that I mean find a woman, have a bunch of fucking kids, and create a place where you belong

>>17587321
>From what i learned and see, i dont see black, white, yellow or whatever. I see green.

I don't hate anybody who is different from me, just like this video which was made by an active duty Lieutenant Commander in the US Navy says:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaCHBmGWcBc

I just want to have my own family and my own kinship group of people who are genetically related to me and we can live in our own neighborhood somewhere just like Chinatown is a Chinese neighborhood and just like Koreatown is a Korean neighborhood. I want to have a "white American" town somewhere in the world. I don't hate anybody else, I just want to find some other people who are like me somewhere and live close to them.

>>17587331
>Perhaps you could create your own "gang". By that I mean find a woman, have a bunch of fucking kids, and create a place where you belong

This seems like a good plan. Thank you!

Have something to look at about who is running things behind the scenes in case you get bored:

http://thezog.info/list-summaries/

>>17587338
https://youtu.be/cgOFQcNZiFk?t=10m5s

You're stuck in a frame of reference dude, ethnic groups are all you know... it's the only acceptable group. I understand that it's not hatred or bigotry... Perhaps, however, you don't know of how a different tight knit group may be

>>17587338
not sure if troll or for real.
if you want to "belong somewhere" dont think the best place to look is ethnicity or political ideology. Find a group that all around is meant to help the community and not fulfill an agenda like politics or racial pride. Thats just me though

>>17587088
>graduate bootcamp, still basically the same
kek the marines teaches you to be a subservient bitch. It is necessary for soldiers, i sincerely agree. But the marines change personalities drastically. Dont fool yourself otherwise.

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>>17587250
>Giving people shit for thanking you for your service in the military

We got a cool guy over here

>>17587344
>You're stuck in a frame of reference dude, ethnic groups are all you know... it's the only acceptable group. I understand that it's not hatred or bigotry... Perhaps, however, you don't know of how a different tight knit group may be

Fair enough, if you want something to read about who controls all the money and owns all of the businesses in our country, then you might want to take a look at this:

http://www.jrbooksonline.com/PDF_Books/jewishsupremacism.pdf

>>17587388
>kek the marines teaches you to be a

I can tell by your disrespectful comment that you are obviously an anti-American Zionist Israeli Hasbara Jew, like the ones in this video:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R9C5mKvYhKw

The disrespect that you showed to the veteran in this thread is something that I have seen repeated over and over again (from both Marxist Jews and also from Zionist Jews). Your post is proof of the fact that Zionist Jews can never be true American patriots.

>>17587388
In order to be a good leader, you have to be a good follower first

>>17587401
It's not anything offensive. They're putting you into an awkward position "Oh, I should honor and revere you because you joined the military!" No. I did it for me. It was a job that I was paid for like any other. TYFYS is the same as saying "Never contribute to society again"

I could see you saying TYFYS to someone who was actually in combat, and maybe lost something, or gained shrapnel, but otherwise... just treat us like people

>>17588382
Yeah, but how can they know the difference? Americans (or the world for that matter) don't know what every ribbon you wear on your dress uniform means. Yeah it's awkward, but let them have the satisfaction for saying they've seen a military personnel and thanking them. You may have done it for yourself, but whatever you are doing, you are supporting the military.

>>17588877
EXACTLY. You can't tell the difference, unless, as I already said, they're visibly broken from war.

I've never had someone get angry by using that canned joke. In fact, it humanizes me, and makes the other person way more receptive and at ease. Unless they're already super shy, in which case I wouldn't say it.

Fuck man