I contemplate suicide a lot because I hate who I am. I'm

Any advice?

>>17543020
I'm sorry to hear that you're hurting.

You say that you aren't happy with how you look, and I believe you, but what is it that you want? I doubt that it's just to look different; more likely, looking different is how you plan to get what you want. What do you WANT?

This isn't just a question: it's also part of my advice. You need a clear handle on exactly what you want, or you risk getting bogged down in implementation details that prevent you from getting it. Sometimes you even have to sacrifice the plan to reach the goal.

What aren't you happy about, looks-wise?

>>17543020

Seek therapy. Professional help is what you need if suicide has become a legit option for you.

>>17543020
Seems really selfish to do this to the guy, worse case you should break it off before ending your life.