I'm really struggling with handling emotion in general,

Stop playing video games, they're for children.

>>17499920
videogames are pretty much the only thing I am alive for at the moment which is pathetic considering how unhappy they often make me

>>17499927
Well stop it, that's a stupid waste of time.

>>17499942
If I don't have games to fill my time with I will be dead within a week. I'm unemployed and it's the only thing keeping my sane. They're all I get up for and the only thing I get excited about.

Everything you do when you aren't working is a waste of time. It's an irrelevant criticism to make.

>>17499942
Video games is a hobby like any other.

>>17499954
When I'm unemployed I look for jobs. It has taken me longer than 6 months a few times. Its not a coincidence that you spend all day playing games and that your life is garbage. Quit trying to improve your mental state by focusing on juvenile pastimes and improve your life by working or getting medical treatment

>>17499957
It's physically unhealthy, costs money, is antisocial and is win/lose. If op went fishing all day and caught nothing you think that'd mean a night of suicide note drafts? Reading books is not possible to fail at.

>>17499954
>It's an irrelevant criticism to make.
it's not a criticism, I'm sure it's fun. It's concrete advice. Games are stupid and bad for you.

>>17500014
most of my life revolves around gaming. it's where I met the people that mean the most to me and it's the only way I've found to fill my time that I enjoy.

how am I supposed to just give up all of that on a whim? I don't have anything to replace it with. I'd never see my friends because that's all they do as well.

>>17499984
I've done 4 cycles of clinical treatment, pills, whatever. nothing changes. I improve my mental state, start doing things normal people do, then have a breakdown and crash again. there's nothing left a shrink can say to fix me. I don't know why I expected anything different here

>>17500026
You're wasting your time
You don't have any friends
There are more than 4 pills and 4 kinds of therapy and none of them are video games.

>>17500038
You can project all you like but I've known these guys in real life for 10 years. They are absolutely my friends. Your viewpoint on games is fine and you're entitled to your opinion, but don't tell who my friends are and aren't without even knowing me. That's just foolish.

I can't afford counselling and I was discharged again just recently from the free service in my town. If you'd offer an alternative to videogames I'd be glad to hear it

>>17499904
You don't need to stop playing video games because they're "bad" or "anti-social". They might be, but it's not important. You need to stop playing video games because your mood is, according to you, entirely dictated by them.

You are attaching your "self" to them. To start detaching from them, consider playing in different ways. Instead of always trying to win and stressing about tactics or FPS or whatever makes it more likely that you win, try to appreciate a different aspect. For example, talk to the other people playing. What are they like? How was the game designed? Maybe the game is just visually pretty (I'm just guessing, I haven't played DOTA).

You could also continue trying to win, but expand your perception of yourself playing the game. Maybe you can realize that sometimes, it is best to take a break when you are on a losing streak instead of grinding yourself on it and losing more and more.

Most importantly, keep noticing how the game affects your mood, in real-time, not just after the match is over. Really feel that anger, or sadness, or happiness, etc. When you notice your mood changing, stop playing for 1-2 minutes to let that emotion pass.

When I was able to notice the beginning and end of anger/sadness/etc. in myself, it became much easier to prevent it from taking control.

>>17500063
I think you raise a good point, but perhaps it would be better if I cut them out entirely. Often I have long breaks and I'm still feeling the strength of the emotion hours later. I don't have control over my impulses and feelings at all and I need to find a way to regain them.

>>17500058
>I'd never see my friends [without videogames]
>They are absolutely my friends.
pick one

>>17500006
>physically unhealthy
well yes, if you abuse it, anything can be physically unhealthy.
>costs money
And what hobby doesn't cost money?
>is antisocial and win/lose
It's only antisocial if you make it, you can always talk to other players.

No offense, but that last statement makes you sound weak minded. Who doesn't strive to win?

>>17500090
>>physically unhealthy
>well yes, if you abuse it, anything can be physically unhealthy.
it's physically unhealthy with no abuse needed
>>costs money
>And what hobby doesn't cost money?
walking
>>is antisocial and win/lose
>It's only antisocial if you make it, you can always talk to other players.
noob faggot
>No offense, but that last statement makes you sound weak minded. Who doesn't strive to win?
craftsmen, artists, basically anyone who takes pride in themselves or their work.

>>17500058
get /fit/