Does anyone here think about suicide much? I'll be honest

>>17498500
How long have you had this gender dysphoria or w/e?

Is it fairly recent or havr you been feelin this way dince you were like 4 or something?

I feel like all the positive reinforcement and support for people coming out as a man wanting to be a woman or vise versca is kinda'v like a double-egded sword.

On one hand its great for those individuals actually having diffuculty coming out, but on the other a bunch of lonley, sexually vulbnerable people with no real sense of self(identity,spiritually,emotionally, mentally, and all the rest) are more prone to join the "coming out bandwagon" without really understanding what it means.

This and all the support and positive reinforcement is what i believe is what making people belive that they're gender fluid binary nonsense when in actuallity they're not.

So which is it for you OP?

>>17498500
Also shuttung yourself away from the world and real people are just making things worse for yourself.
You need to get out side, even if its going to the park or just walking around for a bit window-shopping or somethig. I guesd it all depends on your neighborhood or where you're at but shutting yourself away from the world with just your thoughts isn't healthy for anyone.

>>17498688
I know it sounds like a meme like "just bee urself lol" but its actually not. And if you are feeling suicidal dont call the suicide hotline, i know it sounds counter productive or w/e but they'll just tell you ti call the police, then the police pmt or something will make you out to be the bad guy even if you've done nothing wrong. They'll take you to an ER and then take you to your local psyche ward for 4 days and 3 nights trying to get you hooked on meds you may or may not need and give you a "vaccine" you suddenly didnt take this year.

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>>17498673
I'v had dysphoria for about 6 years. so i'v been this way since i was 15. 21 now.

I fear i'v sucked in the worlds opinion and started to believe i want to be Female for some reason, but being misled or not i am very much trapped feeling, i want to exit my body, because i feel like my brain and my body are two different people.

I am ashamed that i still enjoy pornography yet i want to me a girl? yet i still act like a man?

so that's what i mean when i say my brain and my body are different.'

I see the smug look on my face i just wanna wipe off, if i could somehow be a another person and have a different body i'd beat the living shit out of my old body.

I feel like we're enemies.


And as far as spiritual thoughts go, i want to believe badly that there is a God, and not just an empty void, A lot of my anxiety come from doubting if God really exist or not, because i thought about asking him (And i have) that if i can be Female in the new system (Dad brought me up as a J.w) So i tend to believe in the new system instead of Heaven, i'm not saying i don't believe in Heaven, it's just that the J.w teachings tell us that the majority will stay on the earth and that only a 144,000 will go to Heaven to rule as priest n' stuff.

But i don't know if i have any sorta hope for anything, a lot of my depression is turning into anger and salt, now i feel like i am becoming a more vile person at heart, becoming calloused in my feelings towards matters,

Besides, i am pretty sure God is either Ignoring me or just doesn't exist, either way i feel like i lose this game.

Shit i hate everything right now, not even sure why i'd ask for help, it's not like any of you could help me, but i do enjoy your pity, so thanks..