>tfw ugly as fuck
>being sexual abused as a child by other kids
>both the gf i ever had cheated on me and led on me
>didn't even fucked them, only kissed
>one of them told me "you are the most pathetic and disgusting person i ever seen, no woman nor a man would ever touch you. You should kill yourself."
>she sends me a pic of her face full of cum
>since that day i have nightmares about her every night for already two years
>no friends in real life, family hate me
>mom even said one time she should abort me
The sole reason i am alive is out of spite. I'm not going to allow her to be right even if she's correct about me.
I fucking hate myself and if i could ever wish for something ia to be a monster like the edgy faggot that i am.
Is there any way out of this shit? I don't know anymore. I don't want this shit.
You know that you arent trying your hardest so any advice is really just wasted effort, but here it is anyways.
People with horrifying birth defects still manage to find love, so get over yourself. Put forth some effort in making yourself look as good as you can and stop basing your opinion of yourself on what other assmasters have to say about you.
Fix your attitude, because "woe is me" is a massive turnoff to anyone and everyone.
Stop treating everything as if "this is my only chance!"
People and relationships are a dime a dozen, dont waste time moping around, move on to bigger and better things.
Rinse and repeat.
>>17488917
I did tried my best. I managed to go down 30kgs.
I don't reveal any of my "true feeling" in public. Just being a silent guy.
I don't treat anything as a chance. I'm just don't know what i did even do wrong.
You didn't do anything wrong. You can go a step further and do the right thing by posting that pic