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Rant. Anxiety. Crying atm for no concret reason. Porn induced ED. Feeling lonely 2016-08-21 23:27:21 Post No. 17484450
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Rant. Anxiety. Crying atm for no concret reason. Porn induced ED. Feeling lonely
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I hate parties. I like the songs but when I dance people mock me because I don't know how to and it must be pretty obvious and that jst makes me feel akward and my already low self-esteem kicks up a notch and I distance myself.
Last time I went to one (must've been 4 months ago already) a girl that was really drunk, not saying anything coherent, stayed a couple minutes with her arm around me, everyone around me was just telling me to "do it, do it". But I didn't know what. I don't know what to say, I don't know how to apprach a girl I know little about, so I said if she wanted to go to somewhere more private but she barely understood me so I had to say it over and over again, until she said no but kept her arm around my neck. It was just really fucking akward and messed me up. 10 minutes later she was taken by someone so I just spent the rest of the few minutes I spent there by looking at two hot girls kissing eachother in a corner and drinking.
I'm feeling really fucking lonely despite having a gf, my circle of friends faded over the years and I don't know how to re-structure it. In college its so easy to get flooded by normies, to feel ashamed by not being an alpha male like the rest or be able to have sex thrice a week like some girls and gays I've interacted with. The people outside of that cliche that I do know of already have their own personal friendship circles. How do I start one or insert myself more without sounding like a desperate loner? Why do even "nerd" events like GoT have to be fucking parties?
I made my girl cum everytime we've been together, sometimes even twice, but I have some serious ED that I'm trying to get over through noFap. The thing is as I start to get even the smallest signs of mixed signals I start to connect everything to my lack of virility. I feel less compelled to flirt with her and ashamed to even ask for sex (we a city away from eachother).
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Cont.
I've been trying /adv/. I've been trying so hard for so long and I feel such little difference from when I started. I just need to listen how from time to time when I get this dips into emotion hell. How do I get better. I need to work on these things so I can clear my head and focus on my studies which I haven't been applying myself in since my head doesn't stop ringing me these negative signals over and over. Just hammering them in, these little momments that I flawed and from which I can't seem to know what I could've done differently.
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nearly same problem, doing same thing now
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>>17484454
It's okay to hate parties. Find friends who don't always party. If I'm at a party I just sit there and chill, idc what people think cause it's still a social gathering in the end.
Regardless, just hang with friends outside of parties and you'll probably feel better. When you have with friends you just don't have the time to think about negative shit.
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>>17484589
That is my main difficulty right now. Finding new people. I have my stand alone friends, they don't know eachother and most have their own circles or live far away now. I'm only afraid really of losing that contact that allows you to meet new people. As someone who constantly feels like shit for the smallest reasons I NEEEEED that vallidation that comes from knowing that you are desireable. And the easiest way seems to be to learn how to seduce. But I don't know how, and no one that I've asked seems to be able to explain either.
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Talk to me brother.
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>>17484691
>low self esteem
>barely any confidence
>lost my "soulmate" (girl which was nearly perfect for me and I for her in a way)
>lost social "touch"
>cannot make any new friend/don't know how to talk to new people
>feeling lonely and depressed
>very small circle of friends
Anyway my english is crap when Iam like this
I just don't know brother...
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> a girl that was really drunk, not saying anything coherent, stayed a couple minutes with her arm around me, everyone around me was just telling me to "do it, do it".
congrats, you almost date raped a girl but didn't
It sounds like a big part of your problem is the people you're surrounding yourself with, who seem to be a bunch of fucking chads. I think it's a good idea to try and infiltrate those other groups you're talking about. It's a hard task, I know. The only good advice I have is to be patient; making friends takes time. You need to approach the situation knowing it's going to work out eventually. If you allow yourself to be open to new experiences and relationships, they will (eventually) come to you--easier said than done of course.
As for sexual performance, if your gf is happy, don't worry about it too much. Like your social life, I think the situation will rectify itself soon.
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