I'm 22 and I'm going back to college. I dropped out

Get some counseling OP (I know it's a meme)
but developing some outside perspective on your life history and methods of coping.

I had/have similar problems for many years.

recognizing codependent patterns that have permeated my life has helped a bit, ways of coping that I've had since youth and dysfunctional relationships with family.

the other life event I've had happen is I've seen people come and go, lost friends even good ones and made friends and after a while you recognize that you have to ultimately deal with yourself.

don't feel so bad about it though, we all need friends to some extent.

>>17482305
I did use the college counseling, but they weren't that great.

I have been diagnosed with depression and my doctor did write me a prescription, but idk pills kinda freak me out.

>>17482336 (me)
Yeah, I don't care for them either if you can help it, but if it keeps you from becoming completely dysfunctional that may be some good.

I think for me it comes down to healthy self-esteem (which I don't have), but if you believe intrinsically in what you do on a daily basis, your identity, and your value as a human, other people's validation matters a lot less.