why do I enjoy drinking alone even though it makes me depressed, when I'm sad I get drunk and when I'm drunk I get more sad.
why do I keep doing this to myself
>>17482123
Because you haven't ditched the alcohol for pot.
Seriously, get all stoned up and watch some documentaries or something. If getting drunk is making you depressed than stop drinking. Sometimes the most obvious answer is the best one.
>>17482142
But it's hard to stop, that's the problem, I am drawn to it even though I hate it
I try and get pot whenever I can but I don't like getting involved with dealers, I'm in NYC and it's easy to get caught in some gang shit or worse, by a cop if you're not careful.
cmon /adv/ I need help