Help /adv/
I don't know what is wrong with me. For the first time I actually feel really depressed.
I've had four girls over at my apartment for the last three years, none of which I could get myself to have sex with and one of the girls even wanted to be my girlfriend which I couldn't do either. When I always get really close to a girl I feel like backing out and don’t want to have anything to do with them.
I've never had a girlfriend and never had sex my whole life, only once when I was really drunk and the girl literally took me to her bed and fucked me. Couldn't feel a thing.
Now one hour ago I called a prostitute. I felt like this was the time I would just do it sober. Feel how sex is like and maybe get that anxiety away from it all.
So I choose the most expensive one for one hour. When she arrived I told her to just lead the way as this was my first time. She went for it and I was so bad at everything so she just gave me a hand job. I couldn't even come. So after that I was really disappointed and felt like money wasted.
Now my distance to ever try something or get a girlfriend is just worse than before.
Why do I feel such a distance for girls when it gets real, yet can come fine when I masturbate. What is wrong with me? Help.
>>17477951
you said so yourself, you are too anxious to do anything and instead of doing it anyways, ur being a pussy bitch. you let a prostitute, an expensive one at that, dictate what would happen as opposed to what you want to do. you let her give oyu a handjob.
are you fat and ugly cuz i cant imagine her being that determined to scam oyu unless you are
>>17477957
Thanks for the good advice. And no not even fat and ugly. Workout daily. I would never even get girls to my apartment if I was fat and ugly?
I told her myself to just give me a hand job and leave. I actually just wanted her to go. She gave me 75 dollars discount. So it was OK.
>>17477988
>i would never even get girls to my apartment if i was fat and ugly?
says who? fat and ugly guys get laid all the time. sometimes even by reasonably attractive girls. you gotta remember that fat and ugly people need love to. they just get it from other ugly fat people.
>that follow up
just have sex with a dude man