Im in a foriegn country, at a bar, shitposting on 4chan. When

>>17476130
Long before i got here

>>17476141
We're on the same page then

>tfw I do this too

Should I be worried?

>>17476130
>When did you realize you were retarded /adv/ ?
When she burned my letters and sent me the ashes.

To be fair, I had it coming (this is a thread about Heel Realizations, after all). I got better, eventually. But holy living fuck did that suck.

>>17476152
>When she burnt the letters and sent me the ashes

Just be glad you're not with someone like that, it could've been far worse.

i expect noone to answer me, i just want to vent. Why am i so socially inept? Im not ugly, ive been with plenty of girls. As soon as the sexual contact ends and im sober i dont want to tslk to them. When i was younger i use to go to every girl and hit on them till i had one. Nowadays i cant even glance at them before pussying out. The more i think about it, the more i think the sexual abuse i faced affected me.

Im so tired of this shit. I cant even talk to guys anymore. Im just retarded.

>>17476160
>Just be glad you're not with someone like that, it could've been far worse.
I don't think so. This was a last-resort ploy to get me to Just Go Away when all else had failed. I don't want to talk about it, but suffice it to say that what I'd been doing was even worse. I wasn't kidding when I said I had it coming.

I was the fucking cringelord in my younger days. They suspected me of having Asperger's back before that was the diagnosis-du-jour, though it turns out that I don't. I was just negligent. That's why I don't begrudge her what she did: quite frankly, I needed that.