Anyone else here quitting the booze?
>Last time I stopped drinking, I stayed awake for two nights straight, watching hallucinations on the back of my eyelids, and sort of tripping.
>I started again, because I started a new job that was intensely stressful, and I have severe anxiety and PTSD that I try to keep at least partially hidden to fit in to society.
>I feel remorse that I have already damaged my brain by going through withdrawal once. I'm fucked up enough without further damage to the poor bastard. I'm tapering off with vodka, and in a good place mentally. just wanted to get that off my chest, because i have no one to talk to about what's going on in my life.
Hey man, Papa /adv/ is always around to lend an ear.
A lot of people will tell you what's right and wrong so I'll just say, that sounds fucking tough. The best of luck with it. How are you coping at work?
>>17471231
I'm surviving, no one's complaining about me, so I'm good so far, thanks lol
Hey man, I am proud of you. Doesn't bear much weight coming from some anonymous ass on the internet, but I know the pain/numbness of it all
>>17471168
I'm an alcoholic; all I can say is hang in there, and life is better when you're not damaging yourself with the bottle. It's stupid hard to quit if you're a real drunk, and given your description ofor your withdrawal problems, you probably are.
I don't like AA, personally, but I did find the face-to-face support of a roomful of drunks helpful during my first few dry months. There are other support groups too, and I recommend them. Being in a room with people who understand and are very sympathetic is powerful.
>>17471168
Holy shit dude, with all the 20 year olds on this board I expected the usual "I'm gonna stop drinking three beers on saturday" bullshit, not some real shit with DTs. Respect for starting to turn a severe problem around.
Have you considered seeing a doctor to get a controlled regimen of benzos for tapering? I guess if you have the willpower to taper with vodka all the more power to you, but it still might be safer and more sustainable to have a more quantifiable method.
Also, don't feel bad about the supposed brain damage. You'll damage your brain more if you keep drinking. When I worked in a neuroscience lab we used ethanol to kill the brain cells off our samples.
I hope you can find support. I know AA can be a cult sometimes but everyone I know who's had a problem (not just with alcohol) has found it valuable at the very least as a place to meet friends who know about addiction and do other things than drink. Good luck man.
OP here
Yeah, I was so in denial, I didn't think I was going to have any withdrawal symptoms. I didn't think it was a lot of booze honestly, and i never drank before work.