Not really advice, I kind of just want to do some half-ass venting.

>>17462310
>Not really advice, I kind of just want to do some half-ass venting. How many of the rest of you have violent OCD where you see yourself killing someone, or doing something gross, or doing something embarrassing, especially in a social setting?
This is called unwanted thought syndrome. I think everyone experiences it sometimes to some sub-clinical extent, but it is a very common form of OCD.

I do the talking to myself thing, though. I never do it in front of others because I'm hyperaware of my surroundings, but I definitely do it whenever I'm alone. It's like I'm talking to an imaginary observer, or sometimes I imagine how I would explain things to my imaginary kids and I find myself doing it out loud.

In any case, you could manage both of these with some really entry level CBT.

OP,

As far as the talking to yourself thing, I started doing it more and more when I started living by myself. I enjoy it to be honest, it makes my life a lot more fun when I can happily tell myself jokes and laugh.

This really hit home for me, everything you said. Except the punches in the air. When I think of myself in embarrassing moments I make a loud noise to clear my mind, my family is used to it by now.