I'm running out of options, strength, and steam. Since

>>17462059
Keep going.


In about five hours from now I have to wake up, go to a job I hate, physically exert myself for the majority of the day and come home do more studying/work in a course that I hate. I do it for the future. I'm hoping that my hard work and dedication mean something. I know it's not much saying this to you, you're in a different boat. But I'm trying my best, and I hope you will, too. Maybe we can find solace in that we aren't alone in struggling for a better future.

Good luck.

Talk to your mental health people at your university and explain the situation. I thought I could tough it out like you. I couldn't, burned out, and had to medically withdraw for a semester. I graduated with a decent gpa (3.6+ at an extremely difficult uni known for grade deflation), but lost my ability to compose or intellectually concentrate for a solid year. Do NOT get burned out. It is NOT worth it.

>>17462059
Well your schedule alone is a lot to have on your plate, plus your health issues. It'd be a lot for anybody. So do remember to recognize legitimate stress from outside sources as something separate from your emotional health. You're working really hard. You're probably more mentally stable than you realize, and just suffering from being stretched too thin.

If you really feel like it's fucking up your life and physical and mental health in the long term, it might be worthwhile to take on less strenuous of a workload. However, if you feel like you can make it out the other end of the tunnel, I'd encourage you to remember that a semester is pretty short in the grand scheme of things and you'll have conquered a lot of your stressors in just 12 weeks. I guess you just have to weigh objectively which scenario is most detrimental to your long term goals and well being.

Also, do you still have a therapist? It's important for people, especially for students and people at your age, to have a trusted support network. Even just having someone to talk to for some CBT can help you out a lot when things seem like they're too much.

Good luck anon. I went to a rigorous college and it was hard for me with my mild anxiety, but I had a lot of friends with more serious mental and emotional issues (including one with T1D who got hospitalized for ketoacidosis during his worst year actually) and it took them a lot but eventually they all made it through, even if it took six years instead of four because they needed a break in the middle. Think long term, and push yourself but don't hurt yourself.