ITT. Dealing with inferiority complex, narcisistic conducts and

Find something you enjoy doing then even if its a little hobby on the side just to occupy time, you don't need similarities to strike conversation with people, its a matter of asking the right questions about a topic, giving the other person to give you more than a yes or no answer and tossing the conversation back to you, focusing on them and asking them questions will make them feel comfortable with you, you want to know more about them "oh they must care about me"

You have a lot to deal with right now (very sorry to hear of your mother's condition) but you also mentioned you have had these issues in the past. Strongly advise you talking with Physician and/or school psychology service (in all colleges and they are free - stress management/student services). You could be depressed with mild social anxiety. There are many forms of depression. Depression isn't like the movies or TV (thinking about suicide/crying/no joy/laughter all the time) it is also about feeling numb, lacking interests, self doubt, being unable to maintain focus or drive. You might also have un-diagnosed neurological issues as well that is at a sub clinical or barely clinical level - and with life issues on top of it - is making functioning at your best difficult right now. Things like ADD etc.. that effect executive functioning (EF). EF has to do with completing task/goals, emotional regulation and internal/external motivation. Medications can help with this (along with Cognitive Behavioural Therapy or CBT = thinking about your thinking rewires neuro networks to form better/breaking old behaviour patterns - always should be included with medication) - nothing so hardcore they turn you in to a zombie, but help with motivation/focus and/or mild/moderate depression/anxiety. Talk with MD or NP or school services and just get evaluated - they can't make you take anything or do anything you do not want to. There may be trail and error - if medication does not improve situation after 3-5 weeks, maybe need different med/different diagnosis. ADD, Depression, Anxiety, tier One ASD, Sleep issues etc... all have very similar symptoms (and you can have one or more - they are common comorbidities) and if you are sub clinical or barely clinical it takes observation over time to figure out. You can not take care of others unless you are taking care of yourself. Best Wishes and I sincerely hope you go talk with someone for any thing but to help you with your mom.

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Ill keep this in mind, but its unlikely that It will happen, there's no such thing in my college (I am not from the united states tho).