after about a month of self experimentation I have discovered

Serotonin. Your brain releases it when you masturbate.

and dopamine the feel good hormone

>>17438708
Masturbation helps you to relax, it's also healthy for your prostate. It helps get rid of sexual tension and I don't have to talk to girls

There could be many reasons, we really can not tell with how little information your provided.

It's possible that you are addicted to masturbating at this point and your brain is acustomed to regular releases, so you act like a junkie if you don't provide your brain it's kicks.

Or maybe (or simultaneously) when you dont fap you get horny and lonely. You don't know how to battle with lonylenss because you are social outkast (which I propose seeing how you post on 4chan) and it depresses you.