>21 >no job no money no high school diploma >live with

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What do you need advice on? Keep going, ascend to the next level.

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>>17426329
>>17426329
how do i find meaning in a meaningless existence, everywhere i look signs of past actions are being eroded by the flow of time, soon there will be nothing left and it all feels fine, i just don't care about anything really it's all just out there happening and i'm in here watching, how do i make choices when most of the ones i face are functionally equivalent, what if i just don't want to try at all, what if i just want to coast through life a little bit stoned just chilling, is that ok? don't i owe it to my ancestors to pay it forward as they did for me, because i'm able to conceptualize and understand the vast oceans of ability open to me as a modern man do i not owe it to men in a future age to build more stepping stones so they may do yet greater things? can i just say fuck it and phone it in while i masturbate wearing my girlfriend's panties and then eat captain crunch out of the bag by the handful as I complain about my life on internet message boards, is this art? am I art?

I hate the moment when my internal monologue becomes self aware and begins to consider itself.

FUCK

Do I need to build a godzilla out of cockroach parts?

>>17426329
Wow, impressive and disgusting.

>>17426369
Stop whacking it to fetish porn to start with. Find a hobbie/s that you enjoy, and find things to do with your girlfriend.

>>17426369
Why do you need meaning? Is there meaning to jacking it to JAVs or does it just feel good? If you want to coast and enjoy yourself with low ambitions, then do so. If you're not enjoying it, figure out how to do what you enjoy.

You don't owe anything to the dead people that manage to bang and pop you out, and you don't owe anything to the next generation of idiots complaining on message boards.

I used to get neurotic and make self-damaging decisions because I would tie myself in knots about ideals and morals and ambitions and art and meaning. I hit a rock bottom point and decided to just enjoy every day for what it is and do what I can to be a positive influence to those around me, and follow my whims. I haven't always been in a better place since, but I've never gotten stuck.

I'm 33 and life has been very easy. I hate this because it makes all notions of worth and value subjective. It is preposterous to assume otherwise, but I don't want the burden of having to define my sense of self using self selected criteria which are all equally meaningless.

I take solace in the fact others feel this way, but I know their experiences are theirs alone, completely unverifiable and alien. It also seems predatory to inflict my own suffering upon another who is also suffering.

Nihilism yo. At least it is kind of pleasurable at times and often funny. I never sought comfort and ease, but I'm to rationalise that self inflicted misery is somehow worthwhile while fully aware that I determine the worth.

So what do I want? To be seen as worthy in the eyes of others based upon my subjective standards knowing full well that the reactions of others are out of my control and my measures are subjective to me alone.

Who the hell chooses to be miserable for sympathy? Is it simply rationalisation? Trying to find value amongst my limits? Yeah fuck too many levels of awareness.

I find that I experience happiness within the moment itself, but removed from the moment I become neurotic and critical due to finding so much worth in tearing down even myself for daring to be happy. I try to remind myself that consciousness is not a solid state to be judged but a continously reacting actor with it's own agency at all times.

I think my problem relates to a very typical fear of dying alone and with regrets which is just ruminating upon the nature of aging and viewing the cyclical nature of life through a cynics lens.

>>17426329
took me a very long time to understand this picture

>>17426400
>Stop whacking it to fetish porn to start with.

Why is this everyones first piece of advice. What is wrong with group incestual cfnm latex femdom pegging?

>>17427071
literally no idea, every girl i've ever fucked has been down to tie me up and use me

as a virgin i was so scared that being a sub male would turn girls off, but in practice it's never been the case

>>17426329
I almost fucking dropped my laptop when I opened that image I fucking hate cockroaches and I feel paranoid thanks a lot asshole