I dont know where to go anons, ill try and be brief and precise.

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I dont know where to go anons, ill try and be brief and precise. im mid 20's, I have a great job, great family, but every day I feel hollow. I repress constant feelings of insuffiency, and the fear i may get fired at my job, despite that I maintain an energetic outgoing friendly personality. I was rear ended in a motorcycle accident a couple months ago, the case seems like its taking forever, all i have time for on my days off work is to go to the damned doctor appointments my attorney has set me up with and im not getting better. my dad keeps telling me he'll kick out the people renting his house for non payment so I can move in and rent it out, its been months and multiple missed payments, he never does it. I can afford a nice apartment easily, but i live in this shitty falling apart trailer built in the 70's because its all he had when i moved back in years ago from a stupid little stint. Everyone calls me by my birth name and its starting to really dig in mentally. The main part is just my identity and how I feel if I begin expressing it, my job will go down the drain and ill be fired (i'm doing great in the job itself, Its my childhood dreamjob, my supervisors love me, Im Under NDA, but im the only one in my office that knows how to code and script), and the doctors and attorney working my case may quit on me, despite living in commiefornia, discrimination is hard to prove. Lastly, I dont have a significant other nor friends outside of work. My life is miserable, I cry myself to sleep infrequently, Or i'll cry into my sweater quietly while pretending to sleep on my way to work... I've been on Hormones for 1.5 yrs and get mistaken frequently in guy mode yet i feel i'm non-pass. I feel like im walking on a tightrope that'll snap any minute...

TL;DR Money doesn't buy happiness after all, What do?