My father died 3 months ago, miss him a lot, it's horrible

if its any solace to you he's in a better place now

the ground

it's horrible now, but you will get through it

try to remember the good memories you have of him

Good, its good you getting this all out now and grieving, some people bottle it up and that just not healthy. I can't give you advice as I've never lost anyone close to me. But you will be alright given time.

Yes, it's hardest at night. My father died this April.
I'm sorry but you just have to bear through it. There's no other way.

Getting his stuff in order is up to you now. Bureaucratic bullshit as well.

sorry about your father

> i m afraid to turn off the lights
pretty normal, you are not a robot. Let the lights on, don't feel bad about it

> he told me he wants to sleep and i m not his full time job
Don't know what kind of person would say that in this situation, that is shameful, not you. Don't let this put you down.

> i m feeling in panic, ashamed, alone, and weak
you don't seem weak to me
your father would like to see you happy
you are not alone

> any advice
tv shows, music, do something you like, keep your mind busy, turn panic into strenght

>>17415453

Sorry to hear that. So, do you also feel this way sometimes?
What do you do?

>>17415426
My mom passed in May. There will be times where it hurts and all you can do is cry, and when that happens you should cry. It is normal and you shouldn't be ashamed. It's just part of the grieving process.

As for your bf, he'd better hope that when he loses a loved one he has somebody to talk to. That is incredibly inconsiderate.

>>17415426
Sorry to hear about your dad OP

I don't have any advice, but I think all the things you wrote about going through are perfectly natural

And IMO you definitely have the right to ask your boyfriend for support...no reason to be ashamed

The time will help you, it will make you a stronger person, I m sure it already did.

You deserve nice and comfort words in this situation, ignore what your bf said. But if this attitude persists, make sure if you want to be with someone who cannot handle with your sadness..
he should be the motor, not the anchor.

my bf always comfort me with cute things and surprises when I m down, I'm glad to have that, you should have it too, everyone should.

Take your own time to think and relax. Stay strong, you are brave.

My old man passed away back in 2013. Take it a day at a time, anon. Learn to enjoy the little things. And spend some time with friends and family. The first six months are the hardest, being alone doesn't help. Everything is temporary and these feelings will pass. You'll never stop missing him, but everyday it hurts a little less.

>>17415657
thanks a lot. I ll try to do that.