How is it possible to be so filled with self-hatred without being

>>17403856

self criticism is very rarely truly just 'self' criticism. it is brought about by the combined opinions of others, and the media.

whether or not you are ugly is unimportant. if you were called ugly by someone once when you were in fifth grade, and everyone laughed, you'd carry that quite a distance.

when movies star guys who are insanely attractive, or even the ugly guys manage to get a long string of female conquests that are model tier, it makes you wonder what you are doing wrong. you may be able to state 'i know thats not real'. but when you continue to consume it, it sticks with you.

its like porn. you know you are not having sex with those girls. but your brain thinks it is.

reverse engineer that. you know its just a movie, but your brain thinks that htere is an alpha male doing better than you, and you must compete with him.

combine that iwth how easy it is to read about people whining on the internet, and its a rough life.

the more connected we get, the more exposure we have to others lives, the less relevant our own lives seem.