I used to have a "when I grow up" kind of feeling to

What are you exactly paranoid and delusional about?

>>17394509

You probably consider yourself to be pretty smart, right? If you're anything like one of my friends, you rely on the fact that you're smarter than others and that things will just naturally work themselves out. Nothing happens if you don't make it happen. You have to go through the struggle to make your mark. It's not too late to look back and laugh at your pathetic past. But you have to start now. You need goals to keep up your vision and avoid going back into the same comfort zone that you've been stuck in all this time.