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I'm not sure what I'm looking for in life.
I'm chronically unhappy with what I have. I have memories of fleeting moments of happiness and I've tried to find a common connection between them but I can't seem to find anything in reality that maps to what I remember. I seem to sabotage my own joy with constant stipulations and fears.
I want a community, but I don't want to have expectations thrust upon me based on my past actions
I want job satisfaction but I don't want to take my hobbies and turn them into a chore
I want to spend my time bettering myself but I talk myself out of every option and instead favor staring at a monitor seeking something that doesn't exist
I try joining clubs, talking to people, and going out - but after 5 minutes I already hate the activity and feel worse for participating than I did staring in longingly
How do I figure out what will make me happy? I would risk my life pursuing happiness if I knew where it was, but I don't want to take a risk when I don't even know that I'm heading in the right direction.
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>>17378641
>TFW you're the only thread that no one responds to
Is it that no one knows how to be happy?
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>>17378641
It seens pic related is you right now.
Anyway, what you like to do? Generally, what we like to do makes we happy.
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>>17378687
That's the problem... I really don't know. I'll think I want to do something, then I'll do it and decide I hate it. I always convince myself that what I have or what I'm doing is bad.
I used to play MMO's religiously as a way to pass the time, but I even found a way to make those miserable. In Mabinogi I would use glitches to place my character out of the map so no one could find me and I would just sit in the empty void, staring at my screen and wondering if I was ready to talk to anyone yet. I hit rank 1 music playing before magical music was invented because when you're sitting in the glitchy void there's nothing else to do other than pull out your lute.
I've tried joining martial arts dojos, I've tried making videogames, I've tried making websites, I've tried playing sports, I've tried drawing and art,... I always find a way to hate it.
My question isn't: what will make me happy? Obviously that's different for everyone.
My question is: how do you figure out what will make you happy? Is there a trick?
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>>17378690
alcohol is the answer
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>>17378711
thanks for reminding me I had some anon-kun
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>>17378690
What you like to do it's linked in how you will find it, tovarish. If you can't find it for now something you like, keep trying or you will drown youself in vodka, da?
>how do you figure out what will make you happy? Is there a trick?
That's also diferent for everyone.
At least you're aware of that and you try diferent things.
There is no recipe how to find hapiness.
Some people find hapiness doing a hobby, anothers found it during Soviet Union, anothers find inside a relationship or even in a Gulag.
I know this is what you don't want to hear, but if you wanna find hapiness, keep doing diferent things until you find one that makes you happy.
Ps.: I add some russian humor to cheer you up.
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>>17378741
I do appreciate the humor. Thank you.
It's unfortunate that I'm very sensitive to alcohol. I would drown myself in it if I could stand it.
Guess I'll stay the course for now.
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>>17378741
What this and the words in your OP, OP.
"Risk"
Keep doing the above. You can see if you can found what makes you happy or die trying- or suicide. Whatever works for you.
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>>17378751
>Guess I'll stay the course for now.
Don't lose hope.
Maybe a person or something will bring it to you. Eventually you will reach that.
You maybe can say:
>Well, you're happy, for you it's easy to say
No, I'm not. But like you, I'm on search of that.
Ofc, before the Gulag work, brb.
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