Fucked up relationship with parents. How can I recover? I'll

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Fucked up relationship with parents. How can I recover?

I'll try to be to the point here. I've been battling a heroin, benzo, and alcohol addiction for nearly a year now. Two months ago I moved out of my parent's house because they wanted me to go to rehab, again, but if I went I wouldn't have graduated high school. If I didn't, I couldn't live with my parents. So I moved. This involved me being homeless, hopping places, running from the cops after living in a vacant trailer, living in a shitty place, and using heroin again out of spite. Fast forward 3 months, due to getting fucked by my insurance company I can no longer afford an apartment. I am forced by my I insurer to buy a car or they'll drop the I insurance on my motorcycle (only form of transportation). I need to buy a car, pay for a lawyer, go to court, and just can't afford to live alone now.

Well, my mother just found 200 syringes. 100+ were used from 3 months ago that I just never threw out, but she thinks they were all clean and I intend to use again. She also caught me drinking today. I offered to and did tame a 12 panel drug test for her, and I came up negative for everything but thc, but there's still a major lack of trust and now they want me to go to rehab, but I can't because I'll lose my job that I desperately need. Wtf do I do? Relationship is fucked, financially I'm fucked, just...wtf.