Police just knocked on my door at 3 am to tell me my father took

not die

>>17371493
No one can tell ya what to do m8, we don't nl know how deep the bond was with you and your father, this is something all of us go through but we need to walk the roaD alone, nothing we can say will make you feel better, just no that people understand the pain you feel and when you finally breach the dispear the sun will be shining for a better tomorrow

>>17371493
Contact other family members if there are any, and work together.

Ask cops what has to be done legally. They can guide you through the steps.

Hold yourself together until it's over and then allow yourself the luxury of breaking down a bit.

Move on.

>>17371493
Maybe he'll love you forever.

>>17371493
There's really nothing you or we can do to speed up the grieving

Just remember that it's not your fault
some people commit suicide spontaneously, but most would hold those thoughts inside for many years
either way, you can't hold yourself responsible