>be me
>19 yr old gril
>life is so messed up that i feel completely isolated from my peers socially
>mom died 5 yrs ago
>dad died 2-3 months ago
>other childhood traumas include being preyed on by a pedophile at 14, parents being drug addicts, religious nut foster parents abusing me and my brother
anyway what do i do? i dont want to die exactly i just dont know how someone like me is supposed to exist anymore thanks
>>17368064
Is there anyone you trust that you can lean on?
Go to a psych. Don't dwell on the past. Figure out how to improve your current situation and do it. Get hobbies. Avoid negative influences.
>>17368064
Be huge and pwn large, gamer mentality is what you need
>>17368064
Get a job. Keep it. End of story.
>>17368064
Make friends. Keep your mind off negative thoughts.
>>17368368
>be huge and pwn large
So, like Boogie?
Come on, that's just mean. She should just be competitive in IRL.
>>17368077
tips on going to a psych?
Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Figure out what you want to do with your life and who you want to be, then figure out what steps you need to take to become that person. Don't let yourself become a victim of your past, though if you're dealing with anxiety problems, consider medication if you feel you need it. If you want to go to college, apply to every in need scholarship you can find - they will likely have sympathy for your situation. Write a good cover letter. Also travel. Get out of your hometown and your old headspace... but if you do travel, make sure you get set up wherever you go and have some funds to fall back on so you don't find yourself homeless.