What are the risks of telling my therapist I'm suicidal? I mean on one hand I want to stop seeing him. He says I'm not ready but I guess I can still just stop going. He doesn't know I'm still suicidal (ever since over 1 year ago we never talked about this again). But on the other hand, this is exactly what I'm paying him for, right?
Maybe he's just not that good as a therapist. And I'm afraid that if I tell him I'm gonna be stuck with him for longer or that he's gonna take some sort of action, I've no idea what therapists do when someone claims to be suicidal. I'm often afraid I might actually kill myself but I guess it's not a real possibility if I haven't killed myself so far, right?
Suicidal thoughts come in varying degrees. Honestly it depends how vivid and how likely you are to act on them that determines how they react. Being suicidal isn't necessarily a ward sentence
If you feel like you need to hide something from your therapist, you should seek a new therapist.
And suicidal thoughts / ideation are to some degree always serious, regardless of how "actually" suicidal you feel. Take yourself / your psychological health seriously.
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Suppose you broke your arm and went to a doctor, and for some reason he treated everything but your arm. Wouldn't you eventually say "Hey! I've got this broken arm, remember?"