So when I was in highschool I was completely obsessed with my

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So when I was in highschool I was completely obsessed with my male best friend, and even now I am but I really want to be friends with him, or at least be in a position to talk to him. Every day he is all I can think about, and it's driving me crazy.
At one point I followed him home and groped him, then messaged him about how I want to suck his cock (I'm a guy) and he got "scared" according to the principal of the school in which he reported me to. Is there any hope of me being able to talk with him again? I know his address, but I'm kind of afraid of going for obvious reasons.
It's been 2 years since then, most weeks I had made a habit of following him home and one week I was feeling really horny and I basically went up behind him and felt his crotch and his butt, he was with his little brother and they both basically just ran away.
Every day he's all I can think about, he's the only person I've really had a connection or gotten along with. I really need him. All I ever do is look at my photos and videos of him every day, he is everything I want in a person but he hates me. He has me blocked on all social media and anytime I think about it all I can do is cry.
I don't know what to do. I just want to talk to him again so badly, every day I consider going to his house but I don't know how he'd react to it (well I do, negatively) I constantly think about him and no one else.