I promised my SO that I would try meds in order to help stabilize our relationship. I just called to make the appointment after 2 days of worrying about what I'd say over the phone. I left a voicemail. I am terrified of the numbness that might happen when I start the pills. I'm scared that I will stop feeling anything at all. But that also might be a relief - to stop being scared and depressed all the time. I know that I will off myself soon if these don't work out. I know that if they do, I will stop loving.
What gender are you?
>>17330203
Whatever it is that you need the meds for, it is almost always the case that there are 2 or 3 different meds for every condition. Your doctor will prescribe the one most likely to help, but if it has bad side effects, you can ask him to switch you to another.
Female
I resisted taking drugs for depression because I thought they would make me either a grinning idiot or a zombie.
They did neither. They just made me feel like myself again.
(Although in retrospect, Grinning Idiot might have been fun, too.)
Good luck!
>>17330203
>I know that I will off myself soon if these don't work out. I know that if they do, I will stop loving.
Maybe you should just off yourself right now.
>>17330235
you look like my brother
>>17330203
Don't get involved in the mental health system
They don't help or at least they don't autism, they might help other conditions, I don't know. I have tried every drug they have given me and ended in and out of jail and psych wards. Now I just smoke a shit ton of pot and am mostly okay.
>I'm scared
>I'm scared
>I'm a pussy
>I might off myself
>waaah
Bitch quit your whining god damn.