Halp >be me >friend with this girl for 8-9 months >never

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Halp
>be me
>friend with this girl for 8-9 months
>never found her attractive
>i friendzoned her, she friendzoned me. it's the best friendship ever, i swear.
>hang out alot, calls me everyday
>been with her at a pub yesterday
>she was talking about a douche that she wanted to invite next week here to hok up again, but in my presence
>"Fuck him" i say (after 7 beers). "I feel a little jealousy here?" she asks, "Just a little"
>she waited my bus with me at 5 in the morning 'cause idk why but she did it
>arrive home
>sleep
>DREAM.GIF
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>dream about me and her having the best time of our lifes
>suddenly i am on a plane
> think about my feelings for her, i never said that i loved her. never said the real feels
>have a bad feeling about the plane, it starts to move. i am starting to regret more that i didnt told her how much i love her.
>it crashes and i die, go to a place. start crying like crazy, some dude hugs me and say "there will always be a "too late", but not now"
>have other 3 fucking same dreams, but with different crashes. one with a truck, one with the plane just falling and one with a broken wing that led to a fire
>in each dream i had the occasion to tell her i love her, but i didn't and everytime i regreted
idk what is this... but it's making me feel strange. i've had a girlfriend for like 7 months, but.. this is another type of feeling. what the fuck. what do i do? i don't want to break the friendship with her for a fucking relationship. it's the best friendship i've ever had, and i had many friends, but apparently a part of me want a relatinship. idk why... i need help.. what do i do