Ok adv, how fucked up am I? Yesterday I got high and started

reflect on the fact that a thread was bumped off page 10 for this pointless shit

I know it may seem pointless to you but yesterday it hit me that this is something that I never told anybody. And I was thinking what would my girlfriend think if I'd told her.

and also the fact that sometimes I think about it fucks with my mind even more. I s even thinking about consulting a psychologist or some shit

Stop smoking weed, for one. Secondly you are experiencing intrusive thoughts, which weed can make worse. These thoughts should fade out with time, in the mean time you just have to deal with them. It's difficult but the more you try to avoid these thoughts, the more weight it gives them causing them to stay around. If you tried really hard to think about them, you'll find it doesn't happen.

So again, lay off the weed and give it some time.