I've got a weird "fetish". I get a strong sense of accomplishement and some satisfaction from being able to get someone EXTREMELY horny and give them mindblowing orgasms.
That's all good, but the problem is, it's all i'm interested in when it comes to sex. And it doesn't even arouse me that much. I get more of an "aloof" feeling from it.
The problem with that is that practically all i do is "putting on an act" in order to get my partner as aroused as possible. I love that powerfull feeling when i know that i can now make them cum whenever i want. The right touch or move, word or whatever and they're "mine".
It's not good. I almost never reach orgasm when having sex. And i lack that bond. I just want to have normal sex, where i enjoy the physical sensations of a tongue on my clit or a cock inside me. Where a mouth or a hand can make me tremble with excitement.
How do i reset my mental deathgrip?
Basically, i have sex only for the validation and attention. It doesn't "get me off" and i hate that it is that way. I think i do that because i my selfesteem is extremely low. I feel desireable, wanted and needed when i do that. How do i get sane again?
I'd suggest in you try a bit of sensory/motor deprivation play in the realms of bondage and s&m with specific regard to blindfolds and handcuffs.
Not a sex doctor though, just a pervert. Anyways, good luck.
>>17257319
You mean, so i have to rely on physical sensations to get off? I can give it a try, sure
Thanks for the input, anon!
>>17257233
What do you think about, look at or read when you masturbate?
>>17257337
That changes constantly. Latest searches included post orgasm torture, forced orgasm, electro-stimulation, hands-free cum shots or plain old painal.
When i fantasize, it's usually about some age-gap powerplay. It's mostly someone forcing himself on to someone else who gets off from it witheout wanting to. I fantasize about being both the predator or the "victim".
I've read some books like "120 of sodome", but i stopped because it was way too drawn out and the actual interesting scenes where pretty scarce.
Is it too late to fix me? Pls, send help /adv/...