/adv/ I'm constantly searching for some sort of pleasure

Just go for a walk, do something ambitious that gets you out of the house. go to educational courses of some sort.

I drink and smoke like a mofo but know I shouldnt and it just makes me more depressed.
My answer is to go out of the house and do shit I dont want to do, but I havnt quite got there yet. I feel like escaping is bad. I'm not incapable of it, but it becomes less and less appealing as the years go by.

>>17226583
Meant to put this in the first post but actually my problem is I choose to succumb to wasting my time. The pain I get in my chest when I even think of doing something constructive is pretty intense. I am constantly in a state of stress and my objective is always to relieve it.

>>17226572
Weed is probably the least harmful escape (assuming you use a vaporizer and aren't smoking it) short of actually trying to turn your life around.

I'd consider it an absolute last resort, but it can definitely be one.

>>17226628
I have similar issues as you, except it's a feeling of dread instead. My family unfortunately has a history of anxiety and alcoholism. What I do is small things like going outside, stores, etc. Makes other productive things easier to accomplish when I make smaller steps. It's important to realize it's a rut you're putting yourself into and tiny changes can go a long way

>>17226641
I smoke weed but only to amplify the pleasure of eating or masturbating. I don't actually enjoy weed as it also amplifies my stress, anxiety and self-hatred. There's usually some paranoia mixed in too.

>>17226746
Do you get a huge feeling of stress before you take these small steps? I always know that the small step is just a part of a bigger step so it doesn't give me any less anxiety.

>>17226790
Yeah, definitely. For me it's also accompanied by ibs, icing on the crap cake. I try to focus on the feeling that I know I'll have after tasks are complete, which is satisfaction. Then the down time can just be a earned reward. Exercise helps me as well, the main reason I purchased a weight bench recently.

File: Still02_Lamp.jpg (47KB, 674x284px) Image search: [Google]

47KB, 674x284px

I can relate...was in the same situation a few months ago and happily, my situation is nearly resolved. But Ive suffered for 8 years. keep your head up op...don't take shit from anyone!