>recently start talking to fairly well known person from 4chan

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>recently start talking to fairly well known person from 4chan
>things were shaky for a bit, decide to do my best to make them better
>she is worried i speak to other girls, i do but when I do I'm speaking to them ABOUT HER, have zero interest in the other girls
>literally only interested in her because trying to make anything real or meaningful with more than one person at a time is degenerate
>not officially together, but under no circumstance could you argue i was unfaithful
>she has to be gone for the weekend (no not some skiing trip with chad, too young for that, mothers day related stuff)
>bit of a fight friday night because combination of me hiding things from her, her being demanding
>in my defence, the things i was hiding were things about how shes wormed her way into my head and im afraid im becoming attached too quickly
>in her defence, i was quite literally hiding things
>take EXTREMELY large doses of xanax friday, saturday, and sunday night
>friday to work up courage to be honest with her, because if i want to be serious a relationship can not be founded upon lies
>saturday and last night were literally to make me numb because I actually miss her
>past 10pm where she, bit past 9m here
>monday
>she should be back
>can think of one situation where she has a legitimate reason to not have been in contact with me
>other situations means she played me like fiddle
>panic attacks and physically shaking, probably combination of xanax withdrawal and anxiety

how would any of you handle this? what do you do when youre anticipating a message from her literally every second but it never comes so you never get a reprieve?