I never come to this board but I'm desperate.
I've known this guy for over 4 years. Recently met up with him and everything was great. Cost me a fortune though.
He asked me what my previous job was and I was like 'oh, did you forget? I worked as an escort for a while'. He got so upset and weird about it tho I told him before.
Later I asked him if he was interested in visiting me and he said 'I dont think thats a good idea anymore'. So I said okay, I'll stop bothering you then.
I've been depressed so many times because we had fights or stopped talking with each other over the past 4 years. But we'd always end up talking again. It was mostly my fault when things were fucked.
But I can't get over this guy. Tried it throughout the years I've known him and it never works. What can I do now?
Anyway to fix it or something
Nope.
You were a literal whore, some guys just can't deal with that. Some will say they can, just so they can use you since they see you as worthless, and then drop you. But you can't change their minds either, all you do is move on.
My advice though, is to learn to lie. Absolutely no one will know if you do. It's the only way you'll ever find love and not die alone since you can't back decisions you've already made.