How do you process rejection?
I'm 24 and just got rejected by the 19 y/o girl I was "seeing" for several months. First time ever being rejected and it's eating me alive. I feel what I process as love for this girl.
I broke it off because she is damaged at her core, and cannot make a commitment to me outside of abusive sex.
I enjoy our sex life to the fullest extent but I also care for her in a very tender way. I just don't know how to process what I'm feeling; it's intense and either loathing or love.
How have you dealt with emotions like this in the past?
For reference, I'm not hurting for female attention. I have 3 other women I sleep with regularly but I wanted something with this woman. We clicked by her own admission, she had/has feelings. She just couldn't commit the way I needed, I was going to be a partner or nothing and I chose nothing.