Hi guys, I'm here because I need unburden , I'm 18 years old, and I have a serious problem of self-esteem, I'm ugly, too thin, I have an unattractive face and very unlucky to relate to people, a while ago I met a girl online and we were very good friends, the problem is that I delude with her (even knowing that she has a girlfriend, if she is bisexual)and I hope to have something with her, even long-distance (she lives in another country) I know that sounds silly, but she is special, he had never met anyone with a way of being so incredible, but recently not talk with her so often, we have just distanced (partly it's my fault, I stopped socializing with her because I do not want continue to feel hurt, I know there will never be anything more than a friendship between us)
>>16901726
Is her name "Lux?"
( I will continue here) so... all my life I have been a complete failure in everything I've done, I've been harassed, and also I feel like a completely useless, I had only one love affair In my 18 years and was ephemeral and empty
(I will continue here) so ... all my life I have Been a complete failure in everything I've done, I 've been harassed, and also I feel like a completely useless, i had only one love affair In my 18 years and was ephemeral and empty, I am currently in college, but I feel unmotivated and I have no courage to live, I don't find meaning in my life, (I forgot to mention I'm bulimic too)
>>16901769
what would you like to be?
>>16901829
I want to be someone completely different, be happy and possibly never again feel anything for anyone (I think my chances of being reciprocated in love are practically nil) I just want to accept me as I am, and be someone in life, get out of depression and bulimia and fill the void inside me with something that really makes me feel full