I've chosen to have a career in music, but I feel like I'm

If you don't enjoy doing it, and you're not very good at it, why the fuck are you still doing it? Why are you posting this here? What do you expect people to tell you?

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the op wasn't written that well

I do like it. I do like arranging all those notes and chords, etc. but I always have this sensation that it'd be much less appealing if nobody ever listened to my music. I think I'm just using it as a vehicle to get attention

I'm just conflicted, I always have this thing where I feel like I'm being a narcissist and that I should kill anything resembling an ego

Art is a bad career choice.

Most artists had real jobs. Michael Gira worked in construction even when his band was getting reviewed in the New York Times.

Get a real job and practice mysic in your spare time.

When you're not depending on music for money it will come from a better place and you'll be able to make better music.

Most music isn't even worth money until you get a caring fanbase. That's why piracy blew up.

Get a job, practice, and maybe eventually you'll record an amazing album.

Most artists who make music their career at a young age will typically sellout their originality in order to make more money.