So I had this experience a few months back that makes my stomach

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So I had this experience a few months back that makes my stomach sink every time I think of it.

I was out with some friends for dinner, one of which is a girl I have a crush on, but has indirectly shown she's not interested in me.
Anyway we get to goodbyes and we're giving hugs. When I get to my crush, she kind of reluctantly gives me a very light hug (she's not that comfortable hugging guys to begin with), which is disappointing but whatever. Then another of the girls gives her a hug, and they have this tight, cute hug, and for some reason I felt like she was teasing me. Well, it worked, and I get this huge surge of jealousy.

I'm a pretty jealous person, and sometimes when I'm feeling jealous like this I imagine myself flipping the bird with both fingers and saying "Fuck youuuuuuu!" to the source of my jealousy. The problem was, this time I did it in real life.

Everyone, including myself was like "What the hell was that?"
I didn't really know what had happened myself, so I tried to shrug it off, finished my goodbyes and left.
I haven't been invited out since, and when I see them incidentally I can't tell if it's in my head or not, but they seem a bit more distant, and I haven't spoken to or seen the girl I pulled the fingers to at all.

Uhh yeah. So can anyone give me some advice about this? I feel pretty shitty every time I remember it.